*Present Day*
I woke up with a start. Looking left and right before relaxing. I looked down forcing the tears back. I hated that memory the most. The day where I was forced to lose my innocence, by him.
I stood up disgusted with myself and headed to the bathroom. I grabbed my lighter form the counter and took a cigarette from the pack in my pocket. Putting the pack back I turned on the vent and lit the cigarette. I inhaled deeply before flicking the lighter again, staring at the small, hot flame. I closed my eyes as I took another drag form my cigarette.
I put the cigarette out under the faucet before turning to leave the bathroom but not before grabbing my lighter, blades and self-harm box from the room.
I went back into my bedroom sitting down on the rickety bed and setting the box in front of me. I sighed. 'I need to take my mind of things' I thought. I looked at the box moving to open it . As it opened I see all my self-harm gear.
My replacement blades, the bandages and gauze, my matches and good lighter, pain pills and sleeping pills, burn cream and anti-bacterial ointment.
All the good stuff.
I picked out the matches, burn cream, and guaze out. I rolled up my left sleeve and pulled of the gauze enjoying the pain of it. I grabbed the matches and stuck it on the pack and watched the flame come to life. I stared at it lovingly before holding the flame against my already scared and scabbed over arm. I watched as the scabs almost melted away and listened as the raw flesh started to sizzle.
After a few more moments I pulled away the flame and put it out. I grabbed burn cream and put it on the mauled flesh liking how the flesh burned before eventually feeling a cooling numbness. Once I was happy with ointment I grabbed the gauze and wrapped my arm with the breathable cloth.
I was putting my self harm stuff in the box when my phone went off. I jumped 10 feet in the air before calming down and grabbing the phone off the nightstand. I looked at the screen and seeing it was just an alarm. I looked at the description and my eyes widened. Today was moving day!
I jumped up from my seated position on the bed and scrambled to my closet. I grabbed my two duffel bags and my old black school book bag and started packing my things.
I grabbed my laptop, drawnig tablet, sketchbook and art supplies and set them in my book bag. I put the small amount of clothes I own into one duffle along with my bathroom things and all my pet items and snacks into the other. My eyes widened as I realized I almost forgot my most important possessions.
I ran back into my room grabbing my box and the necklace from the bed post. I put the box in my bookbag and put the necklace on.
I went thru all the bags masking sure I have everything before I change and grab fluffy. As soon as I was sure I had everything I pulled up my hair into a ponytail and put in my snake bites and earrings. I grabbed my my cloud sweater and white pants before putting em on. I fixed his necklace and put on a chocker. I bent down and slipped on my converse and tied the strings.
After I was dressed I grabbed the plastic container for my pet and went to the cage that held her. 'Awwwwwww' I thought 'she's so cute sleeping!' I smiled as I took of her habitats lid and moved her into her carrying case.
I aww'ed again and spoke softly to her. " hey Fluffy... I'm sorry for waking you, we're moving to a new house to day" I said as I smiled at my baby. She looked at me as I talked and cuddled up to the bedding I put in. She was so cute I had to take a pic!
I smiled at my phone before reality came crashing back down on me. I sighed as packed my things and into my car. I buckled my lil baby in the passenger seat before sliding over the hood and to my door.
I laughed at my antics and got in the car. I made sure to set the air on as soon as I got in, as for fluffy to not overheat. I put the car in reverse and set off to our new home.
I just hoped my roommates would be cool and stay out of my life.