Casey
I'm so disappointed in myself. I let her do this to me. I-. The door creeps open I feel my self wither into my covers so disappointed in myself. I just want to be alone. I hear Lena's voice try to straighten itself out. I look up from myself pity to see her crying oh my god I made her cry I made HER cry. I rush to the edge of the bed the UV in my arm pulling and stinging but that's not what matters I made her cry. I rush to throw my arms around her to start peppering her tiny adorable face in small kisses. She starts to speak and says I thought you were gonna die I was so scared Casey I was so scared my life felt like it was getting ripped away I need you casey please please never let another touch you again. I feel something warm and wet slide down my cheek. I'm crying? I feel those heavy feelings again of drowning the feelings of crashing waves coming over me like a horse galloping on a pit of sand parts of me getting thrown to were I can not reach. I want to be there for Lena to be able to love her like she deserves. I love her.