I Stayed Still, Standing While Obediently Looking down As Mother Glared At Me Before Sighing In Dissapointment.
"Im So Dissapointed at You Venna, You Didn't Rank First Place On Your Collage exams and Let A Mere Commoner Beat You"
"I Didn't Raise You To Be In Second Place"
"You Are a Dissapointment To The Whole Corporation"
I Didn't say A Word, Not Wanting to say a Single Excuse As I Felt My Eyes Burning up and Tearing Up While she didn't Give me a Single glance after Scolding Me.
I promise myself To loath this Excuse of a Mother After Finding Out That she was The reason why Leo Was Killed...
Yet Still Managed to Keep A Single ounce of Hope That Maybe she isn't That Bad.
Maybe She isn't Much Of A Monster.
Maybe she truly cared for me.
I Gave Her the Benefit of The Doubt because I Believed That People Can Change, Sure she Might be the reason why Dad Died But Maybe..
Maybe she 'Tried' to change.
The Loud Sound of A Gunshot and My Heart beating Loudly As I Screamed In Pain, My Vision was Getting Blurry as I Looked at the Blood Spilling On My Hand.
The Emotionless Glare of My Own Mother Was Something that I remembered In the Midst of Death as Her cold Words rung On My Mind Like sweet whispers.
""Im So Dissapointed at You Venna, You Didn't Rank First Place On Your Collage exams and Let A Mere Commoner Beat You""
""I Didn't Raise You To Be In Second Place""
""You Are a Dissapointment To The Whole Corporation""
Dissapointment..
Is That Me?
Like Waking Up On A Cruel Nightmare, I Gasp Loudly While Sitting Up On The Bed. My Eyes Wide As that scene Reappeared in My Dreams Again.
"Hah.."
Gasping Loudly Before Finally Calming down after finding out That I Am Still Not dreaming and actually acquired A Second chance to change.
I Glanced At The Person Beside me before noticing That Leo was still sound asleep and was Busy Snoring Peacefully to Notice My Distress.
A Dissapointment..
Getting Out of the Bed, I Stepped in At the Cold Hard Tile Floor While Grabbing My Phone to Know what time it is.
5AM.
Its still Early In the Morning and My Class starts Later so I Should Atleast Get More sleep.
Getting Back At The Bed, I Tried to Close My Eyes while Trying to clear Out My mind.
Except My Mind wasn't Listening to Me.
I Gave Mother A Lot of Chances.
I Believed That she would Change one day and Be a Better Person.
I Believed That She Killed Dad because She couldn't Take the 'Stress' Anymore.
Stupid, I Know But What can You Expect?
Im A Stupid Teen Before Who Was desperate for Love and Would Do anything to get her Mom's Attention.
How Do You Define A 'Dissapointment'?
Is It By How Much IQ They Have? How Much Money They Have in their Bank Accounts? How Happy They Are? How Attractive They Are?
Was I A Dissapointment?
I Believed That I Wont ever become A Dissapointment because I Graduated At the Top of My Collage, Studied Hard to Get A Bachelors Degree and Was considered Attractive In My Teen Year.
Was I Not A Dissapointment?
In The End, I Knew to Myself That I was Getting Manipulated By My Own Mother Yet Decided to Let It Be Because I Wanted to Deny the Truth.
That My Mother isn't As Bitchy and Phycopathic As I thought she is.
My Mother was Playing With Me.
She Would Act Cold and Be Demanding and then Act Nice Infront of Other People, She would Praise Me If I Did something That she benefited from Yet Slap Me In the Face if she Found out That I Sneaked Outside The House.
It was Like I was A Slave In My Own House, Never allowed to Go Outside and Only Allowed If My Mother Give Her Permission.
It wasn't Like Only In My Teen Years...
It stayed Until I was In The Midst 20's And Already Graduated Collage, I Took A Online Collage Course Because Mother didn't allow me to Go Outside due to her Paranoia.
Mother Acted Like That Disney Villain In Repunzel Except shes actually My Real Mother and I Don't Have That cheesy Prince Rescuing Me From My Hell.