You accepted the offer?
I know I'm feeling really nervous right now. I know that Dad is discreetly finding ways to reach out to me and what am I doing. The fact that he mostly knows what I do everyday scares me. Yeah, it scares me. I feel that way because I know he is not doing that for concern or because he cares for me. It is to make sure I wouldn't do something wrong. No, I'll rephrase it. To make sure everything I do is going his way.
"Yes, Dad.....I mean, it's a great....way to start in the agency," I spoke without looking at him. I kept on looking at the papers on the table just so that he would not notice I'm too uncomfortable.
"Don't call me that, specially in front of people who don't know that you're my....," He can't even say I'm his daughter. He hates me that much, huh?
"Yes...," I felt like I should add Sir to that. How should I call him? How should I call my own father?
"I am not telling you to reject the offer. I forgot you already accepted it. It's fine for me," I looked at him directly in the eye when I heard what he just said. I should not rejoice . I know that he has eyes everywhere. I don't know what he's capable of doing.
"You're allowing me to travel?" I asked him about going to other countries because of the photo shoot.
"As long as you don't forget about the responsibility you would take as a CEO of our company. But, if I could see that the photo shoot affects your grades, you will step out of the agency, immediately. Remember that you have to prove yourself enough, don't be the cause of the downfall of the hospitals and our company," Dad added with authority. I always feel that whenever he speaks.
"Yes, I promise it wouldn't affect my studies since that would still be on vacation," I promised to him.
I wanted to try to stay being comfortable with him. I don't even know if that's possible. The way he is making me feel is like I am an employee who should obey his commands. I hope I could get use to the thought that my father treats me that way and changing his treatment to me...I have no idea on how to make that possible.
Now that I have that in mind, did he caress me even just once when I was still a child? I don't know if it's possible to remember some details of your childhood clearly. But, I can't remember..... Maybe he didn't. He thinks I am a huge mistake.
"You may no go," He said in a very low voice. I quickly went to the door and opened it. When I was out of his office already, I exhaled and I uttered thank you then just walked towards my room.
I'm still happy that he allowed me in exchange of another pressure. No worries, I can handle that. Now, I can tell my friends about what just happened.
Me: My Dad allowed me :)
Rhyll: Weh? Di nga.....
Me: It's true.
Rhyll: Weh? Baka pinapagaan mo lang loob mo. Baka nga umiiyak ka na kasi may guard na ipapasama sayo kung saan ka pumunta.
Me: Totoo nga.
Rhyll: Really?
Zai: Bahala ka Rhyll kung ayaw mong maniwala.
Sav: He allowed you talaga?! Aaaaahhhhhh!!
Me: Uulitin ko. This will be the last. He allowed me if you don't believe me then don't. It won't change the fact that he allowed me.
Av: In exchange of what?
Me: High grades...
Sav: Not bad...
Xia: At last. Haha
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They told me that going to school at five while my lectures are still 8:00 is too early. Yeah,that's true. I only seldom do that when I have to calm myself. But, actually I have a condo near my school and I drop my things there. My father won't allow me to move out. If I stay in the mansion, that means he could easily know where I'm heading because I have to ask permission. Kahit di sa kanya, sa mga katulong man lang. I hate it kapag napapahamak sila dahil lamang sa akin. I have no choice. That's why I have to tell them where am I heading.
I can't just bring my friends in the mansion. I never tried to ask Dad about that.
Today is a normal day for me. I would be heading to the gym and perform my usual routines. How I wish one of my friends wanted to proceed with medicine. Wala, ako lang mag-isa. Maybe, its because I saw my Dad and Mom's passion. They only influenced my decision. I'm glad na di ako pinilit because I don't even know if di ako papayag in case na pinilit nga ako.
Paulit ulit ko nga lang inisip. Why me? That's a really big responsibility. I've heard that my sister wants to pursue medicine, too. But, she'd like to enjoy her teen life first.
Yes, we are just in the same age. She's older than me for months. She is Dad's daughter but from another woman. The woman he said he loves. I respect that and I still treat her daughter as my older sister but she never did that to me. Di ko na pinilit ang sarili ko. Nakakapagod din kasi but it's fine.
Halos alam ng lahat ang nangyayari sa pamilya namin. Dad introduces Zaila as her daughter, he never did that to me. If you ask someone, who Zaila Feliza Ramirez is it would ring a bell. They would immediately say the famous model who is the daughter of Franco Ramirez.
"Hi Iyah,usual routines?" I nodded the he brought me to a mat for warm ups.
"Let's start," The gym instructor told me. Kilala na ako ng mga fitness instructors dito kasi dito na talaga ako when I started. I haven't tried going to other gyms. Si Zai lang yata at Ari ang palaging magkasama kapag pupunta sa gym. Minsan lang si Xia at Sav.
"Next, regular lunges," I performed the exercise.
When I'm already done with the regular lunges, I walked towards the treadmill and then I started walking first.
"I saw the summer collection," My instructor suddenly told me. Muntik na akong madapa sa treadmill. He laughed at my reaction. I just ignored his remarks about how my body improved.
I don't do weight lifting. My fitness instructor told me that he doesn't recommend those for me. I already have a good figure. I just have to maintain it. He recommends yoga and suspension training for me. I also usually do push ups, lunges and squats.
I just finished in my usual ending time. It's still 6:05 a.m. I have time to prepare for my schedule.
I cooled down first to make my heart rate and body temperature normal. I drank water too. It's important that you should rest first for 20-30 mins before going for a shower so that's what I did. This is also one of the reasons why I bought a condominium near my school.
I finished around 7: 05 a.m. I ate the bacon, sunny side up egg, and bread that I bought for breakfast a while ago. I drank fresh milk after.
I sprayed a bit perfume. I do my face routines inside the bath room and also apply lotion inside that's why mas mabilis akong nakakapuntang school. I left my car in the basement of the condo so bababa pa ako para kunin yun. I'll park that in the university's parking, instead.
I arrived at exactly 7:42 a.m. I'm not that early na since I realized madami na akong nagagawa or napupuntahan instead of waiting for my lectures. I'm just really scared of being late and scolded by my Dad. Of course, I tried my best to not be late. The teachers have known me to be an early bird, same case with my reports. Last time, we discussed about a patient who has a maple syrup urine disease.
Maple syrup urine disease (MSUD) is a rare inborn error of metabolism resulting from a deficiency in the branched-chain alpha-ketoacid dehydrogenase complex. MSUD has been reported to be the most common inborn error of metabolism in the Philippines.
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Our clinical rotations mostly go challenging. Clinical rotations allow students to apply knowledge from the classroom to real life medical situations. During rotations, students shadow physicians and residents at teaching hospitals, have access to patients, and gain valuable hands-on experience.
We are able to interact with patients and also treat them. We get involved in the diagnoses and treatment of patients but of course, still under the supervision of a resident or faculty. It's like we are not only expected to master the knowledge in treating patients but also we have to assume that we are really true physicians.
Kakatapos lang ng mga rotations. I was about to enter inside my car nang may narinig akong batang umiiyak. I walked in the benches just near the hospital and I saw a kid touching her knees while crying. She looks like a five year old girl who is dressed with elegance.
"Mommy....I can't find mommy," The child keeps on saying those words and she didn't notice my presence.
I came nearer and she opened her eyes.
"Don't worry, we'll find your Mommy," I told her habang inaalo ko siya.
"Are you a doctor?" The child's voice seems like she's really trained to speak in a classy way.
"No," I laughed and I showed her my school identification card.
"My Mom and Dad are both doctors," She said.
"Okay...we'll find them," I stood and I was about to help her stand.
"But, my wound hurts...,"Then she started crying again so I sat in front of her.
"Okay, we'll clean that. Is it okay? I'll get the medicine kit in my car first," The kid nodded and she tried to calm herself. I remember myself in her before. I used to follow my mother because I admire her a lot that's why I ended up acting elegant at a young age.
When I came back, she is already smiling at me. She even waved at me. She is fine that fast, already?
"Okay...tell me when it hurts," She nodded and she closed her eyes but opened them immediately to see what am I doing. I finished fast because she didn't cry and complain.
I was stunned in place when she hugged me and I hugged her back.
"Zaye!," I heard a familiar voice.
"Fuck....di ka mahanap nila Mommy," He just whispered the first word so that the kid can't hear it.
Wait. Mommy?
The kid is her sister??
I looked at Daron carrying the girl. The girl looked at me with a smile.
"Hello Ms. Doctor, I'm Zaye Fahress Wood," I'm shocked that she could introduce herself formally. She offered a hand while Daron is carrying her. I accepted the hand and smiled at her.
"What's your name po Ms. Doctor?"She asked.
"I'm Zariyah Ramirez. You can call me ate Iyah," She nodded and slapped her older brother in the face who stared for too long. Ngayon lang niya yata ako napansin. She leaned to whisper to her brother.
"Crush mo si ate Iyah, Kuya? Bagay kayo ni Ms. Doctor," Her sister winked at him then she laughed. Her whisper's so loud!
Daron just laughed at that. I noticed he turned a bit red. I also laughed.
"Ikaw talaga, Zaye," Then kinurot niya yung pisngi ni Zaye.
"Ligawan mo siya,Kuya, " She whispered again.
"Put me down, Kuya. Please," Zaye ran to a direction and I saw the relieved faces of their parents. She hugged them both. They are heading to our direction.
"Mommy and Daddy meet, Ate Iyah. She is the Ms. Doctor I'm talking about,"Zaye told her parents when they stopped in front of us. Her Mom and Dad expressed their gratitude wholeheartedly.
"Good afternoon, M'am, Sir. I'm Iyah Ramirez. Call me Iyah. Nice to meet you," They accepted the hand I offered.
"No need to be formal, Iyah! Call me Tita Amelia, Ija," The mother of Daron told me.
"Ramirez? You related to Franco Ramirez?" The father of Daron asked me. I nodded.
"He's my father Sir," When I said those, I remembered the words my Dad told me. I suddenly felt doubtful if should I have said that or better not.
"Call me Tito Fernand. How is Franco doing?" He asked.
"Still busy, Tito," I answered.
"As always," He laughed.
"Mommy, I want to be like ate Iyah," Zaye said. I didn't notice she was keep on staring at me.
"That's why you should study, baby," Tita said.
"Right, ate?"Tita asked me. I just nodded and smiled at Zaye.
"I will po Mommy. Let's go home na po. I want to study," Zaye said then she turned to me.Ang bilis, ha!
"Bye po Ate! Please visit our house! Bend po," I bended and she kissed my cheeks. I glanced at Daron then I saw he's amused by his sister's movements.
"Bye, baby," I told her and hugged her.
"Mine, baby?" Daron said to Zaye but he's looking at me.
"Don't call me baby, Kuya!" Zaye shouted.
"What? I'm not allowed? But, your ate Iyah is?" Daron asked and acted nagtatampo. Zaye nodded and walked going to her Mom.
"Stop that, Silly," Tita pointed at Daron who's pouting his lips while she's giving him a kiss on the cheek.
"Congratulations to your successful photo shoot, btw," Tita Amelia kissed my cheek as goodbye. I thanked her after.
Yeah, the photos went really viral. They suggested that I should disguise when I got to public places. But, I refused because some pictures and greetings won't hurt. I can't consider myself famous already. They're like that because Daron became my partner in modeling. I'm happy to know that others see the potential in me as a model. Di na din masyadong nagpapanic yung crowd if they see me. They're scared na baka magalit daw si Daron, silly.
"We'll go ahead, Ija," Tito Fernand tapped my shoulder. I gave him a smile.
"Sige po," Nagpaalam din sila kay Daron then they left us alone.
"Thank you," Daron spoke when their car is not anymore seen on the road.
"Uhhhm. You're welcome," I suddenly felt uncomfortable knowing that we're alone. I remembered something......
"How about the treat I promised?" We are walking towards our cars. I suddenly remembered his white long sleeve inside the paper bag. I was planning to give that one to him when I see him and he's in front of me right now! I can give that to him.
"No, bayad ka na. Your gift's my favorite," Nagulat ako dun. I didn't even know its him. Axel ang lahat ng nakalagay na name. I don't know which name he prefers to be called. But, his family calls him Axel.
"My treat," He said.
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A/N: I'm not a medical student po but I'm trying my best to write like I know the field. Thank you so much for reading! Love lots :)
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