"I was having a panic attack that night and it's really heartbreaking that because of my panic attack, I didn't protect you."
I bite my lips when reckoning about the panic attack. Theo has told me when we were in college that he had a friend that was traumatized when his friend is in middle school. And that panic attack abruptly triggers when it experiences the same tragic event from the past.
So does it mean, when Alyssum yells at me, name-calling me… It triggers his panic attack. But why? Does he traumatize from the past?
Then, I snap into reality when unexpectedly, he kneels in front of me and begs for my forgiveness. "Mia, I'm sorry that I didn't protect you. I'm sorry for all the things that I've done. I infer that what I did is absurd but please, forgive me."
I sigh in defeat and lean closer to him. "I can forgive you but it's not easy to forget. I trusted you but you shatter my trust into pieces."
"Mia…"
