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"Sure, if we could return the time, I'll be the one to confess to you instead." His smile was getting more and more tender each time he smiled. I guess he was getting good at smiling.
We continued to walk side by side, hand in hand. We talked about everything; my family, my hobbies, his experience at battle fields, our abilities, the state of the world…
We walked slowly, like trying to reject the flow of time.
Until I realized that the sky had turned dark, finally we could part.
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"See you, senior. Thank you for sending me home."
Thank you for making my last day this beautiful.
I tried to loosen my hand grip on his, but he wouldn't let go.
"Call me by my name," he said.
"Ah? What?"
"Or I wouldn't let you go home."
Fuck! I don't want to let go! But the time…
I was trying to look down at my watch, but my chin got pushed upward.
"Look at me. You don't know my name? You intend to call me senior after today too?"
After today… I would not have a chance to call him anymore.
I circled my arms around his shoulder, then threw my body at him. "Xuyun-ge! Xuyun-ge!"
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Ah, I'm so sorry. Don't fall in love with me for real. I'm scared of you having a heartbreak.
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Before I could feel him embracing me back, I heard a cracking sound from behind, the sound became louder, closer. I felt senior grabbing me, jumping to the side. That thing crashed, it was an old street lamp.
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SNAP!!
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Like something as big as a truck hit me, I felt all the bone in my body scattered. I looked at senior as my body went limp. Why? He looked shocked. I fell down on his arms. Something stuck in my throat, when I coughed to get it out, blood sprayed instead.
"It's a shot! Someone there is shooting! There's wounded person!"
A crowd of people started to gather around me, looking all panic. So that was what happened. I was shot. It had began, my accident.
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"A-A-Are you…. o…k…" my voice didn't come as I wanted. "So…rry.."
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He didn't say anything. He held my face close, wiping the blood on my face. I saw my parents panicked face. They screamed a lot, but I couldn't hear them. My ears were ringing. My eyes were getting blurry as well. Where are you, senior? I couldn't feel your warmth too. I couldn't hug you back too.
Right, I haven't kiss you yet. Why was the accident happened so early?
An ambulance car had came, people were making way. Don't waste your time saving me. I will die today, your help would bear no fruit. Help other people instead!
But senior was still embracing me. I guess they told him to move over, but he didn't budge. Senior, don't be like this okay? I'll remember you in the next life, confess to you earlier, then we can be a family. But don't cling to a corpse.
But I could feel him tightening his arms more, his mouth moved, and a murmur came into my ears,
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"Repeat."