Ruhan's P.O.V
Riwa and I have came close from these last two weeks & I've learned a lot of new things about her like she's the only child of her parents and her parents are very supportive of her. Then there is her love for chocolate. She ate a lot of chocolates even though her parents stopped her from eating them.
I used to think that I can hide my feelings from her without any problem but after knowing how bubbly, sweet,loving and kind she is. It's becoming difficult for me to hide my love and affection for her.
We have only one week left before our farewell party and i want to give it a try or more precisely give us a try.
Riwa & I spent our break together with mine and her best friends. My best friend Abhi knows how much I love Riwa. So, he always look for chances to leave us alone.
As usual Riwa was there sitting with me as our friends have gone to order lunch for us. I looked at Riwa who was busy looking at her book and asked, " So, Riwa what is your opinion about relationships?"
She gave a confused look and raised an eyebrow at me.
"Hmm...I mean have you ever been in a relationship?" I asked again.
"N-no..why did you asked?" She questioned me.
"Nothing just wanted to ask." I said. "Have you ever thought about being in a relationship?" I asked her.
"Actually yes but....." she stopped.
"But what?" I said.
"Actually I have liked someone from a very long time but don't know how he feels." She said.
I felt like someone has pierced my heart. I wanted to Scream and cry but I managed to maintain a smile and asked, " who is the lucky guy?"
She looked away and didn't answer.
"Is he in our school?" I asked and she nodded.
"I-in our class?" My voice was quivering in the end when i asked her again.
She nodded again.
Trust me i felt like my inside was dying. I can't do this anymore. So, i stood up and left without looking back.
I could hear Riwa calling my name but I wasn't in the right state of mind so I ignored her.
I made an excuse and went home. My mom & dad were at work so I was alone.
I've never felt so helpless and miserable. And no one was there to comfort.
My parents are always busy. They don't have time for me. I'm always alone in this big house. My parents think money could keep me happy but they are wrong-very wrong.
My parents are one of the reason why I'm always in school and not home. And the funny thing is they don't even care.
Riwa has been the only girl who could take these bad feeling out of my mind. Just a smile from her can lit up my whole mood. She is a ray of hope in my life but now my only hope has been shattered into pieces.
I have never felt this kind of feeling before. It's really really strange and suffocating. I have liked her for so long.
"How could she fell in love with someone else? How?"
Tears were slowly rolling from my eyes. I had never cried for anyone else but at that point I don't know for how long I had cried.
After calming myself down I thought it through and realised that it's not actually her fault to like someone else. B'coz i never tried to tell her about my feeling. I was a coward and this results in losing my right to love her from now on. But how would I'll be able to do that. It's not easy to forget someone to whom we had loved for so many year. It's worse than dying.
What makes it even more difficult is that the only girl I have ever loved is so near to me and yet so far. I can see her but can't touch her or hold her. She can never be Mine.
So, I decided that I will try to avoid her as much as I can. Because I don't wanna ruin her happiness as maybe in future I wouldn't be able to stop myself from expressing my feelings to her and most importantly I couldn't bear to see her with other guy. Just the thought of it is killing me.
I stayed in my room for the whole day and at night when my mom called me for dinner and I declined and said i'm not hungry. I don't even know when had my mom & dad returned home from work.
But at that moment I didn't even care b'coz I wanted to be alone.
I was lying on my bed thinking about Riwa. I tried to sleep but I couldn't.
I tried to stop myself from thinking about her but my thoughts were drifting back to her or maybe my heart, my mind, my soul and every single cell in my body was already used to think about her and only HER.
I wanted to be happy for her but the pain in my heart was unbearable.
I stood up from my bed and went near the window to clear my mind but was failing miserably as my thought were going back to Riwa again.
Though she wasn't looking at me but I could still feel her contentment in her voice when she said that she liked someone else.
So,I decided that I'll never do anything that will hurt her. No matter how painful it'll be I will make myself accept the truth that she can be never mine. That she belongs to someone else.
I will never ever come in between of her way to happiness. Infact I will help her as much as I can to clear all the obstacles in her way to happiness.
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