I just got home from another hectic, stressful day from work. When I got home, I do some laundry and clean myself. While doing these things I was so engrossed in thinking that it's been weeks since we broke-up. That our LDR has ended, yet, not in a good way. You have been in my mind every single minute, missing and longing you. I can say it is my fault why we fell to this situation.
After having a lot of things in mind I feel so tired that I fell asleep.
I am trying to forget you that I have to do the kilometers of walking just to make my mind occupied and not to think anything that will reminds me of you. You knew it is one of my biggest NO NO in life, yet I did it.
While I was walking with a friend, I accidentally held someone's arm that I mistook for my friend's arm who is beside me, but then, when I saw the face I saw it was my cousin.
"Oh I'm sorry!" I said. I notice that it is not my friend's arm im holding.
"No problem!" My cousin said with a smile.
" Ace?! What are you doing here? And you look good! Your cheeks are fluffy now!" I asked and commented to my cousins appearance. It's been years since I saw my family.
Again Ace just smiled and walk together with us. I didn't heard him talking and it is a normal thing for him. He is not a talkative kind of person, even to his family members.
As I walk by, I saw my other cousin with his nanny. He is still a toddler by the way.
Without talking he run towards me so I can carry him.
"Baby! What are you doing here?" Without an answer my cousin just clung in my neck.
No one is answering all my talking. I miss my family that much that even without them not responding I feel complete.
While my thoughts are being occupied by the presence of my family. I received a text from unknown number.
"Meet me at the airport. I am here" without a second thought, I go directly to the Airport alone leaving my cousins behind.
Standing in the waiting area, I saw you. With your coiled hair standing out from the crowd. Before I get so irritated that you didn't tie or cut it. Yet with this scene, I am starting to love that coiled hair of yours. It gives you your own unique style and identity.
With that scene, I am confident that it is you I'm seeing. I can't tell how glad I am at time, that I can't help but to run towards you.
"Hubby!" While clinging on you.
"I'm here!" You said while smiling. Words can't describe what Im feeling, but to cry out of happiness while hugging you too tight like you will vanish once I let go.
Still hugging you I said "Let's go! For sure you are hungry from your flight." And you immediately agreed.
"This will be your or our hotel room" I brought you to a small yet cozy hotel to rest and eat. You just let me do the talking while listening and tailing me wherever I go.
After everything is settled we walked to hotel's restaurant.
"I love it" as I intertwined our hands.
I introduced you to my friends who's on a date too. They offered us to join them but I refused.
"Hey! You can join us here in our table. It is big enough for us" my friend Patrick offered.
" Thank you! But no. We will have our own table, we want quality time for each other" as I respond.
"If that's what you both want, no problem"
You just listening to us talking and just staring at me.
"Hubby! I miss you!" I am being clingy. Talking while hugging you.
Still without talking you just hug me tighter.
*boom* *boom*
"There's a fireworks! Hubby let's watch!" I am excitedly dragged you to the best position to watch the fireworks.
" So beautiful! Amazing! Amazing!" Still hugging you tightly. I am scared that you will be gone again.
You just keep on smiling, but in this time you talked " I missed you too! What gift do you want next year?" You asked.
"Next year? 2021? What's with next year?" I answered without having a deep thought.
"What gift do you want?" You asked again, now this time you are starting at me.
I am still hugging you but this time my face buried in your chest " You. I want you alone " I answered, though I am wondering why you are asking me that.
Fireworks already ended and we go back inside the hotel restaurant.
While we are walking, I clung on your arm and sniffed your white shirt. Trying to determine what cologne you are using, if ever you do. Yet, you doesn't have any smell. With Your coiled hair, Your not so long beard and with just a plain clothes scent, I feel safe and finally home.
At that moment I can say "You are my home."
All I do is hugging you, wishing not end this moment.
With unknown circumstances, I woke up, from the most wonderful dream I ever had.
You don't talk that much, You just let me hug you for the longest time as I can like if will be the last time. Here now my greatest fear appeared.
In reality I don't want to dream anything about you, because I believe if I did, the possibility of meeting you in person is zero percent.
And with this, Is this the sign for me to move on and forget about you?
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