KIM NAMJOON
KIM SOEKJIN
MIN YOON GI
JUNG HOSOEK
PARK JIMIN
KIM TAEHYUN
JEON JUNGKOOK
BTS
I fan chanted at the top of my lungs!!. It was such a great moment, shouting at the top of my lungs for BTS and partly singing with BTS and other ARMYS. They were continuing their love yourself tour and finally not knowing how did it happen, they came to Bhutan for their tour 🙊. As they sang and danced on their song idol, Jhope (my bias)came singing and dancing his part infront of me and the frontline armies. Me, not believing what I was seeing infront of me,I was mesmerized and taken aback by his raping and dancing skills.
Suddenly, our eyes meet for a bit and he smiled at me, I smiled back sheepishly. He then shouted my name,"Sonam" "Sonam." As I was wondering what was happening, how does he know my name? but the shout didn't stop,it continued until I realized I was at the class, sleeping and drooling!.
"SONAM"
"SONAM"
"Wake up, wake up," Tago said.
I suddenly woke up and started to rub my eyes,still not over with my sleep. It was such a great dream but it was ruined by her now🤦🏻♀️.
"Hey!why did you wake me up from my sleep?" I asked her coldly.
"If I didn't wake you up on time then the teacher would've already given you the punishment, FOR SLEEPING!" Tago threw back at me.
Flustered by my words, I said sorry to her for behaving coldly. She said it's okay and then i shared her about my amazing dream of BTS in Bhutan.
Tago asked me,"Haven't you been stanning them for 5 years?how come you are still loving them all these years and not loving other groups that much?"
I replied with a smile on my face,"You see? it's like now I am kind of connected to them and also to the fandom. Their music has helped me so much and it's just awesome knowing that I'm continuing to love them despite the other group's songs are good too. They play a major role in keeping me happy and like I can't really explain why I'm loving them so much!."
Tago chuckled knowing how much I love BTS and the fact that she knows I'll kill whoever tries to trigger me by saying bad things about BTS.
"Well..well,I know how somethings cannot be explained. It's good knowing this seventeen years old girl is still head over heels for BTS," she said smacking my right hand lightly. We then both laughed looking at each other.
*RINGGGGGGGGG*
The last period was finally over and I got up and packed my bag,then saying goodbye to tago.I made my way to Jigme's class, waiting impatiently outside her class and she finally came!.I then shared her my dream and suddenly she started laughing,I looked at her faced amused.
She noticed me looking at her and said,"Sorry sorry, it's kinda funny hearing about how sheepishly you must have smiled... like it's hilarious picturing you." I gave her a weird laugh and we walked our way to our homes .
*****AT HOME*****
I finished undressing my uniform and wore casual clothes and sat down on my bed. As I started looking at the wall where my BTS photos were pasted, I wondered how can these people just by their music even without seeing their face for once can me make feel so happy and feel loved❤️.I was brought back to reality when MY MOM SHOUTED AT ME.
"SONAMMMMM LHAMOOOOO! You're still staring at those girl like boys!!!," My mom said in a harsh voice. Well to be honest my parents don't support me being a fan girl, they say they look like girls and said to stop loving them but I don't easily listen to them.
"Why should you care whether I stare at them or not mom!and they're not girl like boy okay?"I shouted back at her. My mom looked at me in a cold way again as we always fight over this kind of things at times.
"What now! you're talking back at your mom for them!how could you do that?" Mom said in harsh voice again. I sighed and said in a simple way trying myself to control the anger,"No mom!,but what you're thinking and saying right now are all wrong. I'm not talking back at you but I'm simply stating facts!"
I saw her expression changed to anger. To my surprise my mom ripped the photos that I pasted in the wall. I tried to stop her but she wouldn't budge a bit and ripped all the photos and also took away all of my BTS merch which I had bought from saving money.
"It's all because if this stupid girl like boys,that has completely changed you. Now I hope you take this as a lesson and don't talk back and just focus on your studies," Mom hissed at me.
I was dumbfounded and heartbroken at that time,how could she do that to me I thought. BTS didn't change me nor did I change myself,and that's where a desire and thought grew inside me. The desire and thought for meeting BTS had become my goal in life,yeahh I wanted to meet them in the past too but right now this thought and desire became stronger due to my mom's behavior.
With this thought and desire, I began to wonder how would I ever meet BTS despite having no money for plane tickets,no support from family and mainly the time as I might run out of time in the future. I thought and thought for a long time and suddenly something clicked in my MINDDDD.....
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Sorry for my mistake 🙏🏼
I'll do better in the next chapters!!