The moment he closed the door behind him I felt an aching need to call him back. A need that had a very uncharacteristic, tangible quality about it. It was like a force that was pushing me to push past that door and explore a possibility I didn't know until this very moment that I needed. It took me a little over a while to finally snap out of whatever the hell it is that was happening to me and find my way to my comfortable, leather chair. I felt stupefied. I wasn't quite sure what had happened or how or why. I just agreed to let a complete stranger take pictures of me that he could later sell. I felt both violated and amused.