The word 'WITHOUT YOU' first of all I really hate this word because it's not just a word it is a lie. And everyone is using it like water 😅
Living without you is really difficult and sometimes I feel I can't breathe and it's fuckin suffocating and I really hate it. And now I realised I can live without you, if I can live without my parents so, who the hell are you man. This word is just a lie. People live after the death of their loved ones, warriors survived without their loved ones. and yes we can live without him/her. He/she is not oxygen neither water but I know it's fuckin harder to live without them. But they left you and they are living without you why don't you. They said they love you is that really true? No! because no one can love you with your flaws, they always want pure and once you show them what you really are they will leave you, they don't want to live in reality. They will not going to accept you the real YOU! that's why I hate this fuckin word "I can't live without you". Darling you can so, please don't give us such fuckin expectations. You are just waiting for the moment to left and all you wanted is the reason to leave.
I was reading my old conversations with you, it was such a happy time for us, we'd tell each other secrets, laugh at each other's jokes, and sleep on call, and we were living in the fairy tales and when we woke up from the dream, we both fell and hurt ourselves actually, i don't know what happened to us at that moment, i wish we could have done things differently and from that very moment it has created a distance between us we both are facing the
consequences of one wrong decision taken in anger or we can say that, it was the heat of the moment but it ruined everything that was special between us. There is no going back people can't go back in time and undo things. I wish I had a time machine so I could fix the things but we have to learn to adapt to the new situations. I thought we would be normal, again, but no, that's not possible because I don't have a time machine. I can't fix it I am a human and I am hurt and broken too. I feel helpless and everytime when anyone say anything, there is a voice inside my head that keeps saying 'did they really mean it'. sorry I can't change my past but I can't be the same me again.We have to learn to live without them.