*unedited*
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All I need is a little bit of love
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After I got home from the frozen yogurt store i slumped my worthless body onto the couch.
"I am in my room if you need" Justin walked in closing the main door behind him. I didn't bother to acknowledge his existence so I gave him a thumbs up.
I switched on the TV scrolling through the programs
"But I love you. Can't you see that" some lady was screaming to a man on the TV. I didn't know what I was watching but left it on. I needed to pass time.
"You are delusional" the man rolled his eyes.
"Do you know what? Fuck you" she set it office documents a light.
I did not see that coming but I like the way she thinks. There was more screaming and crying. I dozed off into a deep slumber.
I heard my phone ring and I slipped it out my pocket not looking who was calling.
"Hello" I muffled a yawn.
"Hey baby, how was school today"
"It went well I really enjoyed it" I made it sound as if it was the best day, but it was one of the worst.
"OK, I will be coming home late. There's money in my room for pizza ok" she hung up.
"Bye" I put the phone away.
I was still pretty tired and proceeded to get off the couch and sleep in my bed. As I walked up the stairs and down the hallway I heard soft sobs coming from Justin's room.
Justin crying, that's not going to happen in a million years.
I stood outside the door opening it ajar so I could peep through.
It was Blake again. His an emotional roller-coaster. But his not my problem I am nothing but a sister to him.
I gag in disgust. I didn't want to be your fucking sister. I wanna be your girlfriend.
I stepped away and carried on my stroll to my room.
"Avery" I was stopped in NY tracks
"Hey there" I turned around facing him. I looked at his tear stained face and I felt bad for him, just to see a smile on his face. Fucking simp "Are you OK"
"Yes, just got something in my eyes" he sniffed wiping his nose.
"It's okay to crying" I walked up to him. "Do you want to talk about it"
He nodded his head and I gestured he followed behind me. I opened my room door, hoping it was cleaning.
We stepped in and I closed the door.
"You can sit on the window seat. I am going to get something really quick"
I walked out the room and down the hall. When I walked past the bathroom I had Justin singing teenage dream by Katy Perry.
"You make me. Feel like I'm living a Teenage dream. The way you turn me on. I can't sleep
Let's run away and don't ever look back" he shouted in the shower hitting the notes
I cringed and carried on walking to the kitchen. I opened up the freezer and pulled out a tub of ice cream.
I grabbed two spoons and jogged up the stairs walking back to my room. Justin was still singing his songs..
"I got ice cream" I said walking into the room.
"Are we seriously gonna eat ice cream and talk" he chuckled rubbing the back of his neck.
"Don't forget cry" I shut the door with my leg and walked over to the window seat and sat opposite him. "Now spill" I said opening the tub and licking my fingers because so of the ice cream got on it.
I handed him a spoon, while I stuck mine into the tub and started eating.
"You know Catherine right" he started eating but really slowly.
"Yes, she's gorgeous. Pretty than any girl I have ever seen" he looked out the window then realized what he said and turned back to face me. "Not that you aren't good looking. You pretty as well but I don't think I should be calling my best friends sister pretty but also not ugly because you're not" he started rambling.
"It's fine" I smiled.
I wasn't going to let my feelings get in the way this time. Just listen without getting hurt.
Easy right
"I mean everything was perfect between us. Of cause we had our ups and downs. Break ups and hook ups but we always can back to me. It was what we did.
You know she'd this cute thing when she'd scrunch up her nose when ever it itches. And her laugh sounds like angels.
Sadly I won't be hearing or seeing any of that because we aren't together. It happened all of a sudden, the break up. I thought everything was fine it seemed like it was. But the funny thing is when she broke up with me she seemed like she didn't want to do. Like she was forced to" he sighed and looked at me for answers which I couldn't provide. I have never been in a relationship.
"Maybe it's just a bad nightmare" I shrugged.
"But she seems so happy now" he fell back onto the pillows.
"But life moves on and some people we just have to let go" I took the tub on my legs but it was too cold so I set it down again.
"Do you like anyone Avery" he mumbled.
He got my name right, finally.
"Yes there is this one guy" I blurted out mouthful of ice cream. "But I don't want to talk about it"
He sat up straight again. "Don't eat so fast you going to get brain freeze. Anyways you can tell me, I am like the big brother you wish you had"
But I don't want you as a brother. Gosh.
"I like him so much, at first it was an 'oh his cute' and like some type of coping mechanism considering my current state. But then I feel in too deep now I have this big fat crush on him. And I don't know how long I am going to hide it" I groaned taking another spoon full.
You know how I said I wasn't going to get my feelings involved, welll that isn't happening.
"You try talking to him" he ate some of the ice cream.
"Trust me on many occasions but it's like he doesn't notice me. Like I am invisible like 'hello can't you see me, I know you tall but mined looking down' " I waved my spoon in the air.
"Than just forget about him, drop him." his green eyes sparkled as the sun shinnered through the window.
"That's the thing I can't"
"Why"
"How do you stay away from someone that is so close to you" my eyes started watering.
"He must be one lucky guy to make you all worked up" he said wiping the side of my mouth with his thumb
Here goes nothing. I know this wasn't part of the plan but here it goes. Suck it up.
"The guy is you Blake"