Nothing...thats all i interpret as feeling was nothing as i drifted through actual nothing. I couldn't see, hear, or feel anything it like all my emotions all of my senses have just gone away.

Then suddenly I felt something like a searing pain in my head flashbacks of my entire life.

From the time when my father hit me every night while telling me I ruined everything, to my mother telling me how I was a mistake and not even looking me in my eyes as the years went bye, to how my siblings beat the life out of me everyday to feel superior, even to when my classmates and other students beat me and used me for my intelligence, how the teachers neglected everything they saw and berated me whenever I made a single mistake even to were they expelled me when I had got the courage to hit someone back, to how my family then kicked me out and disowned me and I lived alone barely being able to afford the shittiest of places do to the amount of times I was fired cause of all the hate I received from coworkers.

All of it every last painful memory came back to me taunting me on how much I suffered throughout life how everyone treated me wrong but never had to pay for it "ITS ALL UNFAIR!!!" If only i could make them pay hut sadly I cant not after dying from being robbed. "HAHAHAHAHA!!!" Its laughable I didnt even really have anything there was nothing to gain yet i was shot dead just like that.

What did i do to make life hate me so much i did everything right I only ever retaliated once and thats all but I had to suffer?

But im happy im dead its more peaceful here in the nothingness I've never felt safer but I still wish I could have had done better in life maybe...just maybe if I was horrible just like all of them then I'd have had a better life.

"System installing..."

"hmm whats going on?"

"Initializing system...

Despair System installed"

"System? hmm could it actually be happening a system?"

I'm not uncultured you see I've read all types of novels and fanfics im a very cultured man so the second i here System i finnaly feel some form of hope building up inside me

"Please state username"

Hmmmm well I've always wanted to be free and fly away from my problems so...

"Avion!"

"User name accepted please look at stats"

DESPAIR SYSTEM

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[Name] Avion

[level] 1

[Occupation] none

[Strength] 5

[Dexterity] 3

[Intelligence] 25

[Vitality] 5

[Luck] 0

[skills]

(Snatch lvl MAX)

(Growing depsair lvl MAX)

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Wow thats something at least ik i actually am smart but... my luck is severely lacking it explains alot. Well hopefully they grow over time and looks like i already have skills that also seem to be lacking in naming but whatever. I wonder...

"System scan both skills."

"Ding"

"(Snatch)- killing any person or creature allows you to steal there ability making it your own to improve on"

"Ding"

"(Growing despair)- the more depsair you make someone feel the stronger it can powerful it can make you"

This... this is completely broken skills YESSSS this is amazing since im a broken character it means I can grow fast as hell finnaly things are getting better for me. But I still have many questions.

"System where do you come from?"

"Ding"

"To weak to have questioned answered become stronger to find out."

Well cant say I'm really suprised its always like that in the novels I read.

"System will i be transmigrated?"

"Ding yes once you say when you will be put in a random body to start your journey."

Well that's good to know i guess I should start now theres no reason to prolong from starting my new life.

"Alright system start!!!"

Then everything went dark