Author's note: So this is it! The most awaiting POV. Hope you enjoy it.
Diken's POV:
I'm intently looking at her. Inaalon ang buhok nya ng hangin, and she's so fucking beautiful.
Fucking too perfect for me.
Mukhang malalim ang iniisip nya. Dahil hindi nya pa ako nililingon, which is a good thing because i miss looking at her this near.
I took her here at my port with my DL Yatch.
I want to talk to her so bad. I want to explain my side.
I want to come clean to her.
I'm actually nervous. Alam kong madami akong kasalanan sa kanya. I have a lots of secrets.
Sasabihin ko ba?
I was taken a back when i saw her looking at me with sadness is visible to her beautiful face.
Small face, sharp nose, bright brown eyes, kissable lips. She's perfect. Inside and out.
And i can't fucking help myself to fall inlove with her again and again!
"Why are we here diken? Why did you bring me here?" She ask.
I sigh. This is it!
I am ready to tell her the truth.
"I bring you here to talk. I promise right?" Sabi ko.
Nawalan ng emosyon ang mukha nya. Fucking fuck! I did expect that but not this time.
Hindi pala magandang makitang walang emosyon ang mukha nya.
"The last you promised, you broke it. Kaya sabihin mo saken Diken .. should i trust you now?" She mock me.
"But this time, i intend to do it." Sabi ko.
Hindi sya umimik. Kaya nagpatuloy ako.
"Come here. Let's talk inside. Its cold here" sabi ko. i tried to touch her hand but she pulled away.
"Don't touch me. I will decide later on if I am going to allow you." She said.
Napatanga ako sa kanya. Hindi agad nakapagsalita.
"Alam mo, i don't really know why are you talking to me now. Ano bang kaibahan sa ngayon ha? Its been what? Ah .. yes, One year na. One fucking painful year na Diken! I will understand kung one week, one month, two, three, four, five! But a fucking one year? Fuck you" she continued. Hiningal sya.
She burst out on me. I think I deserve it. I deserve her anger, her distance, her coldness.
Kasi kasalanan ko. Kasalanan ko naman talaga.
"I'm sorry .." i said. Napayuko ako. Hiyang hiya ako.
But i am determined. I won't commit the same mistake that i did.
"Are you really? Well, Fuck your sorry! Antagal kong naghintay eh! Isang taon! You let me carry all the guilt, the pain, the longing! Iniwan mo akong mag isa sa panahon na kailangang kailangan kita!" She cried.
And i want to embrace her with mine, wipe her tears, erase her pain and sadness.
Pero hindi ako makalapit sa kanya. I let her cried.
"Ang sakit! Ang sakit sakit pa din!" Nakaupo na sya sa sahig ngayon at doon umiiyak.
Napayuko ako. I don't want her see me crying.
"I am so sorry .." paulit ulit kong bigkas.
We cried together.
Later, i will tell her all. The truth. No more hiding.
Masama ang tingin nya sa akin. Sadness, Anger, fear, coldness. Ang mga emosyong nakikita ko sa mga mata nya. Makikita mo ding namumugto ang mata nya gawa ng pag iyak kanina.
Magkaharap kaming nakaupo dito sa lamesa.
Ang layo nya. Ang hirap ng abutin.
"Talk now." She said coldly.
Like what i promise. I will tell her everything.
"Okay. Where do you want me to start?" I ask.
Am i ready? I ask myself. Kilala ako ni Leigh. Kilala nya ang emosyong kaya kong pakawalan. Napayuko ako. At ng tumingin ako sa kanya, its all gone.
I'm wearing my poker face. No emotion at all. Hindi naman na bago saken ito. I've been doing it since birth.
"Okay. Ano yung sinabi ni dad? What merging ha? Kasi naguguluhan ako. I am now the president of the company but i did not recieve any notice about the merging" She ask.
"About the merging. Your company needs it. Trust me. Yes, you're the president but your dad is still the Chairman." Sagot ko.
"What's the catch?" She ask again smirking.
"What" i ask. Napakunot ang noo ko.
"Anong kapalit ng merging na yun?"
"You. Ikaw ang kapalit ng lahat ng yon. That's why i want to talk to you" Seryoso kong sagot.
I saw her eyes widens.
"M-me?" Nauutal pa nyang tanong.
And i smirk.
"Yes. You. And you can do nothing about it" Nakita ko kung paano magliyab ang kanyang paningin.
Tama, ganyan nga. Have the urge to hurt me honey.
"Bakit ako? Pano kung ayaw ko?"
"Pabagsak na kayo. The chairman knows that. You need me. Ako na lang ang kayang magsalba sa inyo ngayon." Confident kong sagot.
"W-what? Hindi totoo yan!" Sigaw nya. Napatayo sya habang nakatuon ang mga kamay sa lamesa. Nagliliyab ang kanyang mga matang nakatingin saken.
I saw anger.
"You can call your father" suggestion ko.
"Talaga!" Sagot nya na umalis sa harapan ko.
Habang naghihintay, gumawa ako ng strawberry shake. I know its her favorite. She loves strawberry. Ako lagi ang gumagawa sa kanya ng shake dati. And she looks like a kid. Cute. Mababaw lang ang kaligayan ni Leigh. Mapapasaya mo sya sa mga kaunting bagay na gagawin mo. She's so kind. She's appreciatable. A good daughter.
Alam kong papayag sya. Dissapointment. Yun ang pinaka ayaw nya. Lalo pag galing iyon sa Daddy nya.
Nakita kong pumasok sya na bagsak ang balikat.
Nanghihina syang umupo sa lamesa. Napayuko sya doon. Her shoulder is shaking.
She's crying! Again!
Lumapit ako dala ang ginawa ko.
"Strawberry shake." Inilapag ko ito sa harapan nya.
Napatingala sya sa akin. Nakakaawa ang itsura nya. Pero kailangan kong pigilan ang sarili ko.
"S-salamat" sagot nya. She looks weak.
Humigop sya ng shake. Umupo ulit ako sa harapan nya.
"Bakit ngayon ka lang Diken. Bakit hindi one week after what happened? One month? Bakit ngayon lang?" Tanong nya ng malungkot na boses.
"Alam mo bang araw araw akong nagdarasal na sana bumalik ka. Nawalan ako ng anak, nawalan pa ako ng mapapangasawa. At sobrang sakit nun" she started talking.
"Patuloy ko pa ding hinahanap ang lalaking yun. But still no trace. Isang taon na Diken. Pero hindi parin ako makausad" she started crying again.
Napabuntong hininga ako.
Its time.
"I will tell you the truth now Leigh. So listen very carefully. Because i won't repeat it twice." Sabi ko sa seryosong boses.
She nod.
"Alam kong nasaktan kita. Napagod lang ako Leigh. Pero mahal kita. Putangina, Mahal naman talaga kita!" I started. I am looking at her eyes.
"And I am so sorry. Natakot lang akong sabihin sayo dati ang totoo kasi hindi pa kompleto ang impormasyong nakuha ko. Sorry. Sabihin mo naman kung paano naten aayusin to. I want to come clean. Lahat ng sasabihin ko sayo ay delikado." I continued.
"Anong ibig mong sabihin?" She ask.
"Hindi mo na talaga mahahanap ang lalaking yun kahit kailan. He's gone." Sabi ko.
Hindi sya nakapagsalita. Kaya nagpatuloy ako.
"I kill him, baby. With my own hands." I said. Nakita kong paano nanlaki ang mata ko.
"Y-you killed him?" Hindi nya makapaniwalang tanong.
"Yes baby. Kaya natakot akong sabihin sayo kasi baka matakot ka. Baka kamuhian mo ako." Umiiyak kong kwento.
She stand up and go near me. She hug me.
"Bakit mo yon ginawa? May batas tayo diken?" She ask. I can't see her face dahil nakasandal sya balikat ko.
"Dahil sa sobrang galit. Hindi lang si Cindy ang may kasalanan sa nangyari sayo .." sabi ko.
Napatingin sya sa akin
"W-what!?" She shouted.
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Ayos ba? HAHA
CHAPTER 6 is on the way. Still Diken's POV tayo. Lets give him a chance.