"I called you here today because Lindy and Diken have an announcement to make" matigas na pagkakasabi sa engles ng aking ama. Si Lei Hou.
Tahimik ang buong hapag kainan at tanging tunog lamang ng kubyertos ang maririnig
"We're getting married!" Masiglang pahayag si Lindy sa amin.
Happiness is evident to her face and she raise her fingers to make proud of her ring.
A beautiful diamond ring.
"Congratulations anak." Halos pormal na sagot ng kanyang ina. Tumingin ito sa akin at alam ko ang ibig sabihin ng mga tinging iyon.
"Congrats .. " naisatinig ko. Tumingin sya sa akin at naging pormal ang masaya nyang muka
"So when is the wedding Diken?" My father ask
"As soon as possible sir .. i don't want Lindy walking in the aisle with her big tummy" he explains, and it hurts! So fucking hurts!
Ang sweet naman nya.
"Good." Naging tahimik na naman pero ang puso ko gusto ng sumabog!
Diken Vildamir is my ex-boyfriend for 10 years! Yes, fucking 10 years! At kung hindi ko sila nakita sa kawalanghiyaan nila malamang kami parin.
"Leigh, i want you to get ready" agaw atensyon ni daddy sa pag kaka tulala ko.
"For what dad?" Tanong ng magaling kong kapatid. Wow talaga ha? Nauna pa syang nag tanong saken. Ikaw ba si Leigh! Duh!
"Its Leigh who i am asking Lindy! I told you don't meddle to anyone's affair!" Halos pagalit nga masungit na daddy namin.
Yes, my dad is super ultra mega strict. And he thought us not to meddle to a conversation if you are not the one's whose talking to.
"Sorry dad" hinging paunmanhin nya na nagbaba ng tingin.
BUTI NGA SAYO! gusto kong isatinig. One (1) point for Leigh! HAHA wait, Am I being mean?
"Leigh, your dad is asking you" Sabi ni mommy na nakatingin na pala sa akin. I saw sadness in her eyes. Pity for me.
"Yes dad, what is it?" I ask. Kinakabahan ako actually. My hand is shaking and its freaking cold!
"Tristan Lee the heir of Lee Corporations, I want you date him." Pinal na sabi nito. Like, he don't give me the option to say no. I had no choice to accept it.
"Oh that man. Yes dad! Sure!" Pinasigla ko ang boses ko. Because i don't want him to get mad at me. And i want to show to the two that i can move on with my life.
Hindi sinasadyang napatingin ako sa kanya na nakatitig pala sa akin.
I saw his face darken. Alam ko ang ekspresyon na iyon sa kanyang mga mata.
Jealousy. Regrets. Anger. Madness.
I smile at him, trying to show him that I'm okay.
But deep inside I'm hurting.
"Good. Many boys are asking to date you but I want you to give your time to Tristan" my dad said.
So ganun pala ako kaganda ha? HAHA
DIKEN VILDAMIR, HINDI LANG IKAW ANG LALAKI SA MUNDO! AND I CAN FIND A MAN BETTER THAN YOU! i want to shout it to his face.
But i started to ask myself, may hihigit paba sa isang Diken Vildamir? I don't think so.
He's rich, a billioner. With a handsome face and a sexy and hot body, I'm sure many girls would die to caught his attention.
At napakaswerte ni Lindy. Nagawa nyang agawin sa akin ang lalaking mahal ko.
Natapos na ang kainan and they continue to talk about the up coming wedding of the two and i don't care!
Yes, naiinggit ako! Nasasaktan ako!
But ..
"Why are you here?" mahinahon kong tanong.
"Can't we just forget what happened and fix our relationship!" Nanggigigil nyang sagot
"Wow ha! After i saw you with my very own eyes, having sex with my sister? Well, fuck you!" I smiled bitterly.
"I'm drunk okay! And i don't know what i do! Bakit kasi magkamukha kayo ng kapatid mo!" He shouted.
"Lasing ka man o hindi, alam mo ang ginagawa mo! At hindi ko kasalanan kung magkamuka kami! Why don't you ask our parents! At saka .. kung talagang mahal mo ako .. naramdaman mong hindi ako yon."
He looks guilty. Nagbaba sya ng tingin. Nagpatuloy ako sa pagsasalita.
"Magkaiba naman siguro kami ng halik diba? Magkaiba kami!" Gigil kong saad. I want to punch his face. I want to hurt him so bad kasi sobrang sakit ng ginawa nila saken.
"I'm sorry. Saktan mo ako kung gusto mo. Please, ayusin lang natin to" he pleaded.
Lumayo ako ng distansya sa kanya.
"It can't be fix by just saying sorry. At gusto kong malaman mo na mas masakit kasi .. bkt kapatid ko pa? Of all people, bakit sya pa!" Sigaw ko habang umiiyak.
Lumuhod sya harapan ko.
"Please hon .. just this once .. forgive me"
Umiiyak na din sya
Mas lalo akong nasasaktan sa nakikita ko, tumalikod ako at ..
"Umalis kana. Hindi ako Diyos para luhuran"
"Excuse me, Cr lang ako" nasabi ko na lang. Because as of the moment, hindi ko na kayang pigilan ang mga luhang gustong kumawala dahil sa sakit
"Sige na anak" sagot ng aking ina na alam na siguro kung ano ang nararamdaman ko sa oras na iyon.
Tumingin ako sa dalawa na busy sa ginagawa nila. They really look good together!
Imbes na sa Cr, dumeretso ako sa Garden.
The smell of the flowers calm me. The sorroundings is beautiful. Pero hindi nun nabawasan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko.
Pain, Betrayal and Anger.
I cry my heart out. Iyak ako ng iyak ng walang tunog.
I noticed a red rose, pinitas ko iyon, hindi alintana ang tinik. I smell it.
Its smells good. But it can hurt you.
Just like him, He have everything that a man can offer, but he hurt me!
"Its still your favorite huh? Mag ingat ka sa tinik baka masugatan ka" i heard a familiar voice said.
Napapikit ako. Pinunasan ko ang mga luhang ebidensya ng kahinaan ko.
Hindi sinasadyang napadiin ang kapit ko sa rosas.
I can't feel the pain. Dahil namanhid na iyon sa sakit! But i know my hands are bleeding.
"Hon! What the fuck are you doing!" Halos sigaw nya na nag uumpisang lumapit sakin.
Nakita ko ang sobrang pag aalala nya gaya ng dati. Napapikit ako ng mariin
"Stay where you are Mr. Vildamir! Akala mo ba nasaktan ako dahil dito? No! Mas masakit ang panloloko mo! I trusted you! I give my all! Pero ano .." sumabog na ang mga emosyong gustong kumawala.
"Alam mo ba ang nararamdaman ko ha! Gusto ko ng mamatay para matapos ang sakit! Diken, of all people, ikaw ang nakakakilala sa akin! How could you!" Pagpapatuloy ko.
"I am so sorry hon .. i really do. Hindi ko din namang gusto na makita kang nasasaktan!" He said. Sincerity. Kitang kita ko yun sa mga mata nya.
But is it enough to cover their sins?
I don't think so ..
I smiled bitterly.
"Makaka move on din ako, and when that's happens, that's my sweetest revenge" i said.
Tinitigan ako ni Diken, its like he's memorizing my face.
He's face turns dark, and i saw him smirk
"As if i will let you. Kilala mo din ako Leigh. I can get what i want" he said that puzzles me.
And then He left.