"...He has a girlfriend and they're eloping tomorrow....he doesn't believe my baby is his....he lied to his mum that I knew about it and that I even signed a contract with him to help my sister get treated for her cancer..." I draw in a deep breath and Bianca looks furious but I can see she is trying her best not to interrupt me.
"His mum gave me this." I pick up the brown envelope and bring out the money then gasp. This is a lot, how much did Alexander lie to his mummy that I needed?
"Hold up B, she gave you money to buy you off?!" She stands up abruptly.
"No Bianca...calm down, take a seat." I explain everything better to her so she would understand what exactly happened.
"Where does he live?"
"What?" I ask confused.
"B where does that motherfucker fucking live?"
"What are you going to do?" I ask a little frightened for Alexander. When Bianca was pissed, she was pissed, she didn't just write a note and burn it up like I do.
"Where does he live B?!"
"I'm not telling you."
She stands up and throws her arms in the air. "Are you really defending that prick!!"
{Am I?}
"No of course I'm not defending him. He is rich and powerful, he could put you in prison for life and besides I don't think Alexander will still be at his condo, he is eloping tomorrow remember?"
"You're right...you're right." she paces around, anger emitting off her and filling the room. "But just tell me, maybe he's still there!!" Bianca whines.
"Bianca!!" I gave her a look that says she should quit it.
"How are you so calm about this?"
I shrug. "Maybe because although I'm sad about all this, in another crazy way, I'm as happy as a little kid on Christmas morning." I sigh and she raises an eyebrow, causing me to let out a small giggle. "I didn't lose Alexander and he didn't love me. I always wanted to marry for love and I was just about to the opposite because I am pregnant with his child. I will go with my old plan..." I rub my belly "... I'll raise this little fella on my own and besides, Alex didn't even believe I'm carrying his child, I mean what an asshole." I let out a lazy breath.
Bianca doesn't say anything she just stares at me then a smile breaks on her face. "You're one tough bitch." I smile back at her.
"But there is one last thing I don't understand."
"What is it?"
"Why are you back so early? It was supposed to be a week right?"
"Oh yeah, it was but my school sent a text concerning finals week and making some changes before Monday. You know graduation is on Wednesday right?"
"Oh my God is it?"
"Yeah."
"I'm so excited for you!!! Do you have something to wear? Let's go on a shopping spree, my treat B, you deserve it." I huff and point at the sewing machine sitting on my desk at the corner.
"Again Bianca I'm a fully blown fashion designer, why do you always want to shop?!" She smiles sheepishly.
"Sorry, just wanted to get your mind off shit...do you have fabric?"
"Nope." I say after looking around my room for anything and shaking my head until my eyes spot the bags from the other day when Bianca and I went to the market to shop for supplies to make my wedding dress.
"Except that." I shrug then point to the bag and recognition fills her eyes.
"Yes B that would be awesome. Then you can add black trimming to it and make a Slit that stops mid thigh and maybe a square neckline..." Bianca was in fashionista mode and I just left her talk to herself.
"B are you listening?"
"Hmmm?" I smile at her.
"Oh my God you totally just zoned out on me." Bianca screeches.
"Oh Bianca don't be such a drama queen. I heard every word you said. At least the first part. "Umm...could I have some time to rest my head?"
"Yeah sure I understand. I'll give you some privacy." She stands up and leaves the room but pokes her head though the crack in the door. "See you later beaver." Bianca smiles lightly.
******
I wake up with a Jolt and run to the bathroom, when I reach it, I kneel down and hurl my guts out into the toilet. I stand up and walk to the sink then turn on the water and splash some of my face. You just need to get through today Bella. This isn't the first time I have had morning sickness, actually it was worse the last time, so much so that I couldn't go anywhere that day except from the bathroom to throw up. I go to the kitchen and make some eggs and toast. Bianca strolls in all dressed up for work.
"B you're up early?" She smiles.
"Yeah I have to be at school today remember?"
"Yeah I remember." she runs into the kitchen, grabs a fork and picks up some eggs from my plate into her mouth. Bianca grabs my juice and takes a huge gulp.
"Well I have to go. See you. Bye." Bianca slams the front door and I walk inside to get dressed.
I have missed a whole bunch of classes, I'm just happy I graduate next tomorrow, then it's finals I have to stress about and after that, I am finally done with school. When I arrive at the management office, there isn't much that is required of me except to submit another form in order to get registered for finals.
I head home and decide to use today to let my creative juices flow, so I design and cut out my dress pattern pieces. I will do the sewing tomorrow. I feel like this was time well spent.
Bianca gets home at 7 p.m. with a sad look on her face.
"What happened?"
"He is back."
"Who is back?"
"Tom." I sigh. Tom was Bianca's ex who left New York after they broke up almost two years ago.
"What is he doing here and how do you know he is back?"
"I saw him at a cafe during my lunch break. He said he wants to get back together." She chokes out.
{What!!} "He has got to be kidding me."
Bianca looks down at the floor. "Don't tell me you are seriously considering it?"
"I mean...he seemed genuine, like he really wanted me back and Lord knows...I still feel something for him."
"Bianca are you crazy!!! he used to beat you up to a pulp, control you and get angry over the littlest things." She doesn't answer me and I'm shocked. "Your better than that!! Can't you remember all the hurt he caused you?"
"I can but they were some good times."
"Good times, good times like what, oh you mean the times he would take you to dinner after beating you up or the time he wouldn't let you have male friends or when he'll buy you shades or makeup to cover up your black eye!!!"
"Look I'm sorry B but when I saw him I felt something constrict in my heart, right here." With tears in her eyes she places her hand on her chest.
"Oh you felt something alright, you felt fear!!!"
Bianca looks confused and takes a seat on the sofa. "I don't know what to tell him but he told me to have a reply before the week ends."
"How dare he give you a deadline and how are you going to give this reply?" I make air quotes at the end.
"I kinda maybe took his number."
"No Bianca this is too toxic!, you and Tom are toxic!! Give me your phone."
"Why?"
"Just give it to me." She hands me her phone and I go to her contacts and delete his number. "Done."
"What is done?"
"I deleted his number. I thought...no I know you are a boss ass bitch and that piece of shit doesn't deserve you, no matter how sorry he says he is. He hurt you once he's going to do it again." she closes her eyes for a while in an attempt to stop the tears then opens them again.
"Your right, what was I thinking! I deserve someone who will love me and never hurt me."
"Yes, you do and I think I know the perfect candidate for that."
"What?! who?" I smile at her and wiggle my eyebrows.
"Aaron!" I smirk and she laughs lightly then shakes her head.
"Don't start."
I raise my hand in surrender. "Okay... okay I won't, just keep that in mind and remember, you can stop me from saying it but you can't stop me from thinking about it."
She giggles then facepalms. "Look, I think I'm gonna go take a shower."
"You do that." Bianca leaves the room with a huge grin on her face and me with my thoughts.