Self is a character that wants everything, never ready to give out, even it act as if it is giving. This as a result creates tension because of the imposition of what is against other people's will. Self does not consider others always malicious to resist and stop any thing that tends to want to go beyond its limit, even when such that does not oppose. Self hates good and act in pretense as it likes good and would always codedly resist good as bad, even when it presents itself as if it is not resisting and makes bad appears good. The world system has become so brainwashed because what they have accepted is the contrary thought program which has become the standard of almost every system, even the church system who are supposed to be strict resistance to salvage other system is now dancing even much more to the world system, such that the world is even amazed, to start defining the worldly attitude based on what they see happen now in the church, such that the church has become much more political. One thing with the world system is, any attitude that opposes it, receives strict resistance and that is why there is so much persecution of good, such that the abnormal things received more positive promotion.
I got wondering why truth threatens even without confrontation. This is because, it opposes falsehood as light puts off darkness, therefore, any system that is built upon the secret of idea will never accept an insightful revelation, because it will shake and cause the system to quake such that, those benefiting from it will suffer loss. The bug of self will activate the monster in you the way it does in Cain, who became angry because his offering was not accepted because of his negative intent. Cain was the first mankind to manifest the implication of the bug S and the implication led to the death of his very blood brother, which eventually increased the intensity of curse upon the earth. The more the world becomes selfish, the more earth becomes cursed. Self would always strife to destroy any thing that stands on its way to fulfilling his evil intent. Self-bug is evil and disastrous, causing wars and stirring up crisis that will lead to the discordance of the nation, such that, one would desire to be dead than staying alive to endure the level of wickedness resulted from self. Murder starts from the heart, where self-bug is housed, and it grows therein and makes you become monstrous if you will not allow the David in you to kill it with the Word of truth, it will keep defiling your true identity of love that connects the reality of good.
Anti-self-bug is what you need to destroy any observance of alien bug in your life, and this can only come from the true knowledge of the Word of God, that has nothing to do with the detect of flesh and blood. Self-bug will make you to work so hard like elephant and end up eating like ant, such that the grievances of your pains, will now make you become jealous and full of hate for those working under grace, working like an, eating like elephant. Self-bug creates fear which is not of God, the direct implication of absence of love (1 John 4: 18) and it involves torments and makes one to be faithless, but God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, love and of sound mind (2 Timothy 1: 7) and this explains the complete character of God, in which we must function, to make known His glory to this world.
Self-bug deprives us of soundness of mind and make us to be timid with a complex that would always want to withdraw from the right, because it can never stay in the light where all of its secret will be reveal. Anyone who is infected with self-bug, gets hurt at the instance of good, therefore you can never please a man who is infected with self-bug.
Self-bug creates constantly a condition of anger, envy, malice and jealousy, that could make one live a life of manipulation of subdue. It allows sins to rule, never living a single room for righteousness. The cunning nature of self bug hides the intention of evil and could make you feel very comfortable before it will strike when you never thought anything would happen. Abel never knew the intention of his brother Cain. It is very painful not knowing that someone you so trust as an angel could be the devil hiding in what looks like light, when their intention manifest, but do not change, because they are changing, but the truth is, if you cannot change a man, change him.
Self-bug could lie dormant for a very long time, waiting for a perfect opportunity to strike like a viper, which is so slow and gentle, like the most humble creature ever existed, but in it is instant death, without signal. Do not try someone who is selfish, because you can never please such people, because any attitude of yours that opposes their selfish ambition, threatens them to become uncomfortable to relate with you. So some people are resentful because they are selfish, not that they are reserve. Guide your heart with all diligence against self, because it houses and hides the big gigantic disastrous monster in you called PRIDE.
Self will never allow you to accept you are wrong, even when evidence points to you that you are.
Genesis 43: 9
"Then the LORD said to Cain, "Where is Abel your brother?" He said, "I do not know, Am I my brother's keeper?"
Can you see the implication of self?
• Self makes you to become a liar (I do not know!)
• Self makes you to be pompously proud (Am I my brother's keeper?)
I could imagine Cain talking and responding pompously to God the way he did, but he could not help it, because he is already under influence of self bug. Self-bug make you to become a fugitive and vagabond because even when you are not been pursued, you will just keep running, because your fears will keep pursuing you since your created it with your negative thought lines, you will end up been tormented by it, experiencing nightmares, with constant sleeplessness, such that no sleep drug can help remedy you situation. Evil thoughts hunts after those who conceive it, because it is like living with cockroaches' eggs and decided to kill all the cockroaches, but living the eggs where you are in the dark, it will hatch and disturb your peace and it will be so terrible that you cannot even see them, because what you have chosen, is to hide in the dark thinking in your self-will thought that even if there be cockroaches, they won't see you in the dark, not knowing that it is in the dark they operate, but would always run to hide in darkness at the instance of light. If you give the devil a thought, you are doomed.
You cannot be infected with self-bug and expect your fruit to be without self, no matter how selfless you appear, deep down inside of you, you know the truth. You can lie to anybody, but you can never lie to your conscience. Our churches and secular world have become full of this monstrous virus eating into the heart of our operating system (faith), taking over the drive, because what we define as love that does not end at giving is never true. You see some General Overseers living in affluence and boasting to make it appear as if poverty is a curse, creating a mindset to live an impression in people who are poor to feel it is their fault to be poor, making them to withdraw from serving God, to doing anything possible to get rich. When God has blessed you, it is not just right to teach people faith to be rich, don't you know God has blessed you to bless to them to be rich that is the true faith you should teach, faith that gives and as you bless them, you are blessing them to bless others to become blessings to others so that the world will become a better place to be.
One of our major problem we are facing right now, especially in this dispensation we are in, in Christendom is caused by selfish General Overseers whom God lifted from grass to grace, but ended up forgetting where they were before their lifting. This world will be a better place if we can stop being selfish. Every system is selfishly selfish, especially the bank system, whom I call extortionist, because their concern is to make gain with your money and make it feel as if they are helping you to keep your money, when in real sense they are using your money to do business, and then end up giving you an insignificantly small profit. That is the idea of simple interest (SI) which is truly defined as Satan's Intention.