The day my condition gets worse. The stress that never ends, too many strange events that make me even crazier. So for the time being I left Timmy to Merry's aunt, who forced me since that strange incident to leave Timmy to her. But I was also worried, because he was possessed by an evil spirit and said bad things to me. But Aunt Merry assured me that I was just hallucinating at that time, she said I was too tired and had a lot of thoughts so she asked me to rest for a while while Timmy was with her. It was strange that Timmy usually didn't want to be apart from me, when Merry's aunt asked him not to refuse or cry. He nodded and invited me to come home to pack his clothes.
"Dad ... I'll be a good boy. Auntie said dad is sick, I have to be with him so you can rest."
His words, which suddenly surprised me, why did Aunt Merry tell Timmy that I was sick, even though I was in good health.
# 4.30 Afternoon
"Finally .. I got home"
I murmured when I came home to visit Timmy at Aunt Merry's house.
"My days are lonely, I miss you, son." It's sad to be separated from my only child, making me daydream a lot.
When I started struggling in the kitchen preparing my own dinner, I felt awkward. The atmosphere of the kitchen at that time was quieter and cooler than before.
"Duk ... duk .. duk .."
I heard a voice from upstairs, a sound like someone walking in silence. The voice came from Timmy's room,
"hello ... who is it.?"
I shouted from the direction of the kitchen, but suddenly the sound disappeared and replaced with a sound like things being dragged together.
"Srekkk ... sreekkk .. hhhiihihihi"
I was surprised because I heard the laughter of a child,
"I know..k..you Alex. Please just this once I beg you not to bother me. I beg Alex or whoever you are .."
My body is shaking, my vision is blurry and my breath is gasping. I don't know what happened after that, because when I woke up I was already in a completely dark room.
"Where am I ..." I thought that began to panic again and looked for a light source.
When I tried to feel the floor, it turned out that it was wet and the room was very humid.
"What is this smell ... like the smell of carcasses everywhere. And where exactly am I. Please let me go whoever you are, I won't do anything but please I want to go home."
I begged whoever kept me in a place that I don't know where.
Suddenly there was a dim light illuminating the room, then I saw someone's shadow. Someone I know very well.
"K..kyle. !! Dear Kyle, it's me. Help me."
I was surprised to see my wife Kyle was in the room but he seemed not to see me even though I called him many times.
I approached him, it turned out that he was holding a child.
"How come. What exactly is this."
My brain tries to digest all that is happening here, but fails. Still I don't understand everything.
"Son ... don't worry, I am here with you. You don't have to be afraid ... the mother will take care of you."
Said Kyle who had been afraid of something.
Suddenly I heard the sound of the door opening, "kreaakkak ..." I saw the silhouette of a man carrying a knife out of the door and down through the wooden stairs.
"Hold on, I think I know this place. This is THE WAREHOUSE. !!" in the low light, I tried to pay attention to the man's face, but it was too dark there.
As it got closer, Kyle started to cry.
I still try to call him but it's useless. I was trapped in another dimension they couldn't see, as if I was looking at a diorama.
"Hey you .. !! spirit, ghost, or whatever you are .. what's this. !! What is your real purpose.!"
I try to communicate with whoever made me this way.
"It's useless ... it's useless." My complaints are getting desperate.
I was shocked when I heard Kyle's screams begging the man with the knife.
"I beg of you, don't hurt him. He's also your son..hiks..I beg you!"
Kyle sobbed as he hugged little Timmy.
"He's your son ... please don't hurt him. I beg of you Josh.!"
Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight, how could the man who carried the knife be me.
I was stunned speechless, can only pay attention to this diorama in front of my eyes.
■ Kyle & Josh POV
Kyle: "Josh ... don't mess around, I beg of you. I know you're confused, but please be clearheaded josh, I don't do things like what you tell me."
Josh: "You think I'll believe it? With all the evidence you still deny it?"
Kyle: "Josh ... please listen to me, this is your son Alex, Timmy's brother. How can you forget your own son ??"
Josh: "DON'T LIE TO ME. !!! You think I'm crazy?"
Kyle: "Listen to me darling, you are sick and recovering. What you hear and what you see are just your hallucinations, it's all just your fear that causes hallucinations."
Josh got closer to Kyle and pointed a knife at him. Alex could only cry over his father and mother's fight without him understanding why.
Alex: "I..dad ..."
Josh: "Shut up. !! You bastard child. !!"
Josh yelled at Alex and suddenly made him cry. Josh also grabbed Alex from Kyle's lap and slammed him against the wall.
Kyle: "Nothing .. !! Josh .. !! What are you doing to my son ..! He's your son too Josh .. your son. !!
Josh: "why don't you just admit to unlucky woman! How could you hurt me, dumped me with Timmy."
Josh comes back to Kyle after confirming that little Alex is dead. Dan started tugging at Kyle's hair and began to cry, crying over his tragic fate.
Josh: "You know, every night I always hear the whisper of god, he said that you do worship and Alex is not my son. Alex is the devil's child who was placed in your womb, that's why Alex's situation is very different from Timmy. Look at the disabled child. that, more like a devil than a human. "
Kyle: "You're just hallucinating Josh. !! You're sick .. Look in the bedroom drawer, did you forget? You have Schizofernia.! Everything you see and hear is not real. !!"
Josh: "SHUT UP !!! no ... impossible. There's no way God lied to me.!
Josh started driving knives into Kyle's stomach, once ... twice or even so many times that Kyle's guts started to come out. Blood began to flow to the floor and soaked part of the warehouse.
Then Josh calls someone,
"Hello Aunt Merry? How about Timmy? Is he okay? I had a fight with Kyle, he decided to go and bring Alex with him ... yes, I'll be there tomorrow to pick up Timmy, thanks bi."
# End of POV
I seemed to see my lost memories, my head throbbed in pain. My heart feels squeezed ...
I saw the other 'Josh' put the bodies of Kyle and Alex into the well in the cellar "luckily you're an orphan, so no one will be looking for you." He said while putting in the bodies of Kyle and Alex.
A moment after that he went up to the main room, and heard him shouting and then fell silent.
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"Arrgghhh ... sick, what else is this. !!"
Suddenly everything was dark, dark like the first time I entered the strange room earlier, when my condition began to stabilize. I crawled to the warehouse steps and tried to climb into the main room. "Looks like everything is over, I've returned to my world."
I suddenly felt like crying, crying hard because I remembered what I had done to my wife and children.
In between my tears, I remembered Aunt Merry and immediately called her to ask the truth.
You can hear the dial tone, I'm waiting for someone to pick up my call.
"Hello, Josh .." I heard the voice of an old woman across the phone.
"Um .. aunt, I want to ask something to you, but I beg you not to tell this to Timmy" I said to Aunt Merry.
"Fine, Josh. Take it easy..Timmy was sleeping in my room" said Aunt Merry which made me calm a little.
"Wh..what happened to me after Kyle and Alex left the house?" I asked Aunt Merry.
Silence ... there was no answer for a moment.
Then suddenly I heard a sound like a soft cry.
"Look, Josh, I know you were very depressed at that time. Being abandoned by your wife and child must have been difficult. At that time I was waiting for you to pick up Timmy home, but you didn't come. So me and your uncle at that time decided to come to your house, and how shocked I was to find you covered in blood with a wound on your wrist. I immediately took little Timmy to the room and your uncle took you to the hospital to be handled there. You were in a coma for 1 week and the strange thing is when you wake up, your uncle asks you about where Kyle and Alex are. You told your uncle that Kyle and Alex died 1 year ago because of an accident. At that time Timmy was 3 years old, so in your memory, you have been abandoned by Kyle since Timmy was 2 years old.
I don't have the heart to tell you everything, about your fight with Kyle. I thought you were very shaken and stressed.
At that time I just found out from your medical record at the hospital that you had Schizofernia since you and Kyle didn't have Timmy yet, and made the sufferer hallucinate and couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't. Maybe that's what makes you think Kyle was in an accident. I also told everything to your uncle and agreed not to tell you anything, until when your uncle died he kept all the facts.
I hope you get tough, Josh, I know it's all hard. "
I thanked Aunt Merry and hung up the phone.
My mind got even more confused when I heard the story from Aunt Merry, the more it opened the veil that I didn't know myself. More precisely, I myself tried to close the terrible memory.
With a shaking body, I tried to go up to my room and open the cupboard and the drawers of my late wife. And you know what I found?
Several letters and medical prescriptions, a description of the disease there "Schizofernia stage 2"
While I was looking through the drawer, I saw the shadow of a small child standing at the door.
"Father ..." he called me, I was surprised when I saw the child's face.
"A..alex, you're Alex, right?"
I approached the shadow, but the closer I got, the shadow farther away.
"Dad ... I love you, and so do you. Sorry I tried several times to kill Timmy because I was jealous of him. Me and my mother have forgiven you. And now it's time for me to go."
The shadow disappeared without having the chance to say sorry to him. I could only cry on the floor of the room without being able to do anything.
"Forgive dad son ... I'm sorry .. you're a good boy. I'm sorry ... uhh" I cried could not hold it anymore. The only thing that crossed my mind to make up for my mistake was ending my life. I know this all can't be forgiven even though I die, but I don't want to live with the guilt that will always be embedded in my heart and mind. I am a self-conscious coward, a jerk who doesn't deserve to live, doesn't deserve to be a father.
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I also wrote letters to aunts Merry and and Timmy, so that they would not be confused when they found my body later.
I took the rope in my kitchen or whatever to end my life.
I walked to the stairs and tied the rope to the railing of the stairs, then a knot for me to put around my neck. Do not forget to also keep my will next to me so that it is not difficult for them to find it.
I looped the knot around my neck, and jumped from the top of the ladder to the edge of the ladder where I hung myself.
"It's dark ... it hurts ... okay."
Suddenly everything was dark, getting darker ...
And quiet ...
# Josh's will
Hi Aunt Merry ...
I hope you're not surprised when you find me hanging on the railing of the stairs.
I'm sorry, because in the end I could only trouble you, I just wanted to tell you that Kyle's disappearance was because I killed Kyle and Alex, I won't tell you how and why, because I don't really want to remember and tell about the incident myself.
Please call the authorities and check the well in the cellar of this house, that's where I dumped the bodies of Kyle and Alex.
I want to be buried with them.
Please say sorry to Timmy, I'm not a good father to him.
I love him very much, but my being around him will be very dangerous. I don't want to endanger my son anymore.
I will give all of my possessions to Timmy and aunt. Take this house and live in the shop.
Later, when the time comes, let Timmy take care of the aunt and the little shop.
Thank you very much from me to you aunt.
Sorry I bothered you a lot, even in the end I only added to the burden of your life.
Take care of Timmy bi, I beg you to take care of him like your own son.
Send warm regards
Josh
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Explanation:
Schizophrenia is a mental disorder that occurs in the long term. This disorder causes sufferers to experience hallucinations, delusions or delusions, thinking confusion, and behavior changes. These symptoms are a symptom of psychosis, which is a condition in which the sufferer has difficulty distinguishing reality from his own thoughts.