The stomach hurts like hell. I feel nauseated. The chest hurts like my heart is gonna give out. The brain is literally screaming for the voices to stop. I need the world to shut up . I can't hear these voices anymore. The bickering , the hate , the agony , the judgements. Just stop it all. please. At this point I am just existing and I don't know what am I supposed to do next. My fingers are trembling and I feel numb. I need this chaos to stop . I just want to go away. Every word seems a dagger piercing right through my heart and ironically it hurts literally even though the word is just an expression . I don't know what to look forward to I don't know how to hold onto the hanging thread. I am drowning in my own blood .