"So? Daness? What happened between you two?"
"Ha? The who?" I asked her.
We here Jollibee just finished class and we decided to eat lunch here. There's have cafeteria in school at AUP but because of what happened we ate outside.
"You two Carl, I thought you two were getting along?"
"That's what I know Jaica but what can I do
I woke up earlier that I no longer have feelings for him?"
"God? Daness! What will be told about you on campus, you are a cheater? ghoster?"
"Then be it! I don't care. And if I really lied to Carl, wouldn't he be with me until now. I just finished what should be finished. If I prolong it, it will only get worse".
"You had a point, but the main point here is, your reasons are invalid, why you dump him?
What now? Because there is no spark? Didn't you hate Joseph too because you said you just feel friend. Joshua? Your reason is, he is not your type".
"Okay! Okay" I stop her before she can unite them all.
"What wrong being honest? I just want to be honest I don't feel anything to them so I decided to end their courtship, for what?"
"I get you Daness but if you keep believing to first and last you will end up old maid"!
"Hey! knock on woods Jaica"!
"Crazy, no woods here and if that is your fate you can't do nothing. You will become old maid"! She even threatened me.
"What's wrong with my dream? It's just simple! He is my first boyfriend so he also will be my husband"!
"Eh? what if he is your first but you are not his first girlfriend?
You know Daness were here in the 21st century NBSB slash no boyfriend since birth is not popular except for you I guess.
See those high school students they already had ex-boyfriends or boyfriends.
In short, your dream is good to be true. It's good yes, but the one you had in your dream it seems difficult to find. Do unless its okay with you that you are not his first in everything?"
"You know what Jaica you are not helping me"! It seems hard to think that I am not his first .
"What I mean it's unfair he will be my first and then I will not?"
"Daness l, LOVE! You eat up with your dream! Feel the love. Do not look for your high standard. Because if you feel love, that's it. Even if he is not your first of all"!
"Why? Jaica had you been in love? Seems like the depth of what you're pulling?"
"Well yes, there is a guy but he doesn't feel the same way".
"Why? Why don't you tell me?"
"Daness I was still in high school back then and we just met in college".
"Yes she's right . I studied at AUP in Laguna. Very competitive students. Sometimes I get stressed out too much".
"So? What happened?"
"To make story short he liked someone else. Only last year I also found out that he likes someone else. Were friends and I was flattered that is possible to like someone except me. I thought he felt the same way. Maybe I was too confident".
"What? You mean? Didn't you even say you like him?" Curiosity kills me. During their time together she did not tell that she is in love with him? Will she give up doing nothing?
"Daness you don't understand what for? I haven't even lost to a fight yet".
"What? Jaica this is not you! And at least you fought and at least you made a way. You know what the hardest thing? You lost your love when you were not fighting!"
"Don't make your friendship into relationship because I might lose both Danessa".
"Jaica, and what if he feel the same way?"
"Then I am coward. Friendship is more important to me. I can find someone I can be in a relationship with but it 's hard to find a true friend".
"Okay I understand Jaica" and I smile at her.
"You, Daness? What if someday your dream guy arrives or what you called him the one, your first and last.
And other guy who is the opposite of your dream guy, who will you choose?"
"My god! Jaica of course the first guy, he was my dream guy right?" I answered without hesitation.
"Then, I believe in saying, do not speak as if you know what will happen". She pushed her mouth smiled strangely.
"What? I don't understand you?" I confused asked her.
"It's nothing! There were saying that opposite of what someone says, what they really want to do".
" Well Jaica it's not bad to accept that sometimes we choose the wrong decisions".
" So, you mean it is possible to choose one thing, you don't actually want?"
As long as I want to choose the right thing but I can't. We can't always choose something that is favorable to us.
We can learned from mistakes, we become wiser and stronger.
If we fall once, get up ten times.
"What will you do Daness if someday you fall and betrayed?".
I look at her. Betrayal is one the most I hated it. i hated being betrayed.
"It's okay".
"You mean--
I cut her off.
"As long as is not you Jaica, I love you more than a friend. For me, your my sister, well we are not related by blood but by our heart. If someone betrayed me I can forgive, but not you, I trust you more than I trust myself. Why are planning betraying me?".
"I'm just asking, don't be serious. By the way let's go back, we still have class later".
"Ahh I hate being honest, I thought your serious when you ask me that".
"Yeah, I'm just curios you know?".
"Okay". I simply said.
Why if you are betrayed what would you feel?
No one wants to be betrayed right?