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＊Eric's P.O.V.＊
Am I dead...? Why is it so comfy here. Did I live? Where am I? What is this place...?
I struggled to open my eyes. After a long time fighting with it, I could finally see a light. I saw a white ceilling. So I lived.
Turning my head around, I saw a white figure infront of me. It walked toward me after noticing my movements.I realised Im in a hospital.
The nurse beside me spoke up, "How are you feeling?"
E,"For how long have I been here?"
TN, "It's been 2 days sir. The one who saved you said it was an accidental drown-"
E,"The one who saved me....?", My words almost quiet as whispers.
TN,"He left a note here. He paid for bills and told us to discharge you whenever you wake up."
It was a lot to take in. I forced a smile and nodded to make the nurse go away. At last The whole room was quiet. A silence which was rather peaceful and at the same time disturbing.
I looked outside the window beside me. Before I knew, I was in deep thoughts.
When I tried to drown to death...When I wanted kill myself by the thing I treasured the most...Why Am I still alive?
Why did I want to live again when There's no reason for me to stay. I lost all my reasons to live .
The most important thing to a person is their reasons to Go on. Why did I feel like I should Now stay alive to look for that reason.
These past few years has been so tough for me. My parent's divorce. Me dropping out of school. My mom moving in with her boyfriend. She overworked to pay the depts.
That jerk kept harrassing her and I couldnt do anything...I was helpless.
Everyday was like a new war to me. A war that has no end.
A sudden breeze enter the room. I heard a paper flattering beside me. Is this the note he left me? When Im too confused if I should resent him or thank him for saving me.
I made my way to read what he wrote.
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While being confused of what I should be feeling right now, I left the room.Where can I possibly go When nothing's worth staying for.
I reached my home ...which didnt feel like it.
The old building with an odd silence around it. It was terrifying to admit where I belong.
To avoid any eyecontact, I put on my hat and walked toward my house.
There I faced another war. Before I could turn the handle and walk in, I heard them fighting ...again. Those cursing were too loud to hear.
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There were no way Eric can walk in to that hell again. He Leaned on the wall beside the door and Let out a long sigh. While staring at nothing he just wanted them to stop.
A Lady from next door came back with groceries on her hand. She heard his parents fighting and saw him standing beside the door. Even if he wore a hat, It wasnt hard for them to know who it was. His parents are almost too known to the neighbours.Since they always fight and create chaos around it.
＊Eric's P.O.V.＊
I saw the lady looking at me and giving me a pity look. Im too pissed off to accept their sympathy. They dont need to show me their cheap and disgusting selves with sympathy for me in their eyes. They know nothing of me. They cant tell what I went through. They cant tell what Im facing. I dont need their pity on me!
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At once, With all those anger inside him, He kicked the empty boxes infront of him. It made a loud sound around it. Some people who were talking went quiet. The lady who passed by him was startled. She whispers to herself that was almost hearable, "Is the whole Family crazy?"
Eric had enough of his surrounding. Maybe coming back wasnt a good idea. He puts his hands on his pocket and took last glance at his house. The fight stopped but it was the silence before the storm. Going inside now can only make him face the anger of his parents.
While walking down the stairs, He saw a figure rushing at him while cycling. He tried to avoid the interaction and walk away. While pulling the hat toward his face more, He started walking the other way.
But It was too late. The person reached him, "Eric!!". The guy dropped his cycle and ran at him.
Theo, "Where have you been!?!? Why are you not answering my callls?!? I've looking
allover for you. Your mom said You didnt come home for two days!! Where were you! Answer me!."
They were best friend. They've been together since middle school. Although He's worried about Eric almost all day, Eric always avoids him. He felt too selfish to wrap him around his problems too. Theo kept noticing his change of behaviour since His parents Divorce. He tried to stand with him in every hard times. But Eric pushes him away and rejects his offers. He felt helpless . The least he could do was let him stay over when his parents fight.
Eric couldnt answer any of his question. He stood there saying nothing while the worries in Theo's face kept increasing. He wasnt trying to force him to answer. He was ready to hear whenever he tells him.
Eric turned around at the building and said without looking at him , "Do you know any place where I can be distracted and not think about this world?"
Theo was too confused but he decided to give him the solution instead of questions.
"You wanna go to the club?", He didnt mean to get Eric wasted or anything. But the question itself spoke the answer.
Eric silently nod and walked byhimself to his destination.