- It's hard this morning.
- I only get up for my part, so I'm okay.
- I shouldn't bother you with that, sorry.
- No, maybe you should talk to me more. Maybe it's too early for you to meet new people if it hurts you as much as it does? Guide my thoughts. I don't want to make a messy interpretation.
- What makes me sad this morning is his reaction, because it is quite a shock. I've wanted to meet people for a long time and I don't regret meeting you at all, on the contrary. I feel good when I'm with you and that's also what pushed me to put things right. I always want to see you and I'm missing you right now.
- Okay. I can understand everything.
- I'm afraid because I feel you far away.
- That, you can get out of your head.
- It reassures me.
- For my part, I thought the same thing of you.
- On the contrary, I want to be even closer to you and I am even afraid that it will scare you.
- We're weird.
- I confirm, we are weird… I just found your marble in my pocket. Are you real then?
- Yes, yes, yes! We are!
- I kiss you from afar, but very close.
- Is it possible to be even closer?
- Yes, I think.
- So, I want to find that out.
- Yesterday, already, I let myself be even closer to you.
- I felt it and it made me feel good… I've been thinking about you ever since I woke up. If we could quickly cancel this feeling, I'm up for it! My arms and chest fully feel the emptiness of your absence, especially now when I'm lying alone.
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- Can we sleep together tomorrow night?
- Now that you've offered it to me, I'm not going to manage not to come.
- This answer pleases me and does not scare me. Try to scare me.
- You will surely be scared soon without even trying, so let me make the most of you before that.
- Why do you say that? Looks like you're the one who's already scared.
- Me? About what?
- You, maybe?
- I don't think you can put up with me very long…
- So, my intuition was good.
- Yes.
- So that's why you meet lots of people, because they can't stand you for long! I just thought you like people!
- I need a lot of care and affection, but no one can be available all the time, so it takes a lot of people to take turns. I also like what is new and unknown.
- I will meditate on this answer full of sincerity.
- That's it, I scared you!
- No, that's something else I'll take the time to define.
- I also appreciate your sincerity but you can imagine that this is panic for me!
- No, I can't imagine. You are pretty, kind, you have conversation and humor, and even though you need a lot, you give a lot, you have to be callous not to feel it. In short, there will always be people to take turns and your need for the unknown will be regularly fed. Why panic?
- I panic when I feel you far away.
- It's my turn to ask you to let me make the most of you, because soon we won't be either new or unknown, but I'm not afraid. Let's be ourselves. We know that our desires are destined to diverge. But don't panic.
- I hate to read this because I know it's true… But deep down, can we really be so sure? The only thing I know is that I want it to last. I don't think about the rest.
- I understand. I anticipate too much sometimes. I'm just protecting myself by explaining to you that tomorrow you can get tired of me and that would be normal and out of my control. As for me, I can meet someone and suddenly stop our exchanges, however pleasant they may be. It's a matter of context and osmosis… Seeing you makes me happy right now and that's why I'm trying to speed up our meetings.
- It makes me happy, too. And know that I don't get tired that easily… Can we focus on that for now?
- I roll the dice. It chooses.
- You have to choose!
- No, but it's okay, let's make the most of us. This is clearly what I want. But make the most of the other people, too, please, because I know myself, I won't be having this speech for long.
- There's no one else around now, because I don't want to. All day long, I wait for your messages. And I wish I could not leave your arms. That's what I could have said to scare you, earlier… I think that's a certain intensity that I need, and I have it with you. I don't need anyone else.
- No matter the number, zero, ten, or one hundred, the context is the same, so let's make the most of it, and come and sleep at my place.
- Tonight?
- Yes.