- I think you appeared in one of my dreams last night. Do you see the mark on your arm?
- I don't have any marks and that makes me sad.
- Maybe next time, if I'm not afraid to hurt you.
- Fear has no place here. You have your place.
- You'll have to make me forget it.
- I'm going to try.
- I like the little mark you made on me.
- And I like that you like it.
- A two-day weekend is way too short...
- My room tells me that it still demands your presence.
- I can't stop thinking about you.
- What kind of thoughts?
- Memories, especially… and images of you.
- Does it bother you?
- No. It's nice and a little frustrating because I want to see you.
- I also have images of us and the taste of your body in my memory. I'm sorry to frustrate you like this even though I am sure there is some positive in it. You scatter my thoughts. I am still disturbed but also at peace.
- It's not you that frustrates me, just the end of the weekend. And I like that frustration, actually. It makes the pleasure last.
- I would like the pleasure to last even after one, two, twelve, or a hundred times!
- I believe that it will be the case.
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- Why do I still want to see you?
- Because it is a shared desire, because you feel my desire, because I want and need to sleep, alone in the worst case; with you, at best. I'm just a little worried that you might get tired of seeing each other every day, and that it might precipitate the end of this story.
- I'm afraid you will get bored. Me, I never tire. I'm used to extremes; I don't like the middle. I prefer all or nothing.
- I have to admit I like it. I'm the same, normally, even if you can't see it.
- Normally, but not this time?
- This time, it's different. I miss you. I miss the smell of your skin, your saliva, your silences, in short...
- I like you to miss me.
- So, you've won… What's more, you made my other conversations tasteless, I have every reason in the world to blame you!
- As long as you feel something!
- What is lukewarm bothers me anyway.
- So, we're the same.
- It will be a problem for me if it continues like this.
- What do you mean?
- As I feel now, at the thought of falling asleep without having you against me.
- You're going to rest, and it will do you good, so I'm happy.
- Great, if you're happy! Hooray! Good night! Viva la vida! See you soon! I'm happy too! Amen!
- We'll have more days. The first day is the hardest.
- You quickly move on, I'm proud of you. You will be an inspiration to me.
- I'm both obsessive and very changeable, it's a weird mix. But now I just want you not to be sad anymore.
- Stay a little obsessive, if you don't mind, it has an effect on me.
- I never managed not to be, so you don't have to worry.
- I want you.
- You too have an effect on me with that sentence.
- Writing it has doubled its effect…
- I love to imagine you like that.
- I imagine you since I woke up, it is inhuman.
- It reassures me because me too, but I'm afraid it will go away just as quickly, I don't want to get out of your head.
- We have something precious, I believe, and if we do, I'm not worried or up for spoiling it.
- But we let things go smoothly, okay?
- I think I'll agree, but I want some clarification.
- I don't want to get back into a relationship right away. What we have is fine with me, I don't necessarily want more… And I'm a little scared telling you that.
- What do you mean, you're scared?
- I'm scared it won't suit you.
- It's a possibility, yes. We said we would tell each other everything. We won't pretend. I won't pretend if it doesn't suit me. And if it does, it won't be anyone's fault.
- Do you still want to see me?
- Always!
- I was afraid not. And I don't think I'll be reassured until the next time you kiss me.
- It is possible that our passion ends badly. So, I must taste your presence again and again to compensate for this eventuality. I will be reassured when I feel the pressure of your arms around me.
- You too need to be reassured?
- Yes, I admit it, and I have a hard time understanding why.
- I'll be able to reassure you if you let me.
- So, I'll let you do it.
- When you said you would probably agree with me, what were you thinking?
- I thought, think and will think for a while that you should not get into a relationship with anyone. Not with me, let alone with anyone else.
- So, we were on the same page. Get plenty of sleep before we meet again.
- I would sleep better if I were with you.
- I was so comfortable in your arms yesterday…
- I wish we had this feeling of an upcoming end all night. My bed seems twice too big since you left it, and your little body fits perfectly to mine, in my humble opinion hardly subjective!
- I completely agree. And I'm even starting to be reassured.
- Don't be too reassured, otherwise you won't need to see me anymore.
- I'm just starting to be. I still need your lips to do the rest.
- Take care of yourself above all, I'll take care of you afterwards.
- I look forward to it…
- Can you free yourself for a peaceful night?
- No, not right now.
- Thank you for telling me, it brings me back to Earth, I was starting to get carried away!
- But I want you to get carried away!
- You have the keys, if it's your will.
- Do not say that…
- Even if I think so? Why?
- Yes, of course you have the right to say what you think. But I don't like that role. I just want you to know that I am not playing with you. It might sound like a game, but it's a respectful game.
- So, we share the keys, and I trust you like I've never trusted a stranger before. Game or no game, I'm not afraid of you!
- I'm smiling.
- I see it, it annoys me, I'm going to smoke a cigarette!
- No, because after that I won't be able to kiss you anymore.
- When you're around, I don't want to smoke…
- Replacing one addiction with another, that's the secret! Find a third one for when I'm not there.
- All in all, I'll think about it.
- Do you know that you also calm one of my addictions?
- Say!
- No, I can't.
- Really?
- Just know that you are doing good to my unconscious.
- Really, really, really?
- Yes, really.
- It's horrible not to know. Are you afraid to scare me away? It's really nice to do you some good, though.
- It's hard to say more, and unnecessary, I think. I love the fact that you only know my present, what you see of me now.
- It's likely that I'll want to know all the facets of you if this continues like this. You're your darkness attracts me.
- You know everything you need to know. When I'm with you, I'm really me and that's why I'm feeling better.
- I like the real you. I want a prescription for a daily kiss.
- It wouldn't be enough for what you got. You need more, one on each part of your body.
- I fall asleep to those sweet words. Thank you for being you.
- Sleep well and think of me.