•2 weeks later•
(It's 4pm)
I just got to know that they are going to stay at Carlsbad for 3-4 weeks.
Chase was editing a video in his room while I'm downstairs with Kouvr and kelianne.
Y'all wanna go out today later with the others?
Sure! Kouvr and I said.
So you wanna talk about what happened 2 weeks ago?.. Kelianne said.
Can I trust you? I said to Kouvr.
Of course you can.
Ok so where should I start..
Kelianne already knows that I was bullied for literally liking chase and being so short as I am.
Then there was some other reasons as me faking to be depressed..
Yes I had depression for a long time.
Was close to take suicide but kelianne saved me.
I stopped going to school and moved to la with kelianne since I didn't want to be alone here.
Now that I'm friends with you guys I have a better life.
But you still kept going?
Oh uhm about that... that's just anxiety.
You sure? Kelianne said.
Yes.
How many times this past 2 months? Kouvr asked.
3.
I'm tired.. I'm going to sleep.
Yeah remember that we're going out later!
Ok!
I go to chase's room.
I see him crying.
Chase!
I close the door and go to him.
Why are you crying?
I'm worried about you..
Is that why your crying?..
He hugs me.
Do you know how much I care for you.
No..
More than I care about myself.
I giggled.
You should care a little more about yourself, I promise to you I'm fine!
Love you.
Love you too chase.
We slept for some hours
•2 hours later•
Baby wake up..
What?
We're going out get ready.
Yeah.
I get out of the bed and pick out some clothes.
I had a neon green crop top with Thomas's merch/sweatpants.
Cancelled merch.
You done chase?
Yeah.
Let's go then.
The others were waiting for us downstairs.
Y'all ready?
Yeah.
•at saddle ranch•
We all ordered our food while we waited we all talked and watched our phones.
Chase put his hand on my leg, he kept talking like it was nothing well I didn't care too so we kept talking.
Guys I gotta go a little earlier cause I have a meeting is that ok?
It's fine just don't die.
What does that have to do with-
Nevermind.
Our food is hereeee kelianne said.
We started eating.
I felt something on my leg.
I choked on my water.
Soph you good? Tayler said.
I-I'm fine.
Chase not now..
He was playing with my private spot.
I won't go hard chill he whispered.
I kept eating my food.
I kinda want coffee Olivia said.
Order it then.
Nah I'm to lazy.
Alright.
I took chase's hand off me.
He laughed.
What is it? Nate asked
Nothing Chase said.
•after they ate•
K guys I gotta go now I'll see y'all later.
Bye chase.
He gave me a fast kiss.
Bye baby.
Bye beb.
Let's go back to the house now and play something.
Alright.
•at the hype house•
There's not much to do.
Yeh.
I'm going to take a shower.
K bye ugly rat.
Kelianne!
Ugly rat.
Ugly blonde girl.
Guys-
Ugly short girl.
Your like 5cm taller than me.
Your still so short.
Tayler
Yes Chanell?
Go rail her as a punishment.
Chanell I swear to god!-
Tayler took her to the room.
Tayler!
He laughed.
Chanell what did you just do- Alex said
Ship Kouvr said
Same.
I'm gonna go shower now bye pretty people.
Bye Caucasian Nate said.
Pretty Caucasian!
Yeh.
I go upstairs and take a shower
I played honeymoon avenue by Ariana Grande and more of her songs.
*1 and a half hour later*
I was just vibing with the music while writing some things in my diary.
I changed into chase's hoodie and kept writing.
Oh hey bebe!
Hey chanell.
Is something wrong you look sad.
Chanell are you cheating on me?
No-
Explain this..
Chase that's not me!
Oh yeah really it's looks exactly like you.
And with nick to my literal best friend.
Chase that's not me!
Stop lying!
He pushed onto the wall.
Chase that hurt.
That's what I wanted to happen.
Look we're done get out of my room.
Chase-
Just get out.
I took my phone and went out.
I started crying.
Cha what's wrong?
It's nothing.
Kelianne I'm going back to the apartment For some days.
Cha why?
I just want too.
I put my shoes and took the car.
I've had some driving lessons.
That photo wasn't real not at all.
Someone photoshopped it and sent it to chase.
(At her apartment)
I go to bed crying while my mascara is all over my face.