CALESIE'S POINT OF VIEW ( POV )
"CALESIE!!" A man's voice called me, he sounded like he's catching his breath, I looked up slowly to see the man that called me,
I cried as soon as I saw that it was Aldrin who called me...
Aldrin went towards me then sit down to look at me,
"A-Aldrin... I-I'm terrified," I said sobbing,
"I know," He touched my face using both of his hand then wiped my tears away using his thumbs,
"See, You're still afraid of thunder," He jokingly said, This seems so nostalgic, the same thing happened when we first met, His smile always tells me that everything is going to be alright, because of it, I felt so relieved,
*THUNDER RUMBLING CONTINUOUSLY*
"Is it over?" I asked while my eyes are closed,
Because of the thunder's loud rumble, I was so startled that I accidentally...
"It's over," He said patting my head trying to comfort me,
I accidentally hugged him!
After I realized that I'm hugging Aldrin I immediately let go because I was shocked, but what's most shocking is...
"Let's stay like this for a while," He pulled me again to hug me tight, His hug is warm,
"Are you okay?" I asked,
"I'm not okay,"
"Why?"
"When I found out from Hailey that you were hospitalized, I was so scared that I wanted to visit you as soon as possible, I wanted to see if you're alright, I wanted to hug you tight, I was frightened, I wanted to know if you're okay and I can't help but blame myself for what happened, I was the one that found that job for you, I didn't know that that place is dangerous,"
"Don't blame yourself for something that you didn't do, no one expected that this will happen to me," Aldrin let go of the hug while still holding both of my shoulders, He looked at me then smiled,
"I hoped I was there when that happened, I hope I saved you," If he was there instead of Artreus will the same thing happen?
"Calesie? Calesie!?" Aldrin called,
"What? D-Did you said something?"
"I asked you if you're feeling alright?"
"I'm fine, I just need a little...." I froze because I felt the pain inside my stomach again,
"Calesie?"
"I-I'm fine, don't worry, I'm just going to use the bathroom," I said smiling, I stood up then walked going towards the bathroom,
I went inside the bathroom when I arrived then locked the doors, I looked at myself in the mirror inside the bathroom while both of my hands are resting on the sink just below the mirror,
I formed a fist at my right hand then punched my stomach gently, I feel like I wanted to throw up,
I opened the faucet then washed my face, I looked at myself in the mirror while my face is wet, There's a towel beside so I used it to dry my face,
*RAINING HARD*
There's always rain after the thunder,
I turned off the faucet then opened the door, But when I got out of the bathroom, Aldrin is not inside the room anymore, Did he left? Without saying goodbye?
I continued walking going to the hospital bed, But as soon as I took another step someone hugged me from behind,
"Calesie why are we friends again?" He suddenly asked,
"What?"
"Why are we friends?"
"Uhh..... Because you're kind..."
"That's not what I meant and you know that Calesie," I know what he meant?
"I want us to be more than that because I like you, Cal," I became sad because of what Aldrin said, I now understand what he meant but...
"I don't want that Al....." I lied, Because of what I said Aldrin let go of the hug, I turned around to face him, he's just going to be hurt, I'm a part of his traumatic past...
"I thought you feel the same way about how I feel about you," It looks like I hurt him,
"I'm sorry,"
"Don't apologize, you're just making me look more pathetic," He's smiling,
"Aldrin I....."
"It's okay Cal, It's not like I can do anything to change how you feel about me," I wanted to tell him that I have the same feelings for him, I want to be with him forever but...
I'm just scared...
"I wanted to tell you that I didn't regret telling you how I feel,"
I can't say a word to him,
"I'm leaving, I still can catch up for the afternoon class even though I'm almost late," He turned around then went towards the door, He's almost at the exit, I don't want him to leave like this.....
"Aldrin!!" I called, Aldrin stopped but he's not saying anything,
"We... Uhmm... We are still best friends..... Right?" I asked,
"Yes, we are still best friends, I'm going to visit again later after class, Get better soon Cal," He said then he left....
As soon as he left, my left eye release a single tear, I wiped it off using my fingers and then looked at it, I'm crying,
I looked at the door where Aldrin left,
"Aldrin I..... I like you too," I whispered while sobbing, It hurts when you can't say that to the person that you like,
Traumas because of the past are quite annoying, I wanted to be strong but I keep recalling how I was almost killed by someone that I trusted, someone that he looked up to, someone that you love died so the next thing that you will do is move on, but that's not the case for Aldrin, I can feel it, I can feel that he hasn't moved on yet,
"If you're with me, you're just going to remember how you're sister died, how that old building exploded while Dasha is in there, we are just going to be locked up forever in that past, being friends is enough," I whispered, saying it while I'm alone is easing the pain that I am having right now,
*DOOR OPENED*
I was shocked when someone opened the door, I looked at the person who's coming towards me,
"So that's your reason?" I cried as soon as he talked, He wiped my tears away then hugged me tightly,
"I'm relieved Cal, I am so relieved, I thought you don't like me because I'm ugly," He jokingly said,
"Wha-What are you talking about?" I asked lying that I don't know what he's saying,
"I don't care about our past Calesie... don't worry about me, don't worry about the pain that I will feel from remembering how my sister tragically died, I moved on so you have to move on too if you're scared then I will wait for you, I will be right by your side if you want me to, but remember that....
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BEING FRIENDS IS NOT ENOUGH FOR ME,"