I think all of my young adult life I craved for only one thing and that is Swara. Yes, I was a douchebag back in my early college days and I don't have a single bit of regret.
Of course, perks of being a man.
The male ego is something we wear it like our perfume every day. Without it, we are nothing.
But even in my slightest imagination I never thought that the love we had for each other kept on nourished by both of us, without each other's notice. Even during the times of my negligence, Swara took great care of our Love, but what did she mean by it's not easy and need time? Uttara said that she never looked at any guy in a romantic way that stirred something inside me. Then why she took this huge step of not marrying any guy in the future?
Does that include me also?
I am so happy that our parents waved us the green signal which would have been a great problem in the future if they haven't. Now, my focus should be on Swara, and Swara only.
The buzzing of my cabin bell brought me back to earth and I saw Lucky standing outside along with Uttara impatiently on my security T.V. Reaching out to the button under my footrest, I pressed it and the door opened letting them inside.
"Bhai I am sorry. I never knew you had feelings for Swara, if I knew I wouldn't have approached you with the idea of dating her," Lucky started blabbering taking the seat in front of me.
"Lucky, it's not your fault, it's Swara's magic, she can make anyone fall for her," I said smiling a little making Uttara chuckle.
"That's true Bhaiya, you have no idea how many guys were crazy about her, but Didi was crazy about you" the thought of Swara being crazy for me brought a strange solace to my heart and my ego.
"Well, I came here to inform you that don't fly high that elders' showed you green signal means Swara Didi also will accept you." Uttara's words made me frown.
"What do you mean by that Choti?" Lucky voiced out which made Uttara take a deep breath.
"Bhaiya, Didi grew up with the thought that you will never be hers. It was like you are some forbidden thing about which she can only admire from far, but can never think of acquiring it. For the past 9 years, she trained her heart and mind with this thought. She had a little hope in her heart until she saw your pics of your girlfriends which killed her from within. It only takes 21 days to turn a hobby into a habit now think from Swara Didi's point 9 years... it's imprinted in her mind Bhaiya that you are not meant to be hers and suddenly you guys are giving life to her dead hopes which will only mess her up. I am telling this all because as a person I traveled through her journey of destruction along with her and I couldn't do anything." the unshed tears of Uttara made more sense.
"She loves you Bhaiya,
Loves you to the extent that she is ready to give up on you,
Loves you to the extent that she is ready to see you with someone else," Uttara took out two vintage type diaries and slid it towards me.
"I know you want to know everything about Swara Didi. She never had anyone to share her confusion, frustrations as you know about Anu Aunty. Whatever she felt about you or anything during these 9 years, she wrote them in these diaries, but yeah I need them back before evening as Didi will notice that they are missing. They contain the first 7 years entries, the last three years ones Didi hid it somewhere, I asked her many times, but she said something like it's personal, etc.,"
"Thank you so much Uttara," I said with a heavy heart caressing the cover of the diary.
"I will be the happiest person in this world Bhaiya if you guys get together. I ship you guys so much, you know even I tried Swara Didi to move on, but I don't know what she saw in you that she is not ready to look anyone beyond you" Lucky laughed looking at her face while I glared at her for looking at me like I am some downgrade guy who is no match to Swara.
"What Bhai? Don't glare at her, Come on, even you tried to set us up"
"That's because you both are important to me and I can't see you getting hurt, but somewhere I had this feeling that Swara will reject you but I can't deprive you without giving you the benefit of doubt that whether she likes you or not. Swara and I lived our lives till now thinking that our significant other doesn't have feelings for us"
"Well, hands down Swara is all yours Bhai." Lucky held his hands up while I smiled thinking about it. Both of them departed from my cabin leaving me alone with my thoughts and her diaries. Dad and Bade Papa canceled my appointments for the day given the situation. I am so lucky to have an understanding family.
I opened the brown diary slowly and saw her name calligraphed beautifully with lots of flowers and butterflies. My heart thumped hard against the ribcage as my mind tried to process that I am going to live through her 7 years of love life.
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