Kabanata 36
She Killed Him
"Welcome aboard to Canada's Queen International Airline. Have a good day."
Agad akong hinawakan ni Alec pababa ng eroplano matapos mag-announce ang piloto nang nagland ang eroplano. Hawak-kamay kaming bumaba. Ang isang kamay nito ang may dala ng luggage ko. Habang ang kaliwang kamay nito ay nakahawak sa kamay ko.
The small smile crepted on my lips as I stared at him. He's so handsome. And I can't believe that we're getting married. I'll marry this man!
Pumasok kami sa police station nang igiya kami ng isang pulis doon. Agad na sumalubong sa amin si Amya na nasa visitors area, may mapanuyang ngiti sa labi. Pero nawala ang ngiti nito nang dumapo ang paningin sa magkahawak na kamay namin ni Alec.
Halos dakmain ko ito habang prenting naka-upo ito sa visiting area, hands were cuffed. Ang kaninang mapanuyang ngiti ay nakaka-insulto na ngayon dahilan ng biglang pag-init ng ulo ko.
Isang linggo matapos sabihin sa akin ni Alec ang lahat ay nagpasya akong bumalik sa Canada, not to work again as a pilot. But I want to see Amya root in jail. It may sound so dramatic, but I really hate what she did to us. To Adriel and I, and to us, Alec.
"Long time no see, Maisha."
'Di pa man kami nakakalapit ay kitang-kita ko na ang galit sa mga mata nito. Na pilit tinatakpan ng nakaka-insultong ngiti habang naka-dekwatro pang naka-upo. I smirked at Amya, di magpapatalo sa pang-iinis nito.
"It's been so long since I saw you walking around... freely, Amya."
The corner of my lips rose, and then a grin formed in my lips. Seeing how pity Amya is. Agad nag-iba ang ekspresiyon ni Amya.
The true evil comes out that fast huh.
"This is all your f*cking fault, b*tch!" galit na singhal sa akin nito. My eyes sharpened because of what Amya said.
Ang kapal ng mukha niya para sisihin ako sa kabaliwang ginawa niya!
"It's not my fault why you are here inside this little sh*tty place, Amya. It's yours!" nagpipigil sa galit na wika ko. Gustuhin ko mang kalmutin ito ay di ko ginawa. I won't go down to her level!
"If I were the karma, I will get my revenge to you in a hardest and painful way. So that you'll never ever forget what you did to us. I don't care if you're sorry for it already. I'll get the price for that! You'll pay for everything you've done. As if you really are sorry...But on the other hand, I would always choose not to get my revenge just to satisfy myself. I'll let you do it by yourself."
Madidiin ang mga salitang lumalabas sa bibig ko. Alec rubbed his hand on my back to calm me down. Just by seeing Amya's face, I will never calm down! Para sa mga buhay na nawala dahil sa kagagawan nito, I will never be able to calm the f*cking down!
"It's your fault! Blame yourself for those people who died in plane crash! If you didn't seduced Adriel, he will not going to broke up with my sister! He will never hurt my sister!" pagsisisigaw nito. Bahagyang lumapit sa amin ang jail guard, pero seninyasan ito ni Alec na okay lang.
"And then again, all of the sudden, you came here and seduced Alec! You seduced him, you little b*tch! The man standing on your side is mine, but you witched him! You seduced him, b*tch!"
Amya's eyes was full of anger and hatred towards me. If I'm not mistaken, there's a tears forming in the corner of her eyes. But she tried so hard to not let it fall because we are here. Alam kong nasaktan ito. Pero hindi iyon rason para kumitil siya ng buhay!
"History may repeat itself, but people cannot return to the past. Even if how many times you tried to kill someone just to get even with your past, it won't change."
Maybe, a part of me understand her sentiments and rants. The part of being fooled by the person she love. And a part of me feel pity on her, for loving a man who can't love her back. It was indeed painful. But we can't force a person to love us the way we want to. Hindi ganoon 'yon kadali. Dahil kung oo, hindi na sana aabot sa ganito ang lahat. Hindi aabot sa pagbuwis ng buhay at pag gawa ng masama para sa taong 'yon.
"I will always hate you for what you did, Amya. But I know, hating you won't make me feel better...I'll let God ask you for the payment of what you have done. I will let God get the justice for the people who lost their love ones because of what you did. Not because I feel coward of facing all those sh*ts you'd done, but because I am brave enough to trust Him."
Napabuntong hininga nalang ako. Amya is the best example of vengeance, hatred, and anger. She will never let anyone pass and forgive whoever made a mistake on her, that results of pain and violence.
"I want to live my life without anger grows in me. I don't want to live everyday that my heart full of hatred."
You will never truly be free unless you freely forgive, because hate is like a chain around your neck that leads you to the places you don't wanna go. It'll lead you to the darkness. You will become a slave to that hatred and it'll only lead to your own distraction.
"But that doesn't mean I already forgive you, even if I know, you will never ask for forgiveness. You are that kind of woman. I knew it, in the very first day I saw you, I knew you will never bow down to anyone, even if you did mistakes towards them. I saw it in your eyes. My instinct would never fail me, and you prove me that I'm right."
Wala ng imik si Amya nang napagpasyahan naming umalis na doon. Agad naman itong ibinalik ng jail guard sa sariling kulungan nito. The sophisticated and b*tchy Officer Amya Jolina Meyer is now gone. She looks so miserable, and the anger within her, ate her already.
"Are you alright?" Nag-angat ako nang tingin kay Alec bago ito tinanguhan.
"You wanna go somewhere else?" tanong ulit nito.
Alec hold my hand at 'di na rin ako nagprotesta pa. Hinayaan ko ito sa gusto nitong gawin. Naglalakad na kami patungo sa parking lot para kunin ang sasakyan nito.
"I want to see Amya's sister."
Ramdam kong bahagyang natigilan si Alec sa sinabi ko, pero agad rin naman itong nakabawi. Kagabi ko pa iyon iniisip. Gusto kong makilala nang tuluyan ang babaeng unang pinangakoan ng kasal ng namayapa kong fiancée. I want to see her whole, and ask for forgiveness for what Adriel did. Wala akong kasalanan, dahil wala naman akong alam. I trusted Adriel so much, not even thinking that he can do such thing. To hurt a woman.
"Alright. When will you planned to visit her?" Alec's soft voice. It gave me a chill.
"Gusto ko sana ngayon." Alec nodded at me. Seems like he don't have a choice then.
The travel lasted for almost two hours bago kami nakarating sa isang asylum, where Amya's sister is.
The place looks so lonely. 'Di ko mapigilang di makaramdam ng pagka-guilty dahil sa kinahihinatnan nito. Walang kasalanan si Atena, nagmahal lang siya ng taong mas pinili ang iba matapos siyang pangakoang pakakasalan.
Naka-upo sa isang wheelchair si Atena nang ilabas ito ng nurse na nagbabantay dito. Nakatulala lang ito sa kawalan. But despite of her condition, she still look so pretty in her braided blonde hair. She has this cute almond eyes and a pouting reddish lips. She look so adorable and innocent. Kabaliktaran ng hitsura ko, which is, I look so dangerously snob with my arching brows.
I swallow hard when Atena's eyes land on mine. I can clearly see the pain and suffering in there. It breaks my heart. I may be don't have a sister, but seeing Atena in her condition right now, it gave a pang of pain to me. What if I had a sister too. And this will happen to her, surely, I'll do everything to get revenge for those people who hurt her too.
Bahagyang ngumiti sa akin si Atena, pero 'di ko ito magawang suklian. I'm so guilty for what happened.
"She killed him." Nabigla ako dahil sa patiunang sinabi nito. "Because she's jealous to me," malungkot na saad nito nang makalapit na sa gawi namin. Agad kumunot ang noo ko.
What does she mean?
"She killed him..." ulit ni Atena bago tuluyang bumagsak ang mga luha. Nalilito kong binalingan si Alec na kunot-noo ring nakatingin kay Atena.
"W-What do you... mean?" nanginginig ang labing tanong ko.
Atena was still crying herself out. I started to get confused in everything. What does Atena mean by 'She killed him'.
Is he talking about… oh my God!
A tear formed in my eyes as I think of what Atena said.
"I-Is your sister did it?" nag-aalinlangan kong tanong. Bumaling sa akin ang luhaang mukha ni Atena, while she slowly nodded at me.
Sunod-sunod na naglaglagan ang mga luhang kanina ko pang pinipigilan. I am right. Bakit ilalabas ni Amya ang kapatid niya sa asylum kung alam niyang 'di pa ito magaling. Unless she planned something to her!
That psychotic b*tch!
"She killed him... she's jealous to me that's why she killed him!" paulit-ulit na saad nito, at nagsimula nang magwala kaya tumawag na ang nurse ng kasamahan para turukan ng pampakalma si Atena.
"S-Sorry…" umiiyak na usal ko habang dahan-dahang nawalan ng malay si Atena.
Sobrang sikip ng dibdib ko dahil sa nakikita ko. Atena suffered so much. Hindi dapat ito nangyari sa kanya. Sobrang naaawa ako rito, parang dinudurog ang puso ko sa nagyayari. Walang kasalanan si Atena dito. It's was all her sister's fault.
Tuluyan ng pinasok sa sariling silid niya si Atena kaya nagpasya na rin kaming umuwi.
Alec was silent the whole time while I was thinking about Atena. Sumusulyap ito sa akin pero 'di naman ito nagsasalita.
"H-How could she do that…" mahinang usal ko. Hindi ko pa rin matanggap ang nalaman ko.
"Everything will be alright, Baby," kalaunan ay malambing na saad ni Alec sa akin sa ilang minuto ko pang pananahimik. I looked at Alec and nodded.
I know, everything will heal, at the right time. Everything will be alright. Not now, but sooner.
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