Prologue.

The dark clouds loomed over my head as it gave its signal that the storm was about to start, I walked faster away from the café I worked in. The breeze blew through my curls and I could already feel the rain drops falling on my shoulder, I use to love the rain but right now I wasn't in the mood to play in the rain nor do I have any strength for this crazy weather.

Finally I had gotten to my apartment building it wasn't a very good building but it could hold its own against the storm I walked pass the elevator that had the sing 'out of order' written by a red paint on the door what do you expect from a cheap place. Opening the door to my one room apartment I removed my thin jacket and hung it on my room door for it to dry before moving to my one person kitchen which was so small and tight to boil a little water and make myself a lemon tea , things were not always like this, but I had my reasons.

I was ones a happy child I loved music I was as polite to everyone who I approached or who approached me but things changed a year ago when I found out my parents had signed of an agreement for an arranged marriage to a very rich man in the state of new york, of course I wasn't happy I didn't want it. I was only nineteen and was working at a café since my parents couldn't send me to college since we were poor according to them. At first I had thought I was engaged to a girl but how wrong was I, I cried begging my parents not to this to me but then they revealed that it was out of their hands since they couldn't pay back the money they were owing and guess how much, it was ten fucking million yes! When I asked what they had used it for they say 'oh dear boy it was used for the upbringing of your younger and older sibling' which means I wasn't included that explains why my younger sister is in college without a scholarship. I was greatly hurt but what can I do, nothing yes I could do nothing. My mother played the guilt card on me causing me to accept the damn marriage proposal, when we got married he refused to stay in the same room as I and he cooked his own food claiming that I might poison him.

This things kept happening for about eight months and then I began to question why he hated being close to me at all it was then it struck me that he had no idea about the arrangement till the wedding day, shocker I know. well that's what I believed.

Things changed when he came home drunk off his ass one night as he staggered into my room he started saying how his parents were crazy that he didn't want to get married to a whore like me but he also claim that my body was so tempting and he couldn't help himself and that night my dear friends was when he raped me, I am not sure if it is rape but please is it rape if you enjoyed it?. just wanted to be sure.

Knock! Knock!

I set the cup that I held down on the small coffee table before walking to the door, opening the door I saw my neighbor Celine standing there with a wide smile and her cat sandy at her feet. Celine was the only friend I had since I moved into this apartment she helped me with finding a job.

"Hey Celine sweetheart" I say smiling as she rushed in with her cat trailing behind her.

"Hey Aubrey" she said with a whisper before taking her seat on the floor since it was only a small car that was in the room. Yes I am that poor. The rain had started to fall heavily outside as my apartment became colder since there was nothing like a heater in the apartment building. We were soon wrapped in the only thick blanket I had as we talked about how our day was, it was by 8pm when Celine called it a night and left me to my thought.

You might be wondering why I left my so called husband well long story short is I had a secret I had kept away from him and he was cheating on me so there you have it, I looked at the old flip phone to see my schedule for the next day. Sometimes I wish I could have a real family that won't have let me marry that lying cheating man.

I remember how angry he would get when I go out to get just groceries or how mad he would be when I tell him how I felt like a prisoner in what should be my home and all he told me was that it was not his business since it was my fault for agreeing to his parents stupid demands.

I laid in bed tiredly it was already 9:30pm, one time when he had claimed he was at work doing an over time because he has an Important meeting with the board of directors but I guess he meant to say a lady with the name board of directors, when I was about to sleep my iPhone rang with his name flashing on the screen so I picked up.

'Hello?' I had asked but all I heard was sounds in the background before a female voice became clearer.

'Yes. Ah baby…harder' shocked at the moaning I held my breath in anticipation to see maybe is a wrong network connection because it happens sometimes.

'Damn so tight' I finally heard his voice as he spoke with a grunt, my heart ached as I was beginning to love him but reality came knocking and I stupidly opened.

It was then I made up my mind to move away and take my secret with me, that night before the call I was contemplating on how to tell him I was pregnant but I guess he would have personally kicked me out so I decided to kick myself out.

'Am I wrong to do that'