Dear ....,
Some people thing being clingy and all touchy must be amazing. And it is I agree, but it has its downfall when you can't see the person you love most. You'll begin to realize FaceTime just won't suffice, you're constantly in need to be touched. Whether it's touched as in hugging, or kissing, cuddling, or even sex.
I dread summer, I hate the heat, I hate the loneliness, I hate the memories from past summers with people I don't talk to anymore, I hate that I don't see him everyday anymore.
He and I have have been short tempered recently I've consistently been wanting attention and he just wants to do what he feels like doing. Whether that's talking to me, watching a movie, spending time with family etc.
And he has the free will to do all that, but for some reason I just get so upset I don't even understand why I get upset. It's like I know why I got upset but I don't understand why it's making me upset. Because he's still paying some form of attention to me he doesn't forget about me. And yet I just get so angry. And eventually he grows upset as well. Even to a point if I ask a question a little too frequently he gets a little frustrated which I don't understand.
He said he's been short tempered and stressed and doesn't understand why, I feel the same way. And I want to cry for the way I've treated him and the way he's treated me.
I just want him to hold me. Because I know it will fix everything for him to just hold me, I'm not mad at him and he's not mad at me. It's just emotions building up that we don't understand right now.
I miss him.
Yours truly,
Tomie Grayson