Jace's POV
The moment I saw Jaxson kissed Miracle I want to punch him right away, but my heart was shattered when I saw Miracle kissed him back with longing and passion. I wish to beg Mira to end what she was doing, and I felt relieved when she pushed him away; it seems she is confused about the situation, is it because of me? I want to be the reason, but I realized I need to stop what I am doing for I don't want to hurt Caitlin.
I need to take back all the words I said to Mira the moment I acknowledged I injured her, and I can tell she is so furious with me right now. She doesn't know how much I throb for her; I want to kiss her repeatedly until her lips will become swollen; I prefer to give her satisfaction she can't imagine. I hate myself for what I have done to her. I am so glad our friends arrived or else it will turn into more uncomfortable for all of us.
I don't dislike Jax for what he is doing with Miracle, for I can feel his goodness, and he is in love with her too. How I wish I have met her first, maybe I don't experience this turmoils, I have been involved with women before because they showed interest and love flings, but I have never been in love with them, I only felt this way with Caitlin and Miracle, but the feelings I have for Mira is so intense that is why I hurt her, so she will hate me and quit caring for me.
I don't want any other man to kiss her again, I am insensitive. How am I going to stop what I felt for her? Every moment she is near, I wish to claim her mouth and taste her tender tongue. I yearn to hear her soft moans over again. Miracle White is taking my sanity and I think I am going crazy thinking about her. I love everything about her, her innocence, the way she laughs, and the manner she calls my name. I wish the occasion when I slept beside her, I still remember how she smells.
I prefer to get her to my arms and comfort her. She told me about her mother, but she didn't tell me the story behind her name. I do not understand that she was a miracle baby. She had a hard life even the first day she came into this world, and I hate myself for hurting her. I wish to be the one to provide her the confidence that everything will be okay. Mr. White reminded me I will only date her daughter when I am sure I won't hurt and leave her, and as of now, I am undergoing tremendous confusion in my entire existence. I can't take my eyes from her and when she smiled at me, my heart skips a beat and I realized I was falling hard for Miracle.
They get out of the dining area after dinner while Jaxson and I were remained seated on the dining chair.
"Well, it is now clear to me both of you are smitten by my lovely granddaughter, and I will only inform you this once if you will court Miracle please be man enough to love her until the end. She had a hard time growing up and I felt, it broke her heart when she fell in love at fifteen. She was young back then, but Miracle matured early, so I know she was in love with her first beau, yet he betrayed her. That boy was a two-timer. He was also the boyfriend of my other granddaughter, Amanda. They made her life miserable, and she has undergone therapy. I should not be telling you all this, it is Mira's story to confess." Amelia said, and she stands up and calls the housemaid to clean the table and wash the dishes.
I saw the face of Jaxson and I can say he is in pain thinking about the memories he had with Miracle and his guilt is eating him alive, and I know he is trying to win her back to fix what he had broken. I detest him for hurting Miracle, but I am glad he did all of it, or else Miracle will still be in love with him.
I stand up and get outside to the porch and I wanted to talk with Charles, but he always goes to our staff house and spends time with our comrades. I want to do the same too. Maybe I should ask him to swap places with me meanwhile. I want him to watch over Miracle while I am still having a tough time in my life. I should remain away from her from now on.
"Hey! Jace! We seldom see you here, bro." Chris said when I arrive in front of the house where the other bodyguards are staying and I saw them eating their supper. Mr. White is a very generous fellow that is why all of us wanted to stick around with our job. He provides us housekeepers laundry cleaner, and cook.
"Eat with us, Jace!" Charles called out.
"I have already eaten dinner, brother, Amelia was looking for you, Charles," I said.
"I will eat breakfast tomorrow at the manor, Jace." He replied, and I sat on the sofa in the living room waiting for them to finish their meal. They are talking about Miracle's kissing scene with Jax and it made me so angry, I almost forgot they also monitor Miracle's daily activities. I am glad I restrained myself from kissing her this morning or I else I will be the hot topic of their conversations. I still don't like the idea that they are discussing Miracle's love life, only Charles knows about me and Mira, and he keeps on glancing at me.
"I think engineer John and Miracle are perfect for each other." Chris said.
"Well, the engineer is good-looking and he has a decent profession and I have heard his family owned a farm close to here. If I am not only her bodyguard, I will court Ms. Mira, she is so beautiful and breathtaking." Miles added.
"Yeah! It seems Mira is not so choosy. I like her attitude for she is so down to earth, but I guess the way she kissed back the engineer you don't stand a chance, Miles." Mark commented and he laughed at Miles.
"Well, I doubt if Mr. White will allow Mira to be with someone who is not as wealthy as them." Chris answered.
"I don't think so, I assume he only wants her daughter to be happy, and he doesn't care about the financial status of her future husband since they are super-rich, they don't need more money." Mark replied, and I tire of listening to them talking about Mira. I stand up and said my goodbye to them, I am on my way to my car when I sense Charles is trailing behind me.
"Wait, Jace!" He called out, and I stopped walking and turn around and look at him.
"I know you wish to talk, Jace that is why you came here tonight, what do you need to talk about?" Charles urged.
"I want you to be with Miracle, I require staying at the staff house for the time being," I said.
"Why? Are you afraid that Ms. Mira will fall for the engineer?" He asked.
"Charles, I have a girlfriend and I don't care if she will spend all her precious time kissing Jax," I replied, but I can't hide my irritation anymore.
"Come on, Jace, I am not blind. You are in love with Miracle and you hurt her feelings, Jace when she saw you kissing with your girlfriend at the mall. I don't want to meddle with your personal life, Jace, but you are my friend, man. I can tell you are having a hard time right now. You are afraid to lose her, yet you don't wish to let go of your girlfriend. You better decide Jace or you will lose Mira for the rest of your life. I realize I should not tell you about this, but Miracle White is crazy about you. She is a pearl in the ocean, Jace and you should be honest with yourself about what you want." He spoke. I thought Charles can help me, but he only makes me more confused.
"I felt I hurt her, Charles, but I can't leave Caitlin." I answered, and I opened the car door, and I am shocked that Charles runs to the passenger's side, and he gets inside the car.
"Are you positive you wish to go back to the manor with me?" I asked him and he just nodded.
"I know you needed someone to talk to, and I think we can drink some beers and talk about it. You can share with me everything and I promise you, buddy, it will be between us." He replied.
"I am confident you will also tell Mira about it," I responded.
"No! I won't disclose it to her, Jace." He said and look at me. I start the car and drive in going back to the mansion.
"Jace Miracle is in love with you and she confessed everything to me." He mumbled.
"I know, and she told me about it, Charles and you know what I did? I outraged her this morning Charles, and I hurt her and I think she will never forgive me for what I did. To be honest Charles, I am in love with Miracle and the fact is I want her more than anything, but what should I do Charles? I can't break Caitlin's heart she has been my rock when I was so down, and she gave me hope and made me what I am today." I said.
"Wow! It seems you are having a tough time in your life, ask yourself who among the two you can't live without. I think you only stick with Caitlin because you felt indebted to her, but you are now in love with Miracle Jace. Be honest with Caitlin, and to yourself, then court Miracle and explained everything to her while it is not yet too late, there is a possibility Miracle will fall in love with John." Charles said and it hit me, I don't want Jax to have another chance with Miracle since I can't deny it, I am in love with Miracle and I wish her to be my girlfriend.