I was sitting quietly at our usual eating table. Everyone was busy with their own gossip. "Oh by the way Aiyanna we have a project coming soon so I want it to be perfect." Jasmine said eyeing her perfectly manicured nails.
"Excuse me. I think you said we have a project not I. So we're all gonna work together." Her eyes snapped to mine and I knew she was annoyed but she put a fake smile.
"Of course. You can write and create some music and than we'll perform together." She said in a cheery voice.
That meant that I was working alone. She has always done that she's the captain of the music band and she puts all the responsibility on us and at the time of presentation she forgets that we even exist.
"No I won't. There's a reason we are assigned group projects. To learn to work with people. If I have to do it alone than I'd rather tell the teacher to give me a solo project."
"You can't do that you work for us!" She screeched. "No I don't. And I'm leaving the band." I said biting the inside of my cheek.
I stood up with my tray and left the table. Everytime all of the band members work so hard but than what? We don't even get the credit. Not being in the band for a while was good for me because I got to work in peace. It seemed like a good idea to get some time off from people.
I went to the bleachers. It was my happy spot I started playing some music. IDGAF- By Dua Lipa started playing. I chuckled, matches perfectly with the situation.
Someone sat beside me and I looked up to see Jason. Great. I rolled my eyes and tried ignoring him. But what he said earlier came to my mind. 'You are not what you show in front of people.'
"It was an authentic day today. I mean my boyfriend totally didn't cheat on me-"
He was about to speak but I cut him off. "No wait I need to rant. Yeah so my boyfriend cheated on me with my Bestfriend and now I get so fricking anxious around people and I left my music band. And let me get back to my anxiety. Its increasing everyday every time I mess up even a little I have a break down. I even apologized to a spider. I apologized to a fricking spider!! because I accidentally knocked him down from the basin."
He burst out into laughter making me pout."Stop laughing at me." I pouted further more. His laughter died down and we sat in silence.
"You're right." I said staring ahead of me.
"What?" His knee brushed mine slightly.
I turned my head in his direction. "I'm not what I show in front of people. I just have to be perfect you know. Because everyone has lots of expectations from me I don't wanna ruin it."
I said as bit the inside of my cheek. "Why are you telling me that?" He questioned and raised his eyebrow.
"Because you won't go around telling people." I hated to admit it but it was true. He didn't tell anyone when I almost chopped his hair of when we were thirteen. So he won't tell this.
"Why do have to follow their expectations? What about your own?" He questioned taking a sip of whatever he was drinking.
"I don't want to be a disappointment." I muttered and he chuckled.
"What's so funny?" I scowled.
"I didn't know out of all people you would be so self-criticizing. But then I already knew how you felt." I frowned and he flicked my forehead.
"How?"
"That's a story for another time." He said and made a face at all the football players fooling around instead of practicing.
"How does it feel to be carefree?"
"You don't have to be carefree all the time. Just live in the moment that's enough." He took another sip.
"But how?" I questioned giving him my full attention.
"You wanna learn?" He questioned and gave me his signature smirk. It was actually hot.....
"We have breaks coming soon." He grinned like a child.
"And?"
"So...let's go on a road trip."
My eyes widen. Hell to the nah. "You're not joking are you?" I asked with a smile forming my face.
"Of course not. Sometimes its good to let it go and enjoy yourself that's when you realize what really makes you happy." He said getting up.
"But wait." I said holding his forearm.
"We need people." I thought of all the possible people to accompany us.
"Um no we do not."
"No Jason. I want this to be a hell of a trip. And there are people going through shit I think we can help them too."
The gears in my head started shifting. Now the search begins.
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