For a long time I was in love with this man I once knew he was my friend my rock my everything till ond day he became a stranger don't get me wrong I was still in love with him but now he was different mean cruel at times. No matter what I say or did it was always wrong I was always in the wrong. But yet my heart still loved him so very much. As days went by He grew colder meaner distance towards me i could feel our relationship was coming to an end he didn't love me anymore 5 years I gave myself to him and gave my all and he didn't love me anymore. I knew I should have gotten away as soon as possible but my heart just didn't want to believe that it was over.
Pg2.
I saw him pack all his things today as he packed we talked about alot of things it seemed like we were talking for hrs but it was only maybe thirty minutes. He was done packing up and putting everything in the car I cried as I kept asking him why he turned around came up to me and gave me one last kiss goodbye and said because I feel in love with someone else I'm sorry I didn't mean for this to happen but it did I tried to deny it I tried to fight it for as long as possibly could but eventually I gave in we been seeing each other for about three months now and I mean if you saw her you would understand why I well I'm just sorry good bye and good luck.
Pg3.
A couple of months went by and I had not heard or seen him and I was finally slowly getting my self back out there in the world not dating just going out with friends and family to parks movies things like that to get my mind off him. I started working out I wasn't a big girl to begin with I'm about 5'4 skinny and can never get myself past 130 so gym here I come. It's been a year now and still no word or sight of him or his new girlfriend and I was finally feeling good about myself 130 5'4 with a flat stomach and not to brag but a nice body time to go show off.
Pg4.
I'll never forget the first time I saw them together feb 25 on a Saturday night the day I choose to go out with friends to the club and have a good time I see them from across the dance floor he has not seen me yet I don't think he even know it was me if he walked past me. He looked so so I mean he looked happy but at the same time he looked mad like he didn't really want to be there and her she looked wow beautiful tight dress perfect body better than mine everything just flawless but her attitude towards everyone was horrible disgusting fowl to her very core I'm sure when they first met she was sweet and kind but of course that's just to bring them in. As I start walking up to say hi to him I slowly turn back around but as I build up the courage to turn around again to make myself go say hi or just anything I realize I'm just setting myself up for pain all over again so instead I just go to the restroom and call for a cab to go anywhere but home where we would spend days and nights sometimes just talking about anything and everything. As I walk out the restroom I walk past him, he is wearing that colon I loved so much I hear her say why did you put that stupid colon on I told you to get rid of it. I couldn't wait to get as far away from them as I possibly could. He didn't tell her anything about her comment just rolled his eyes.
Pg5.
Waiting for a cab is so boring I tell myself while I sit on the bench outside the club. As I sit here and wait I remember walking past him and smelling his colon and it brought back so many memories man do I miss that colon. Sarah is that you? I hear from behind me, as I turn around and see his face I freeze and have no clue what to say umm yeah it's me, I manage to get out. Wow you look gorgeous I mean I'm sorry but just wow I'm lost for word's. You mean for the very 1st time you have nothing to say not one ugly word to say to me well I'll be, lady's and gentlemen I've believe I've actually got him in a tongue tweaster here. Is what really wanted to come out my mouth but instead Thank you and you look nice as well I see you and your girlfriend are having fun. Yeah I guess is this your cab? Yeah I'm calling it a night it was nice seeing you again bye Daniel. Wait umm I'll give you a ride home if you like I mean you know how i hate being out late and well I'm ready to go home myself anyway what do you say can I give you a ride? As I stand at the door of the cab I think for a moment and realize it won't just be me and him it would be his girlfriend too, I look into his eye's and see his puppy dog look that always got to me but not this time around. No I'm good I'll take the cab plus I don't think your girlfriend who is now standing behind you with a very much ugly look wouldn't like that very much plus I moved to a new place (that was a lie) thank you anyway, good night and good bye once again.
Pg6.
Daniel who was that girl you were talking to and why did she say I wouldn't like that very much what wouldn't I like? Hello Daniel I'm talking to you. Ohh yeah umm She's an old friend and I offered her a ride home that's it now please don't start let's just go back to your place I'm ready to leave brook I'm tired and ready for bed. Well to bad I'm not the club does not close till two a.m and that's the time we are leaving understand. Yeah I understand that you want to stay so by all means stay but I'm going home call me when you get home. HELLO!! You brought me out you take me home when I say not when you want. Nope I'm tired and ready to go you don't want to then get a cab or tell your friends to give you a ride you have been ugly all night and it's annoying already brook plus I didn't even want to come out in the first place you know I hate coming out to the clubs. Daniel stop being a baby and be a Man for once we don't do much and I need to be taken out every now and again I need to show off and if you don't start pulling more money then this me and you will end. Brook I'm pulling doubles even triple the hours just to take you out and buy you nice things I'm tired all the time and ask for Saturday and Sunday off so I can rest but instead I'm taking you to go eat at nice expensive restaurants, taking you to the movies and out to the clubs plus I get you whatever you want what else do you want from me, I don't spend any money on myself come on now women. That's how it's supposed to be I get what I want all the time you can't handle it then go be with a bum or go back to your ex girlfriend who you said let herself go never wanted to dress up or asked for a thing from you. You know what brook at least she didn't care how much money I made and saw how tired I was at the end of the day and would have me a cold drink and food waiting for me when I got home and she always asked me how my day was, what do I get from you why haven't I called you or your hungry and want me to get off work already to take you out to eat it was cute in the beginning but now it's annoying and you have taken it overboard. You make close to two-thousand a week Daniel and still can't support me and my needs your weak and I have a feeling this is not going to work out anymore. How about this brook I take you home and you figure out what you want and I'll go home and do the same.
Chapter 2
Pg 7.
Thinking
So where am I taking you I hear the cab driver say, ohh sorry I was in a daze humm do you know of a park near by? Yes ma'ma is that where you would like to go? You know what no I'll just go home. I give the cab driver my address and just sat back and try to enjoy the ride home but I can't stop smiling and thinking about him our first kiss was at that club, our first I love you's, was in the parking lot. I wondered if he still had the same number and if I should call him. Ma'ma hello ma'ma your here at your place ma'ma did you hear me? Oh yeah sorry I didn't realize I was home already as I get out the cab I pay the driver and thank him the cab drivers off and inside I go still thinking about him (Daniel). Walking up to my door I see someone sitting on my porch I stop can I help you? So I thought you moved to a new place you lied. Daniel is that you? what the hell are you doing here? why are you here you should be with your girlfriend what did y'all have a fight or what?. And yeah I lied so what you cheated on me you hurt me and expect everything to just be ok between us why because we haven't seen or talked to each other in a year so yeah I lied so what!. Okay sorry stupid of me to to ask that and to your question yeah we kinda did she actually made me realize that you are so much better than her in every way possible and I was wrong for leaving you and hurting you the way I did.
Pg 8.
What are you kidding me, Are you for real you can't just come here and expect me to forget about what you did to me, forget what you said to me? Sarah I'm sorry I really am I know I hurt you terribly and no amount of sorrys will ever make it up to you but I'm willing to talk/work it out with you. If you are willing to take me back what do you say will you take me back? Look Daniel I still love you no doubt about that but what you did left me broken I had to heal myself up and work on myself and I'm still working on myself. Seeing you tonight with her just made me feel like shit plus she's so much better looking then me. Sarah she's not you she's everything I thought I wanted in a woman but I was wrong brook made me realize that you were the one who really cared about me. All the things I did with her I should have done with you, seeing you tonight had me rethink everything in my life from the time I was with you to the time I've spent with her I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry.
Pg 9.
Daniel I need to work on myself more I can't just let you walk back into my life like nothing ever happened. Don't get me wrong I can't help but think about the good times we had together but i can't let that just be the case of us getting back together plus your still with this Brook women I bet and your here at my doorsteps asking me to give you another chance I'm not going to be the other women I refuse. . . You wouldn't be the other women you would be my one and only lady in my life no women would come between us anymore I love you so so much "he starts to cry" I made a mistake and I'm going to show you the rest of my life how truly sorry I am. Daniel you and brook had a fight she's probably thinking about all of this and your here with me go home and really think about what you really want, your tears puppy dog face and words are not going to work on my anymore you have damaged my heart for the first and last time I'm sorry but now I have alot of thinking to do now and I don't know if I would be able to trust you again please Daniel go home. I'm not going to lie I'm to drunk to drive. Fine I'll call you a cab to take you home what's Brooks address? We don't live together I have my own place I didn't want to make that big of a step with her just yet. Really you had me move in with you a week into our relationship we lasted five years and now you are talking about you don't want to take that step with her are you kidding me. Sarah I'm drunk and sleepy can I please just crash on the sofa. Fine one night that's it don't come knocking at my door because it will be locked please move over so I can unlock the door. Thank you Sarah I appreciate you.
Pg 10.
You know where the living room is I'll be back in a minute. Where are you going? To get you a pillow and blanket unless you want to be cold all night. I didn't see n A.C in the window? That's because I got rid of the a.c's and put in a a.c/heater unit I've upgraded alot of stuff, I'll be back. Wow it's nice I like what you have done with the place new sofa, cilling fan's, washer dryer. You must be doing really good. Yeah I work at the gym and every other check I spend on upgrading the house income was a big help anyway here's your pillow and blanket the sofa is a pull out good night. Can we just stay up and talk for a bit before I crash out. No I'm going to bed I have to work in the morning good night.
Pg 11.
My alarm goes off at six a.m I get a little thirty minute run to get my day going six-thirty a.m breakfast time. Daniel what are you doing still here? Oh good morning Sarah I thought I could make you breakfast I made pancakes with potatoe and eggs and made you a protein shake I got the ingredients from this book you have here it taste really good. Thank you and good morning to you too but it's time for you to go home. Well I thought we good eat together you know as friends nothing more. I was up mostly all night. Let me stop you there Daniel we can sit and eat and I'll let you tell me what's on your mind but after that you really have to go. Okay Sarah that's all I'm asking here's your plate I'll make mine and we can sit down and talk. Well as I was saying, is that I was up mostly all night thinking what I wanted the pros and cons and I still want you back. Why?.
Well first I miss you I think about you all the time and always feel bad for what I did to you. Second I've recently realized that you may not be perfect but that's better then someone always trying to be perfect all the time. Third I lost the most realest person who stood by me through everything never left me high and dry no matter what. What do you mean? On what part? Well the second and third thing you said. Your perfect in your own way but you don't try to be little miss perfect in front of people. You are who you are and if they don't like it to bad. That's the Sarah I love, and you were there at all my doctors appointment, hospital visits sometime you wouldn't go and I get mad but thinking back you would be up taking care of me watching me making sure I was okay by morning you were going on a hour to two hours of sleep and I'm sorry about that. Oh crap I'm late for work please clean this up and let yourself out I have to go thank you for breakfast I'll keep in mind what you said.
Pg 12.
Ahh why does he have to do this to me now I just started picking myself back up. What's his plan? What's he up too? There has to be something up there has to be. Never again am I going with friends out in there cars I rather take mine leave when I want to and not have to wait on them or a cab. Work feels like a long drive away today I need to clear my head hopefully helping my clients work out helps me clear my mind. Wow no parking today what's going on here. Hey Adam, what's going on why are there a lot of people in today? Sarah I honestly have no clue I'm still trying to figure it out I'm lost for words. Excuse me every one not that I'm not greatfull for all the new comers is there a reason why? Yes Adam we heard you were doing a promotion bring a friend and we get half off our work out and they get one day free because they came with a already member and if they like it sign up today only will be five dollars is this not true? Well ys but we haven't put it out. Sarah did you put the promotion out already? No Adam, I have the paperwork at home I was fixing it up so I can put it out there I don't know. . . Wait I had a guest stay over last night maybe. Yes Sarah it was me I also sent it to a couple of my work friends I thought I could help. Hello boss man my name is Daniel I'm Sarah's ex boyfriend and now friend if I have over stepped I'm truly sorry. Umm thank you for that and yes you did we were not ready for this but now that it's out there we have to keep our promise. Daniel what were you thinking I told you, you could stay the night because your were in no condition to drive not to go through my stuff. I was just trying to help I'm sorry Sarah it won't happen again.
chapter 3
pg 13.
Okay just go I have a lot of work to do no thanks to you. Here is my number call me about 7:30 pm I should be out by then. And Daniel go talk to your girlfriend tell her what's on your mind. That's a good idea I'll go do that right now thanks Sarah and again I'm sorry I didn't mean to put out the promotion. It's cool next time talk to me before you snoop around in my stuff. Oh so there will be a next time?. Look Daniel you said you wanted to be friends if that's true then yeah why not but not till you talk to your girlfriend and if y'all stay together she had to be ok with us hanging out and I have to hear it from her. Ok ok I'll let you get to work and go see brook I'll talk to you later.
pg14.
Brook are you home? Yes Daniel I am why? Well I thought I could go over so we can talk about last night. I don't want to talk about last night I'm hungry come pick me up and take me to go eat. Brook we need to talk about it, its very important that we talk. Uhh whatever then we can talk while we go eat something I'm starving. I already ate but I'll take you and while you eat I'll talk sound good?. I guess Daniel as long as I get to eat and you better take me somewhere nice. Fine be there in 20 minutes I just need to get ready okay. Okay fine just hurry up bye. What have I got myself into what did I ever see in her she's beautiful on the outside but very ugly in the inside. Man I know she's going to make a scene at the restaurant why did I agree to take her out. I'm on my way now Brook. About time you think I have all day to be waiting for you. I'm here let's go! Daniel why are you so quiet today what's going on? I just have a lot on my mind and I want to talk to you about it. Well what is it? It can wait till we get to the restaurant.
pg15.
We are here. I have told you plenty of times I don't care for this place but you continue to bring me here. It's the only one you actually eat at without complaining about all the food's they have can we go in so you can eat. Whatever I don't complain about the other place's. You make it sound like I'm always complaining about something. Just sit down and order your food already please. Okay Daniel what's on your mind that was so important? Brook we been together for ( what feels like for ever) I thought to myself about 2 year's already and I've come to realize that. Oh my oh my dear are you going to do what I think your going to do? Wait what do you think I'm going to do? Don't be silly Daniel you are going to ask me to marry you and my answer is y. . . NO I'm not going to ask you to marry me I'm sorry but no no no no! okay I get it you don't have to keep saying no! then what is it, wait is this about the girl from last night the one who you said was just an old friend? Yes her name is Sarah and she is my ex-girlfriend and after dropping you off I went to go see her. Wait. . . you umm went to your ex girlfriend's house! why are you telling me this did y'all. Oh my goodness y'all had SEX!! No we didn't we talked for a while then I slept on her sofa and we talked more this morning about us and about me and her and she agreed to be friends but only if you were okay with it and she heard it from you herself.
pg16
I don't know about this Daniel she's your ex and I'm your girlfriend we don't look like we would get along very well. Can you at least meet her and talk to her you will see she's not a bad person she is the one who said go home and talk to your girlfriend she made me sleep on the sofa while she slept in her room come on Brook it won't hurt you to meet and talk to her would it? or do you think she will want me back and your scared your going to lose me? uhh whatever no I'm not scared I know you know you what you have is great. Fine set it up but if I don't like her or she gives me any reason to believe that she wants you back I'm going to say something to her. Brook you will see she's not like that and she already told me she's not going to want me back for the soul purpose of how I left her.
pg17.
Sarah? Yes who's this? It's me Daniel I talk to brook and she has agreed to meet with you. So when will you be free? Umm let me see. . . looks like I have this Wednesday off will that work for y'all? Yes I'll get everything ready and give you a call back when it's done. Okay I'm closing up so just call or text me the details. sounds good talk to you later friend. okay bye Daniel. Sarah is every thing okay? Yes Adam every thing is okay for now I just. . I'm tired today was a very long day. yeah no thanks to your ex boyfriend David! His name is Daniel, Adam you know that, what's with you? he got the place packed we can pay the rent for a while with all the people that signed up so why are you not happy about that? look Sarah I've met men like him and he's your ex boyfriend that's a double threat. How is he a double threat? First off again he's your ex and second oh all he is now your friend. Why do you want to be friends with someone who did you wrong the way he did? I don't know adam he seems to be very sorry but I only agreed that we could be friends if his girlfriend was ok with it seems fair dont you think. Sarah I just don't want to see you get hurt I mean I didn't know you when this happened but I've got to know you and when you 1st came here I saw how much pain you were in. You have become a good friend to me be careful that's all I ask. Okay okay it's going to be fine I don't want him back anyways.
pg18
Wednesday seemed to take forever to get here. The days seemed longer and the time was going by so slow I wasn't even able to concentrate at work