Hey what you doing Jazz? Nothing why what's up I got a hook up with one of my friends. Ooh okay we can talk about this later okay yeah bet.
So as I was walking I seen Lisa. Lisa Lisa yells Erica who calling me so she looks in see me. I ran over to Lisa hey boo how are you? I'm good in your self? I'm good just getting my self together ookay that's what's up.
So what you bout to do? Nothing but head out to the school real quick. Ooh okay I miss you I miss you too we must hook up later okay bet. So I left to head to school in I turned back around because I forgot something. So I went back cross the street where you going now I don't feel like going today I changed my mind.
Ookay so you want to hang out with me and bae sure I'm not doing nothing. So we got on the bus to head to her bae house we sat up in the house all day ate got high and sleep all day. That became a regular every day.
So one day I had to go to school but I change my mind again I left in went with my boyfriend Jordan he was like what you been up too nothing but getting fucked up. So me an him started kissing and then we started fucking as he was eating he said bae I love you I said it back but then I knew something wasn't right.
So why he fucking me my mind was in a whole different place. So when he nutted the condom busted I said ughhhhh why you did that. I'm sorry didn't mean to this is why I don't Fuck with men now. What you say Jordan said nothing I said nothing so I got made in left.
So as I was going home I was laying in the bed with my cousin cause I was living with my Auntie. So me and my little cousin was fighting and he jumped down in my stomach in I laugh. So later that night I went to sleep in felt a pain. Got up in went to the bathroom in heard something big drop in the toilet in look it looked like a baby so I said it might be a big clot so I flushed it I go back to lay down thinking I'm fine I had a very sharp pain hit me.
Ouch I yelled it hurts it hurts it hurts. So I told my cousin to turn on the light we look bed covered in blood. OMG my cousin got up in ran to her mama. My Auntie came in OMG call your mama so my mama called 911. So we get to the hospital lay back let me check. So I laid back in she stuck this camera up my stuff to look. She said you was pregnant girl. Mouth drop I can't be she said yeah you was almost 4 months but I didn't have no kind of illness.
So how is that possible she said you can go months maybe longer not knowing. So that really hurt me because my boy was gone down the toilet thinking it was a big clot. So I cried the whole time I finishes passing the rest of his body of me. I can say that really hurted me.
So they gave me meds to help with the pain and bleeding. So the next day I told my Auntie I'm fine to go to school so I left in went to school. So I seen my sis in law at school and some more of my friends at school. So as I started doing work I started feeling bad.
So I raised my hand can I go to the bathroom or some water something I feel dizzy. So as I went for the door my sis followed me all I know I seen black in fell. She grab me help help help yell Lisa somebody help my sister. So the officer I remember her like a movie her name was Ms white. Hey baby hey baby can you hear me can you hear me stay with me.
So she puts some cold water on my forehead baby keep your eyes open till the ems get here. So I went out again she kept yelling at the people around me move back I got her stay with me. So my sister crying like you'll figure out what's wrong with my sister.
So Ms white ask are you pregnant no was you pregnant I node my head yeah before going out I hear her saying she losing to much blood she needs blood. She miss carried in she bleed out somebody tell them to hurry the hell up she not stable. So she tired to keep me up until the fire department came in got her stable. Baby why did you come to school knowing you wasnt better.
I was feeling better he said you might thought you was but you wasn't finish getting the body parts out of you so you bleed out to much. So as I tired to keep my eyes open I seen the ems with the bed. So who am I taking this young lady hurry up she's losing to much blood so my sister told me to call her after I'm home.
So I made it to the hospital in got treated and had a blood fusion. So I made it home to get some rest. So the next day I had got a visit from Jazz Nicole and Lisa how are you feeling sis I'm okay just recovering. I just don't know how to tell my boyfriend I lost his biological child.
So I cried in my sister said don't cry it wasn't your fault God might not want you to have no more kids right now. So as I sat there thinking about what she said. She said you have a baby girl that love you and she needs you to be her mother.
So I did just that I got to see my baby girl but never in my mind I thought I would lose what I really wanted. So as I laid there holding baby girl I cried my heart out saying baby girl I'm here to protect you.
So after a month of not feeling my best I went back yo the school in withdraw out of the school in never finished high school. But I did meet a new friend name Ms white in I remember the words she told me keep your head up baby girl God will never steer you the wrong way if it's Kent to happen it will happen again.
But never thought it would cause me so much depression in my life I could never get over losing a child I carried for 3 months close to 4. It hurt so much to have to be alone I n this hurt but I can say I did meet a new friend who spoke wisdom upon my life.
So it lasted until I gave my life to the streets fully. I never expected me to fall this far down in life.