AZALEA-
I submitted my assignments to professor duke and quickly rushed outside. My mind was so occupied these days. I couldn't put my finger on the exact problem. but something was stuck in my mind. For sure, it could not what the officer called me.
'ruthless?'
while passing a group of guys in the corridor, a familiar face crossed my sight. I slowed my pace to look back but before that, I heard Ava call my name. I waved at her, pacing fast towards her.
We sat in the cafeteria. All of them were busy talking about the hot news of the college. Which was probably some girl who proposed to a guy and whatsoever. But my mind was fixed on the familiar face's introduction.
Ethan Carter!! I got it right at last. I took a sigh of relief which got me thinking. I took a sip of my cold coffee. I smiled at the excitement of these girls, discussing some other girl's life when they don't even know what they are doing with their lives. I spotted him again. He was talking to his friends, I noticed how formally he was dressed. Out of blue, he turned his head to my side and caught me staring plus waved at me. Unconsciously I waved back, smiling.
"Oh my god!! Who is he?" Luna caught that immediately.
"uh... someone I know " I replied, thinking what's with the wavering.
"Just someone?" Amelia asked with one eyebrow up.
"You know?" Ava teased me.
"Yes, I guess so" I rolled my eyes, getting a big round of giggles from the three of them. I quickly dragged them out of the cafeteria before they embarrass me more. I was walking completely unaware when Ava pulled my arm to her and stopped me. She whispered something in my ear but I couldn't figure it out. I was busy, sipping. Then she hit her elbow on my ribs.
"Oww what is-"
She pointed to the front.
Ethan was walking towards us. I think I have already fallen for his good looks…
"Hey!"
"Hi?" I answered back.
"we will see you in a bit Ayze!" Amelia winked at me.
huh?
There was an awkward silence for some time. He broke it though.
"want to sit somewhere and talk?"
"sure"
"you don't like it in here or something? I mean you are not in sight often" not sure if I said that correctly.
"glad to know you noticed" he smiled. I didn't know what to say to that. So he continued as we entered the cafeteria.
"I already passed that road of my life." Confusion was written all over my face so he got a signal to continue.
"Actually I have completed my bachelor's in criminal law, plus I did further courses in criminology too."
I could feel my jaw drop
"Woah! I thought you were a student here. Congratulations then" I smiled with a weird feeling of sadness. Meanwhile, we found a quiet place to sit.
"Do you want to have something?" he asked while adjusting in his seat.
"No, thank you. I just had it a while ago"
"Actually, I had to attend a marriage ceremony nearby so I stopped by."
"I see" I began playing with my fingers not sure what to say more.
"So…I will be going now?" I asked him more than telling him, nervously.
"Oh yeah sure… But can I ask you something?"
"sure"
"We can be friends right? If your boyfriend doesn't mind of course!"
Wha-!boyfriend?
"No…I don't even have one. I am actually not into these weird love diaries, you know!"
"Ooo…it means I could have a chance" he winked playfully. That got me smiling. We said goodbyes after that and then I rushed towards my friends.
Ah that was awkward….
I got glares from the three of them when I reached there.
"What??"
"And you say he is just a friend!" Ava said.
I facepalmed myself and rolled my eyes. Why were they still stuck on it? They kept on staring at me though.
"Guys! It's nothing like that. We just know each other by chance and he was here for his friends when he saw me. So he decided to say a hello to me. Which is a good thing. You know. Humanity!" I whispered yelled at them. They averted their gaze a bit and then started talking about random things again. It made me smile though. What was I going to do with them?...
MIA-
I stood there quiet for some time, staring at my helpless face. Was I always this helpless and weak? Do they pity on me? 'Do' Azalea pity me? Do 'he' pity me? Why do I feel so pathetic?
Because you are pathetic!
Yes. All of them pity me. They all left me helpless. Even 'him'. I had never wanted to leave 'My' family but if he had not forced me to. He left me so helpless. I still regret my decision but I am just too scared. Too scared to lose my only family. They are the only ones left. How could I not leave after I saw his madness? His anger still makes a chill run down my spine. Today was the day I decided to get rid of all this helplessness and pity. I won't be able to do it anymore. I will return to where I belong. To the most peaceful place. I stopped looking at myself and started walking with slow pace towards the window. I opened it and inhaled the fresh air. I see cars from far away.
That's it. I am going to leave this dungeon.
I stood straight on space the window had. I squeezed my eyes shut. A tear roll down my eyes.
Goodbye, everyone! Goodbye Ayze!