Chapter 3: Self-rule
Lianne's POV.
"Give me your strongest wine! Now!" I angrily commanded to the bartender in front of me.
He followed my order and gave me the drink immediately. Well, he's already used to me. I'm their daily costumer here and that's how I treat him everytime.
I unconsciously hold the drinking glass tightly when I remembered the annoying conversation I had with my brother earlier.
I thought he's on my side. I thought he understand me, but the truth is he really don't.
I nearly broke the glass I'm holding when I felt someone sat beside me. I rolled my eyes as I heard the familiar voice coming from her.
"I thought you already changed your life, Lianne." Zhei sarcastically said.
Zhei Mendes. The daughter of the owner of this bar. We're on the same age. I met her when I first started to party and drink. I always go here, almost everyday, if I want to be drunk. But I don't consider her as my friend. Actually, I consider no one. I don't wanna be attached to anybody. Because I know that in the end, they will all leave and I'm gonna be alone again.
So hard to trust these days...
I smirked. "You only think that,"
"You're always here, right? Like, every day. But you're not here yesterday and it's kinda strange. I thought that maybe you changed your life and started a new." she added that made me laughed so loud before I seriously glared at her.
"The word 'change' is not in my vocabulary, Zhei."
"Oh, come on! How long can you say that? Like duh, all people change. Anything in this world can change in just a blink of an eye."
"I know but I don't care. I will surely do what I've said." I assured her before I drink again.
I guess I drank a lot. I felt so dizzy. It's already 5 o'clock am in the morning. I have classes later on but I just decided not to go to school.
Even if I'm drunk, I was able to return home safely. The lights are off and the doors are locked. Good thing that I always kept my spare key in my wallet.
I slowly opened the front door. And when I entered the house, I directly went upstairs and took a quick shower before I lie down on my bed. I slept right away because of the impact of the alcohol and too much tiredness.
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It's a miracle that I woke up peacefully. Without noises, without disturbance. I took my phone above the table behind me. My forehead wrinkled when I noticed that it's already 3 o'clock in the afternoon. Ooh, I rested for too long.
I went downstairs and headed straight to the counter area. The maids are the only one I saw there. I didn't bother to ask them for Dad and my brother's whereabouts. I already know that they are both in the Company at this time.
I just ate alone then I took a bath. Our class hours for today is already over so I decided to roam around the village. I will just feel bored if I'm gonna stay here.
After I dressed up, I rapidly left that damn house and drove my car.
I don't know where am I now. I don't know where I went. I just knew that I'm riding my car towards the old and empty park near the exit of that village.
I stopped the engine of my car when I got there. I smiled genuinely while looking around the whole park. I realized that the place is just so peaceful. No one is here but me. I don't see anyone playing, vendors selling ice cream and balloons, loud voices of every mother chasing their children from running.
I reached out for my phone in my pocket when I heard it rang. The smile in my lips had faded suddenly. Someone's calling me and it's my brother. It is Lexus.
I answered his call but I didn't speak. I don't want to talk to him yet but I know for sure that he wants to say something important to me.
{Hello, Anika. Where are you?} he asked.
"Somewhere." I shortly said.
I won't tell him where I am right now. I guess I need this so badly. I need to unwind. I need a peace of mind. I need freedom and silence.
{Alright...} he sighed, {I won't force you to tell me where you are. But please, always take care of yourself, Anika.}
"No need to remind me. I know what I'm doing." I irritatedly uttered.
{I know. I'm sorry, sis. I know you're mad at me because of what happened yesterday but I want you to know that I do understand you. I really do. I'm just not good at showing it. And I'm so sorry if you think that I'm on our father's side. I'm just hoping that maybe you can forgive him. But of course it's up to you, you're free to make your own decision. If you still can't or you don't want to, then I won't force you. Because I know that in the two of us, you're the one who's hurting more. I'm always here to support you, okay? I'm always here by your side, don't ever forget that.} he apologized before he ended the call.
I looked up in the sky for a minute. I maybe dazzled because of the ray of the sun but I'm gonna admit that I felt a sudden bliss. I left the park when I regain my consciousness and went back to the house.
Luckily, Lexus is still not home. It's a good thing because I don't think that I can face him. I might say something wrong unintentionally if we talked while I'm still not ready and prepared.
I went directly inside my room and did my night routine. I was about to go to bed when I heard a growl from somebody. Obviously, she's a girl. One of Dad's bitches again. She's laughing and it's so damn irritating. I wanted to shout at them but I felt like my bed's dragging me to lie down. So even if I'm totally annoyed, I just ignored them and slept the whole night.
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The loud noise coming from the alarm of my phone woke me up. I quickly stood up and took a shower. I also didn't eat in that house because I know for sure that I'll see Dad and Lexus. I get inside my car and drove it towards the Academy.
It didn't took an hour before I finally arrived at the Academy. After I parked my car, I immediately went straight into my room. I looked around, maybe my eyes could find the pathetic bitch. But I was relieved that she's still not here. There will be no headache for awhile.
Tss. She has the courage to boast and to start the tension between the two of us. But when I talk and began to contradict her, she couldn't speak right away. She can't even say a word.
I know that she will be here later on. I can't imagine that I'll spend my whole school year with her inside the same classroom. Tsk, I can't. But I actually pity her though. She's just embarrassing herself in front of so many people.
I sighed and rolled my eyes before I stared at the clock hanging on the wall in front of me. Our professor isn't here yet. We still have 15 minutes before our first class to start. I took my earphone from my bag and gently put it in both side of my ears. I decided to listen to a soothing music since the weather today is just too perfect. I closed my eyes while feeling the pain of the song.
Even if you close your eyes
It will never change
Anger wrapped around your heart
You seem to smile more nowadays
You weren't like this before
Your heart has lost it's beating
Are the clouds in the sky and the moon not enough? You're not coming back to the shade of the rain
In every moment, I'm ready to be hurt
Even if you don't know
To try again and forgive
To our past
Even if you don't know
Close your eyes
And forget the past
Hoping you'll never be gone
It's just so hard to smile nowadays
I loved you since then
Bring back the beating of your heart
Are the clouds in the sky and the moon not enough?
You're not coming back to the shade of the rain
In every moment, I'm ready to be hurt
Even if you don't know
To try again and forgive
To our past
Even if you don't know
Even if you don't know
Even if you don't...
"Oh, how unlucky I am today."
I opened my eyes and became pissed immediately when I heard a familiar annoying voice speaking.
"I just entered the room by now but I think I want to go home already. I saw something that my eyes don't want to see." she declared loudly, I smirked.
Go on, just start a war and I might drag you outside with the use of your damn long hair.
"If you want to go home, then go! Who's stopping you from leaving? No one, right? No one. And you have problems of seeing the things your eyes don't want to see? That's too simple. I have solution for that. Just close your fucking eyes and never try to open it again." I playfully said that made her silent for a moment. "You know, if you really want to fight with me, then tell it to me directly. I'm not afraid of you. And I'm also kinda tired hearing your loud gossip talks every time. It's making me sick---"
"How dare you!" she exclaimed.
I know that she's already killing me brutally inside her empty head because of madness. All of our classmates went near us to gossip.
"Trix, stop it. Don't make a scene." someone came and whispered at her.
I guess she was left with no choice because she just angrily glared at me before she walked out and smashed the door so hard that made everyone in that room stopped. Her dumb friends immediately followed her. I brushed my hair in too much irritation.
How dare her bothered my relaxation if she'll just back out! We're not yet done!
I took a deep breath and calmed myself.
Don't ever try to start a fight with me, Trixie. Don't push me too hard on my limits. I'm not just an ordinary girl who knows how to defend herself. I don't trust anyone. I don't have mercy. I never lose. I never give. I won't let anybody to hurt and degrade me. Because that's what I promised to myself, and that's what I'll fulfill. I will not break my own rules...