Chapter 40 - Memories: Heir

I have no idea of what I did. He patted my head. I was so baffled to see everyone smile, 'We didn't tell you to come here to say thank you or apologize. Human or not, our family is a neutral one to any. Sora has done it because she loved you like her child. You are a part of her. So you are a part of us. A family.' 

The word made my heart heavy. But I was really grateful. The main thing came later that I officially needed to be under a family name because I was awakened. 

Even though I'm a mix, I'm sure I'm not like them.  So why would they want me?

'Once your awakening completes, many families will want you.' Sayo said with a serious expression. 

'You have Ruan's blood running through veins. You may yield similar power like them. Even if you don't, your blood alone...is enough to create a war between Pureblood.' Lisa explained it clearly. 

I didn't know what to do to become officially registered here. 

'Xen belongs to Sora. So that will be yours from now on. You will be the rightful Master of the Xen clan.' I was so shocked to hear the conclusion from Lisa. 

And as for inheritance, as I am Sora's, and she is the firstborn, but because she is only Ruan Sayo's child, she is the heir of Ruan. Joshua, Reiji is from Lin and Ruan. So the heir of Lin is Joshua while Reiji is Ruan's. 

'As you are Sora's child, you can get into any family of your choice.' I was confused about the inheritance law. And Half-blood inheritance works differently. Even if I don't choose, I will naturally fall under Ruan as I am Sora's heir

'Sora is only mine.' Sayo comments. 

I told you to stop saying that. Sora is mine, more than she is to you. She loves me more than you.' Lin Ryuji was seriously irritated. 

'He is right. Why are you still holding onto that Ruan Sayo!' Lin Ryo too sounded displeased so Ruan Sayo apologized, 'I'm sorry! I was just saying all the options so that he can choose.' 

'Does this mean.. Senpai is now my cousin?' Mei frowned

Sayo nodded, 'Yes..by blood.'

'So? Who will you choose?' Reiji turned to me. 

'I will choose Lin Joshua.' Joshua seems to be more gentle than Reiji. 

Everyone was surprised at my decision and Reiji scoffed, 'See I told you to continue his inheritance under Joshua's name.'

How was it possible when I just decided now, ''How do you know?'

'You have always liked him more than me.' Reiji was upset.

'Uhu! Someone is jealous.' Mei teased Reiji. 

It became embarrassing.

'Oy! He is your lover, what more do you want?' Joshua poked Reiji.

Mei was happy with me being a part of the family as he welcomed me. But I don't think I will ever be able to get used to it. I have my family where I was born. That's the only family I have known as mine. But this family loves me too. I can't deny that. While thinking that, my eyes met with Ruan Sayo. She must be reading me.

'It's ok, you will live where you were. It's just to let you know that you belong here. It's your home too.' She smiled cordially, 'I hope all of these didn't burden you. You go and take a rest if you want.'

I wanted to rest as all of these were really suffocating. I got up and Mei held my hand, 'Let's go to my room, Senpai. I have…' 

'He is gonna rest, don't disturb him. Come on Aki.' Rei tried to take me away from there.

Mei wanted to punch Reiji, 'This guy!'

But one thing I had to ask, 'Are you all really ok with me being Reiji's partner?'

Mei stopped hearing that. I looked at everyone and could tell nothing from their faces.

'He loves you. Should there be any objection if you love him too?' Lin Ryo asked while frowning.

'No, I just...thought..he is a leader after all.' 

'It's ok. Everyone loves Reiji. Even if there is any objection from others still they won't oppose Rei. They would respect his feelings first.' Lisa assured me.

Reiji told me to stop worrying about useless things. He held my hand and teleported me to his room without saying anything. It triggers my tinnitus sound.

'Shit!'

'Ah! Sorry! I forgot.' Reiji apologies.

At least he should warn me before doing this.

I just wanted to take you before you have any stupid thoughts.' Reiji tried to explain.

'Uh! My head. Why won't it stop!' The sound went for too long. My head was throbbing. I lay down on the bed.

Reiji asked me while leaning on top of me, 'Hey! Is it still hurting? But teleportation may only make you nauseous. It doesn't have any other effects.'

'Then why am I hearing this 4 kHz triangle sound!' I felt anger rising.

Rei holds my head by covering the ears. His  face was in front of me, 'Close your eyes.'

His face was diverting my pain, 'What are you doing?'

'Helping you focus. Focus just on anything.'

How can I focus when his face is in front of me? He heard my thoughts again. He smiles, 'Then just focus on me.'

His eyes really mesmerize me. His eyes are very expressive. The sound started to fade.

The sound really went away, 'I'm ok now..let go…'

He was looking at my lips. I know that. But couldn't understand what was holding him back. Just because I stopped him once couldn't be the reason when I kissed him many times. He lay down next to me holding me.

'Did you know everything about me?' I tried to change the air.

'No, but I knew why she was banished. Didn't know that she shared her blood with you nor who that kid was.'

The reason Rei didn't know was that the family thought he would kill that kid if he knew who he was. 

'Which I may have done.' He looked at me while saying that.

'Then why did you protect me?' I asked.

'I didn't know you were that kid. Just this that you were the descendant from the family that saved my mother and sister and my mother asked me to protect you no matter what. But that was a trick too. She ensured your safety from me. She knew if I saw you, I'll realize you are hers and won't be able to harm you anymore.' His voice sounded soft.

'Why didn't you search for that kid ?' I asked while looking into his eyes, I knew he would look away and he did while he answered, 'I was coping up with many things. I was also busy with my clan and with studies so I didn't have much time.'

It was as if he was trying to forget something, 'Were you trying to forget something?'

Rei frowned to hear me asking, 'Why you ask that?'

'No reason.' I didn't want him to read me so I answered vaguely.

'Maybe...I was messed up with many things...I..'

I fell asleep there. Couldn't continue to listen to him.

I slept during lunchtime. Nobody woke me up. I got out of the room when I woke up by myself. 

Noone was there.

I was hungry so I got down. I went to eat but there was nothing but some apples in the middle of the dining table. I took one and went to the kitchen. The maids there were surprised to see me. I myself was surprised too. How did I know the kitchen was here? I didn't come here. 

'Master Ruan Xen! How may I help you?' What an awkward situation I had created there.

Everyone was looking at me. The only one I knew was Sara but she wasn't there.

'Sara…'

'Oh! Sara will be here soon.' one of them told me.

'No! It's ok! I was just looking for Reiji...' I wasn't though.

'Master Ruan is in the library. On the side-castle. Let me escort you there.'

I nodded.

The library was not in this portion of the castle. The girl took me through the garden that I had strolled before with Lisa. For a bookworm, even a small bookstore feels like heaven, but how could I have described this heaven?

It had a staircase to heaven with books on both sides.

'This is awesome.' I mumbled what she could hear, 'Master Ruan Xen likes to read too?'

'Ah! Yes!' I didn't notice how she addressed me there.

'You took after Seigneur Xen then, Lord Xen Ruan didn't like to read. She was good in combat.' She was possibly talking about Sora.

'How was she...as a Lord?' I was curious what the subordinates thought about Sora.

To them, Sora was very awesome and kind. They thought I was like her when I entered the kitchen as Sora had a habit of always coming unannounced to the kitchen whenever she was hungry.

'Oh! You didn't do lunch...I'm sorry...I'll prepare your lunch…' She disappeared before I could stop her.

I looked up at heaven from its door where I was standing. I went up. Each floor had a balcony. I was looking aimlessly. The floor had a collection of the Lin family. The approximate ruling year was for 3218 years. The past record was destroyed in the last war which occurred 5000 years ago. I searched for Sora. I really wanted to know about her. The librarian was surprised to see me as I was searching. He observed me. I did too. A boy, probably the same age as Mei.

'Who are you?' He asked me with a frown.

'I'm..a guest... Azusa Aki.' I tried to sound polite as they seem to be young but you can never guess their age. 

'I see. What are you looking for?' He asked while walking towards me.

'A record of Lord Xen Ruan Sora.' I asked.

'Her records? What will you do with that?' He was surprised.

'Nothing! Just wanted to know her.' I was confused.

'Her private records can only be opened by her. You can only know from what's open to the public.' he said while leading me somewhere.

'You can also know it from Master Ruan, he knows her better than anyone.' he suggested that I ask Rei, which I didn't want.

'They were bonded and Master Ruan has always been in love with her.' the sentence broke my peace, 'What?'

'Ya! They were lovers. Master Ruan even set up the clan for her because she was banished.' he said.

'They...are siblings…' How is that even possible?

'But the Lord is bonded to the Master and among Purebloods siblings can marry if necessary.' My head started to hurt so did my heart as I kept hearing him.

I was sure he loved someone very dearly. To think it was Sora whom he had promised to set a clan for...I never thought he had loved someone this much.

'He still loves her. There were so many proposals sent for Master Ruan from everywhere but he refused all of them. He never even looked at anyone other than Lord Sora. You can look at the history of the Clan Wars. The two of them have equally dissolved many clans together. If not for the kid whom Lord saved they would have a peaceful life.' He said while walking ahead of me.

I was the reason he couldn't marry her. That's why he could have killed someone who is the reason for her banishment.

'Recently, there has been a rumor that Lord Sora's child has awakened and he has eyes…' He stopped and looked at me. He couldn't say anything after looking at my eyes. He started to tremble, 'Oh God! You are...you are her...I'm so sorry Master Xen! I didn't know you were here! Please forgive me! Please!'

I was conflicted with many things that his apologies did not reach my heart. The girl arrived and saw the librarian kneeling in front of me.

'Master! Sir Yu! What happened! What did you do, sir?' She was worried.

'Nothing!' I didn't want to stay there but he pleaded, 'No! No! I made a mistake! Please…'

'It's ok!  Where did you say Rei was?' I asked them.

'He reads outside...in the balcony on the fifth floor.' she answered while she was trembling as well. I guess I scared her. While I was going she asked, 'Master, your lunch...'

She was kind enough to worry about me even when she feared me, 'I'm not hungry anymore.' I stepped on the staircase and breathed.

For a while, I was unable to think. I could only hear that the girl was scolding the librarian, 'What did you do sir?'

'I unconsciously talked about Lord Sora and Master Ruan. I didn't know he was her son.' He said.

'You fool! Why talk about something that you are not sure of! How much do you know about them?' She was right. 

How much did I ever know about Reiji? or them? Nothing.