literally cannot stop crying.
Melissa saw me kiss Jessica.
"Lia are you gay" she asks, softly
"uh-uhm.. Yes.."
"why didn't you tell me? I'd never judge you, I'm your sister, I understand why you'd be hesitant to tell mom and baba but I'm here and I love you"
I am honestly surprised. She handled my coming out better than I handled my coming out.
I'm basically sobbing at this point.
"to be honest, I think dad would be okay with, we both know that mom's the problem"
We both start laughing through our tears.
Dad walks in.
"hey guys, is everything okay? Why are you crying?"
Mel answers "it's nothing dad, we just watched a sad movie, that's all"
"I'm going to the grocery store, can I get my girls anything"
"oreos and hot cheetos would be great" says Mel.
As soon as dad is out, Melissa turns to me and says
"so.. Is Adrian's sister, Jessica.. Like.. Your girlfriend?"
"no, uh, I don't know, she's the first girl I've kissed and the first girl who actually knows the real me but we haven't really spoke about what we are yet"
"I think you should talk to her"
"and say what?sorry that I'm such a mess and ran away on our first date"
"that's a start" she laughs.
There's a knock on the door.
Melissa get up "I'll get it".
In walks Jessica, with two coffees.
"hey"
"hi"
"wanna talk? We could sit in my car?
" or we could sit in my room, I-I mean it's kinda freezing outside and not that your car heater isn't warm but since you're inside already "
She smiles," sure "
" cute room, very cozy"
"thanks, I'm so sorry for running out on you"
"please don't apologize, it's not your fault, I mean I understand why you ran" she laughs nervously.
"your sister, who doesn't know that you're even into girls, saw us kissing and you freaked out so I'd say that the fact that you ran, is justified"
"you're very understanding"
She smiles. "you're the exception"
"I came out to Melissa, I kinda had no choice as she already saw everything and she handled it like a pro, she was very supportive, I feel relieved knowing that a member of my family knows the real me "
Jessica hugs me and for some reason I start crying, as in uncontrollable crying.
" Sssh, hey it's okay, it's going to be okay, I know that I don't know you that well but the things about you that I do know, I like, I really like and I know you're freaking out about telling your parents and about how they'll react but no matter what I am here for you, so is your sister and your friends "
" I'm so sorry for being such a mess, believe me, I'm a very put together person, I've worked hard by entire life and I've always done everything to make my family proud and I feel as if this will disappoint them "
" believe me, I understand. I felt the exact same way and I know our parents aren't the same but just talk to them when you're ready and let me just say there will never be a right time, don't wait for it, tell them when you're absolutely ready for that conversation ".
"thank you for being here and for making sure that I'm okay and also thank you for the coffee"
She grabs my face gently and kisses me. Whenever she kisses me I forgot to breathe.
"you're welcome and about the coffee, it's not a secret that you're an addict"
"I'm sorry to do this but I am working tonight and I have to go but I can pick you up tomorrow morning for breakfast and we could drive to campus together.. If you want?"
"That would be great, you are the sweetest"
I walk her out.
Mom's home.
"hello, and who is this"
"mom this is Jessica Reid, Adrian's sister"
Mom hugs Jessica. This leaves me speechless as mom isn't much of a hugger.
"it's so good to meet you, your brother is wonderful, I'm Emily Park"
"it's nice to meet you do Mrs Park"
As we're walking to her car mom says
"Jessica, we're having a family dinner on Sunday maybe you'd like to join? Adrian can come too"
"thank you, that would be awesome"
Jess and I exchange confusing glances. Mom goes back inside.
Jessica hugs me and her hands touch my hips , it tingles. I blush.
I go back inside to help mom with dinner.
"I'm so happy to see that you've made a new friend"
Kill me now.