[Ara gets into a complicated conversation with the two sisters; Anne and Bella]
"Oh please, we visit Da Lusi for lunch not for interview. So, let me order first, then you can continue the interview," Bella said, then waved her hand to order.
I tried to change the topic, but Anne was too eager to get the slightest information about Ryan. She kept pressuring me to tell her about what Ryan liked and everything about him.
Sharing information about the man you love with other women who also love him, I don't know how to describe those feelings.
I didn't want to share a single word actually, and secretly hoped that Anne would get away from Ryan, but her soft beautiful eyes stopped me from hurting her.
"Ryan likes a woman who wear hijab, has kind-hearted and good cooking skill", I answered carelessly.
He has indeed mentioned that his ideal woman is the one who covers her aurat perfectly. He also told me that he would be very grateful if he can marry a woman who could prepare delicious breakfast, lunch and dinner for him.
"Beauty is a bonus", I continued exactly as Ryan said at that time.
Suddenly, I remembered the long chat without a topic with Ryan a few days after I arrived in Malaysia.
"So, she doesn't have to be pretty?" I asked at that time.
"No, she is beautiful", he replied.
From then on, I knew that Ryan had someone on his mind. After meeting Anne, I thought she was the one.
Sometimes, I thought that Bella also had the equal possibility to be loved by Ryan. The suspicion started since only those two who were around Ryan, and both of them are beautiful. But he always remained silent when I brought up this topic.
"So, I have to wear hijab and learn to cook ?", Anne said half asked.
I didn't expect Anne to be that serious, I didn't expect she felt so deep for Ryan.
Immediately, I felt something strange, I couldn't hate her at all.
She is a person who is honest with her feelings, expresses them without fear and doesn't put too much care about her self-pride.
Meanwhile, I chose to hide and disguise the "ego" as "self-pride".
"I can learn to be a better version of me for the sake of Dr. Stayed Ryan", she continued.
"I know, everyone knows", Bella said before smiling at me.
I only put a slight smile in respond. At that time, it shouldn't be mentioned, I was afraid of being lost someone whom I wanted to keep by my side. I was afraid that I should give up as soon as I have begun.
"I know Dr. Ryan only consider Anne as a patient, maybe he loves another woman", Bella said shortly after Anne went to the lavatory.
Bella's statement was striking. I was stunned for a moment, maybe it wasn't Anne, but herself.
She may not be aware of that fact. Even though, she is very sensitive to the surrounding environment; but humans often pass themselves up as exceptions.
"It's not easy to hold a one-sided love. We'd put too much effort to understand someone even when he never cared. That's why, I don't want Anne felt that kind of feeling," she continued seriously.
I was confused by her statement. Is it possible that she likes Ryan or is there someone who never reciprocates her feelings ?
I didn't know what I should do, it was difficult to respond matters related to the heart and one-sided love; it's a sensitive topic and could offend someone.
Besides, I couldn't even deal with that problem for years. Thankfully, Anne came back together so Bella immediately changed the subject.
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