"Nathaniel, I want to be with you. I chose you, but I can't give my life up because of the baby. You were right when you said I would choose the baby over you. I will in the sense that I'm not going to let you turn me while I'm pregnant. I've thought about this and I don't want to miss out on my baby's life. I just don't think I can become a creature of the night and not be able to see all the things my child will do during the day. I'm willing to do this later on when my child is older but then I will be older too and I don't know if I want to look like that while you stay looking so young."