Today was a great day for me and for my peers. I would be getting out of prison today from the first time i went in, 9 months ago. It wasn't fun i can tell you that but it was an adventure, it was still not enough for me though. All of my life i needed excitement and i found that threw crimes and or illegal actions. That's exactly why i went to prison in the first place. You see before i went into that confinement dump i was having fun, day and night. That is until people tried to stop me, the police. I had always hated them, i was only trying to be free anyway and who are they to stop me. Maybe because stealing a car and driving it off a cliff wasn't the best thing to do. Or robbing and candy stop with little children inside then running away from the cops, you steal candy from babies this is what you get.
I wouldn't say i'm too young to do all these things that i find amusing and enjoyable. I would agree that i'm not very old too. I'm right in between. And maybe when i was sixteen stealing candy from babies wasn't enough, i had to do more to those babies. It's hard to slaughter a fully grown adult, so since i have that thought in my mind. Find someone that's easy and no one will notice or care is missing. A little four year old child wondered upon me one day asking if i have seen his mommy. I had this wonderful idea so i said yes and that would take him to her, i grabbed him by the hand and next morning no one knew where he went. I didn't expect everyone to go out looking, because it was a child so who cares right.
That experience was entertaining to me and i knew i couldn't risk bloodying a new human being. So i moved onto animals, it wasn't as fun i found out. I had to stop, then i would try new things so i did. Stole a car, robbed multiple stores, bought some guns, shot some cats and some other things, joined a group, sold some stuff, and probably a lot more that i can't think of right now.
So now that were done talking about all of that stuff, moving onto me getting out a prison and going back to my uncles house that i stayed in before all this. He basically taught me everything, he's not a great guy in fact he's probably the worst guy but could i complain. He was a junky and most times if not some, i hated him. Even thought i knew i was just like him i despised his guts, and maybe i would rip them out of him one day soon. I had no one else, my parents died when i was young and documents proved my uncle was the only other family member registered to take care of me. He did, well not really i kinda took care of myself while he sat and smoked all day.
It was late at night one evening and i went for a walk, probably not a good idea considering we live in a terrible neighborhood. This was a good chance to get away though, from all the toxins and living problems that house had. I took one of my trusty knives with me tonight, i wasn't stupid but i wished i had taken one of my guns. I walked for a good amount of time before i heard something ahead. It sounded like gun shots then some running, two people i though it was. I went up ahead further to figure out what it was, but i stayed low. What i saw not only surprised me but it made my blood boil, in a good way. It was three dead bodies and they were still twitching from the veins and nerves in their body reacting to the shots. Whoever was here shot these guys and left them for the police to find. I said "fuck it" and moved the bodies in a near by dumpster then took one that was still moving with me. If i was gonna be the person i am then i have to protect others like me.
I followed the men that ran off after disposing of two of the bodies and hiding the other quickly. They ran around the corner and ran across the street to the back of a building. I got the address and kept it in mind. Maybe i wouldn't have to protect them if they weren't alive, they seem like they got that covered.
The guy i took with me didn't matter now, i left him and went back home and thought out a plan. I would follow them everyday until i got enough information about them, then i would become friends with them, some casual manipulation should do. After those steps they would trust me and wouldn't see it coming, then i would have more experience. I just got out of prison i shouldn't be doing this but who cares right. This might be my last awakening before i die, if this is how i go out i'll be satisfied.
Everyday for months i watched them, only to figure out that my plan may not work as well as i thought it would. There were three men rather than the single two i saw many nights before. They went to work everyday and i followed then there too. I knew they wouldn't have a normal job considering the fact that they killed three men without hesitation, or so it seemed. I made a new plan, one where i would keep following them but at the same time i would be working with them. I knew this company, i worked here before when i was in the same industry. It would be easy to get back in, when i left i was good and they respected me so i had an advantage. I went back to my old company and friends they accepted right away, they very much appreciated my skills. I was in a higher part of the company with the bosses so it would be easy to keep track of these people.
We would talk sometimes and i found out more about them, if i was gonna be friends with them i had to be nice. So that's how i was, it pained me but this was for the greater good. They loved and accepted me as a friend. At the time it was only two of them, i guessed they were the ones that killed those men. One day they came in with a new man that i knew as their other roommate as they put it. He didn't do so well the first day and they all got fired immediately. It was sad to see them go but i would be sad for long. I quite with the permission of my boss so we wouldn't be on bad terms. I went to their house and they had papers of plans everywhere. I asked what they were doing and they said they were making their own thing, that it would be better than anything else. It was a decision and i chose to stay with them. We worked together and there were more to come.
We met two other men by the names of Yunho and Mingi that were on the side of the road living in a car with a dufflebag full of money. It was interesting to get to know them at first, they were weird but they fit the part perfectly. They had their roles and we had ours. Along the way we met two others, Seonghwa and Hongjoong, who were desperate for some leader ship and a caring loving job that respected them. They were perfect as well and this is how we all completed ATEEZ.