I wasn't always like this I was once happy, ignorant if you say to my situation. I didn't have to worry about watching what I would do because, she would do it for me. She would dress me, chit-chat, and sometimes bake.
Bake me these wonderful pies:Apple, Blueberry, Raspberry, and even Boysenberry pies. Which were tangy but delicious in its own way. I miss her and I know I say it everyday but each time I say it, it makes me feel even more miserable then I already am.
I know Charles is helping me but sometimes I can't help but feel helpless and privileged at the same time. Especially knowing that I can and can't do something about Rene. I mean honestly I don't even know where she is right now and it's not like I have a phone to message her.
Phone..That reminds me, the first time I really experienced a phone, it was also with Rene and it was a bit of a while back. I was at the age of 10 and Rene's dress pocket kept dinging. I wasn't sure exactly sure what it was in her pocket, that was dinging until Rene pulled it out and showed me.
"Oh this? It's a phone Honey Dumpling. You want to see something cool?" I nodded eagerly native to the knowledge that this "phone" contained but I was excited. It was my first time seeing this magical object and she showed me so much, things like: How to call, How to Answer, How to hang up a call, What an app was, and even showed me a game with a Flying Duck in it. Weird but intriguing game actually.
Who would have known that getting a duck through metal pipes would be so addicting for kids?
I sighed trying to focus on the present and Charles did a good job of helping on that. While getting my makeup re-done he did amazing job of encouraging me and he even told me me if I needed anything that I could ask him anytime. He was so supportive and sometimes I think I didn't deserve it but we all need someone to talk to. I remember Charles telling me something like that. So if I wanted to talk to Charles about something then I could because it's okay and I'm not weak if I have to ask for help.
I smiled with my newfound motivation and Charles smiled back at me seeing me smile. "I'm glad I could make you feel a little better and oh it seems like he's done with your make-up ready to go back inside?"
I blinked in surprise of how quick it went but I wasn't sadden, in fact I felt well actually and I nodded to Charles' question, "Yeah, let's go, I'm ready." He snapped his fingers with a wink and we opened the door of the balcony, which ended up gaining way more attention then I expected, too much attention even.