Adanna
No calls, no texts not from Mum not from him and do you know what the sad part of the whole thing is?
I was hoping he would call or text maybe to tell me that it wasn't what I thought,or maybe she was a friend or something else that it's not as bad as it seems.
Pathetic I know
"Morning" I turned to face Miss Susan what was she still doing here?
She looked as bad as I felt, bags under her eyes, her hair a ruffled mess.
She had definitely been crying.Her gaze was fixed on something behind me with her coffee mug in hand.
Uncle Mason was at the top of the stairs staring down at her with... affection? Just like the way I would stare at the last jar of nutella in a grocery store.
It was an odd sight to behold, the stone cold doctor had a soft spot for Miss Susan were they once lovers? Or are they still lovers? Maybe just really good friends.
She looked to be on the brink of tears averting her eyes from him she made her way into the kitchen.
He made his way back into his room. I guess I wasn't the only one in a sombre mood.
It was probably best if I just skipped breakfast she was in the kitchen and I wasn't in the mood for small talk.
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I had your typical school day other than the constant, emotional breakdown episodes I was just great. I still couldn't wrap my head around all that happened yesterday so I opted for the best way to kill time.
By neglecting my thoughts and feelings for as long as I can.
I convinced Mary to help me bake a chocolate cake but unfortunately she's "counting calories".
Puppy dog eyes always work on her if you do it right so I managed to convince her.
I measured out the ingredients, displaying them on the counter all we needed to do now was find the mixer.
Apparently no one in this house bakes or digests bake goods so it was definitely challenging.We had to go grocery shopping with uncle Mason's permission of course to stock up on ingredients.
Not that he cares about anything I say or do, after Miss Susan left he's been a lot more closed off than usual which is saying a lot of things.
"Found it!" She yelled lifting the mixer up in the air her voice overshadowing the pinging of my phone.
Hey
~IK
Just one text dampened my entire mood. Hey? I'm trying my best to forget him and everything that has to do with him including the fact that I'm staying in his father's house.
And just one stupid text renders all my attempts futile.Nope I'm not gonna let him ruin my day. Sliding my phone back into my left pocket.I started mixing the batter with Mary's help of course.
Grabbing the eggs from the fridge I whisked them all together while Mary mixed the sugar and butter in a different bowl.
"Aren't you going to get that?" She asked gesturing toward my phone that's been ringing for that past five minutes.
"No" I said grabbing it and switching it off.
All I did was ignore one text.I can't handle hearing the sound of his voice or conversing with him in any way.
I needed to get over my feelings for him and to do that I needed to stay away from everything that had to do with him.
Everything that reminded me of him, it was probably all for the best. It's really what was best for everyone.
This wasn't a mutual attraction I had to start seeing things the way they truly are.
This wasn't a fairy tale where we fall in love in the end and live happily ever after this was real life.
And the closest I could ever get to true love without getting hurt or hurting someone else was Chris so maybe just maybe I had to accept him sooner than later.
The truth hurts but I guess that's just the way it is.
It does hurt, it really does.
"Adanna?" She called out waving her hand in front of my face.
"The eggs" she said gesturing towards the bowl in my hand.
He saw me as the little sister he never had. The thought alone caused the ache in my chest to double.
I wanted him, I really did but I can't have him because he didn't want me in the same way.
Placing the cake in the oven I engaged in small talk with Mary
"So how long have you been working for Uncle Mason?" I asked genuinely curious.
"For about a year now"
"Oh that's nice" she smiled at me
"Way better now that she's gone" she scowled putting air quotes on she.
By she I presume that she's talking about Aunt Myra.
"She?"
"Yes, she wasn't always a breath of fresh air, so demanding and rude cares for no one but herself, Mr Mason is definitely lucky to be free from her tyranny, word on the street is, he found out about her affair" she whispered sipping her soda.
He knew about the affair?
"You know what's sad?" I shook my head gesturing for her to continue.
"All her hatred is probably derived from the fact that she can't have children of her own" I froze staring at her with wide eyes.
Aunt Myra couldn't have kids of her own? I did not know that.
The beeping of the oven ended our conversation. She rushed towards the oven putting on a mitten before getting the cake out.
Leaving me paralyzed with shock.
We had no time to prepare the icing, her shift would be over in ten minutes so it was just a plain chocolate cake.
I cut out a giant piece for Mary
Almost half the entire cake placing it in a transparent plastic container before handing it to her and hugging her goodbye.
I had fun baking with her she reminded of one of those upbeat plus sized latino maids who never seize to brighten everyone's day.
Well she is plus sized and she definitely brightened my day.
Cutting out a large slice of my own I coated it with nutella before biting into the creamy goodness.
The syrupy flavor assaulting my senses, This was good, really good.
I took a picture of me with a goofy grin on my face, my cheeks stuffed with chocolate cake.
Definitely worth the wait.
My phone pinged
Another text from he who shall not be named.
It was now or never blocking his number, I deleted his contact from my phone.
If I was gonna forget about him I really needed to go for it, I've never been more grateful for the distance between us. I miss London, my mum, my siblings and most of all I miss kosi .
Huh speaking of the devil.
"Hey" I squealed into the phone.
"Hey? What happened to I'll call you once I land?"
"I'm so sorry, I completely forgot it's just... A lot has been on my mind lately kosi I'm really sorry I didn't mean to forget" I pleaded I couldn't handle her being mad at me.
"Alright I forgive you, how have you been? I really do miss you"
"I miss you too and I miss london as well but mostly you"
We bickered on and on about irrelevant things, even about Jeremy whom she's still yet to forgive.
"Noah called says you've been ignoring him all day, I wonder why"
There it was that ache,just his name sparked it back up.
Bundling my shirt against my chest I rubbed my knuckles in a circular motion trying to ease the sore spot.
"I've been busy" I squeaked out trying to sound normal.
"Okay, I'll take your word for it I know better than to pry into matters of the heart" I could already envision her smug expression.
"Matters of the heart?"
"Bye" she said before cutting the call,so much for catching up.
I really wanted to ask her about her mum and my uncle Mason, but it's best if I stay out of things that don't involve me.
Muffling a yawn I slipped into my Pjays before getting under the covers.
It's been a long day.