Luna's POV:-
~ I reached home quite tired and stressed. The lyrics of the song reminded me again all of my beautiful moments which I lived as Ha-Eun. But sadly, those moments are the nightmares of my present life.
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"Mrs. Park!" I called her.
She came hurriedly to me, "Yes Milady! You are back already?"
"Mrs. Park! I am quite stressed now. Bring me some sweets. I need to relieve my stress", I told her.
She stood there for some time & went back to the kitchen.
I was sitting on my bed facing towards the balcony with a gaze of solitude.
"Milady! Here, have some chocolate pastries!", she came back.
I didn't say anything.
"Milady! Are you stressed about that gentleman?" She asked me in a curious voice.
I flinched. Damn! She can look through my heart too well.
"Sometimes situations are unspeakable Mrs. Park! I can't define properly what's troubling me through! And I don't want to be consolidated." I said in a soft voice.
"Milady! I know you don't like to be consolidated! I just observed something".
I looked at her with inquiring eyes.
"After meeting that gentleman, I don't know why, but you seem more like human with emotions Milady!"
"Huh?", I was surprised.
"Milady! In these 15 years of experience with you, the first time I saw a normal expression in your eyes when you saw that gentleman rather than the ice-cold expression you usually give to anybody. But while being with him, your emotions seemed like it was natural. I have never seen you like this with anyone before. Not even your parents couldn't bring up this normal side of you Milady! But that gentleman, exposed the side of you so cleverly which a normal person should have".
I was listening to everything carefully. It's true when I see him before my eyes, a part of my heart subconsciously expresses the emotions of Ha-Eun. After all, I can't decline the fact, though I have built the ice-wall around me as Luna, the wall is shaken up with the arrival of a person who was my everything once upon a time!
I was feeling uneasy. I can't do the same mistake again like before! Life has given me a second chance to live my life fruitfully this time, I can't regret it again this time!
"Mrs. Park! I am going to visit Dr. John! Book an appointment for me today at 5 pm!"
"Okay, Milady! I will inform your driver too!", she left.
I slowly walked to my balcony, "It's time I should resume my therapy again! Only medical help can save me now!" I mumbled.
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I reached Dr. John's clinic within 5. He is my personal psychiatrist for 10years. Though for the outside world my life may look happy & fulfilled with everything from my insides, I am a pretty shallow vessel. I am surviving all kinds of stress & loneliness with the help of my therapist.
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"Dr. John!" I called him from behind.
He was reading some kind of documents in his chamber, "Ahh Miss Kim! Welcome! After a long time indeed!" He greeted me with a warm smile.
"Yeah, it's a long time indeed Doctor! I am visiting you after 2years again!", I said politely.
"That's what amazes me, Miss Kim!! Something must have happened again which rushed you to seek my help!"
I silently nodded.
"It's fine! It's completely okay to not be okay! That's why we are here to help! Here, have some tea!! Just relax and tell me what's the matter!"
"Um, Doctor! I am really confused to explain my situation!"
"Go ahead, Miss Kim!"
"I- I have a secret! I didn't say that to anyone! But I don't know if you would believe me or not! There is a specific reason for my nightmares & traumas which led me to seek medical help all these years! Sorry I hid the fact from you all this time! But now it seems I have to share with someone! I can't bear it all alone!", I said.
Dr. John was quite curious about my answer! He was staring at me with several questions in his eyes!
"I am reincarnated with the memories of my previous life. I know I am talking all weird. But can you believe that doctor?"
"Can you explain it more precisely Miss Kim?"
"I am reincarnated in this life as the heiress of Kim Merchandise. I was the daughter of a poor farmer in my previous life!! My name was Ha-Eun. I had a small and happy family, and then---"
"And then?"
"I fell in love with someone. He was my everything. All I wanted was to live a happy life with him! But he.....he gave me such painful scars which I still can't forget after all these years. The memories I have as Ha-Eun are the reason for my nightmares which return to haunt me in this life. I am afraid of closing my eyes. I start to imagine myself as Ha-Eun again! I feel pathetic. All my power, fame, everything collapses before my eyes. I feel so helpless!
But I had gained some control over the nightmares the past few months, but after meeting him again- I can't control my emotions! I feel I am growing weaker. Mrs. Park said my emotions are becoming natural too! I am scared Doctor! I don't want my heart to be torn into pieces this time too!! I am scared!" I was restless.
"Whom did you meet Miss Kim?", he asked with a deep voice.
"Him. I saw him again after more than 50years."
"Where did you see him? Did he say you anything?"
"No Doctor! He doesn't remember anything I think. But he has the same face as Ji-Hoo! Same eyes... Same smile."
"Ji-Hoo?"
"Yes! The person Ha-Eun loved."
Doctor John was silent for some time. He looked extremely serious.
"So Miss Kim you met the reincarnated version of Ji-Hoo this time? Are his character instincts the same too?"
I looked at him with confused eyes, "No, he seems more gentle this time! He doesn't even recognize me as Ha-Eun. But his efforts...seems desperate this time. He even came to my house without informing me. His eyes- are making me confused! It seems that he cares for me genuinely this time but I don't want to trust him again.
I- I just simply can't forgive his deeds! I can't forget the fact that Ha-Eun had to die such a painful death after loving someone so much. I can't forgive him, doctor! I never wanted to see him again if I am reincarnated again! That was my only wish. He is the reason I despise love so much!! I can't trust anyone. I-I built an ice armor around me so that no one can hurt me again! But how can he penetrate the wall? How can he make me so anxious?"
"Miss Kim! I am a doctor! I believe everything scientifically. But there are some times logic doesn't work! In this world, there are some choices in which humans can't interfere-- and that's called destiny!
The reason both of you had to born again is to face each other once more!! That's your destiny!"
I was terrified! He is my destiny? I thought I was born to live a happy life this time but I was born to face him again? How can be my fate so cruel?
"Doctor... How can you be so sure!"
"Miss Kim! It's a harsh truth! No matter how far you run from it- when the time comes, destiny will come & find you.
It's your destiny which brought you two together again!! You need to stay strong & face the truth!!
So don't be scared of the things which are meant to happen.
And the fact you despise love is not because Ha-Eun was betrayed! The reason is Ha-Eun's love had an incomplete ending- so Luna's heart is scared to have an incomplete ending too!! That's why you don't allow your heart to love anyone again!" He said.
I was completely silent.
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In front of the "Okay Hospital" parking area, a black Rolls Royce car arrived.
Alex & his personal secretary Mr. Shin came out of the car.
"Mr. Shin! Are you sure Miss Kim is here?", Alex asked him with a sharp voice.
"Yes Sir! According to her car's location she arrived here at around 5 pm. She still hasn't left".
"Good job Mr. Shin!"
Alex started walking towards the main gate of the hospital.
"Luna!! Let's meet again!" He mumbled.
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