Alice Clinton was fuming in her living room ,as she entered.Jeff stood with a constipated face.But his smirk of victory was still visible to Lilith.What the hell was this fucker laughing at ,was the first thought that passed Lilith's head as she stepped across the threshold of her house.
Her little victory in the school made her feel a little bit braver.But the truth be said,Lilith was scared out of her mind.Is it okay to be afraid of your mother ?.In fact ,Lilith was actually afraid of her idea of the mother.Alice Clinton was never the best mother.But still she was.Lilith's idea of mother was, there was always someone to fill that void space in her heart ,when all the time her heart whispered ," you are all alone.".She wanted to shout back at her head," not yet,motherfucker,my mother is still alive." That was enough for her,her mother being alive, however distant she may be,however disappointed she may be.It was enough for her that she still had a mother.And now ,at this moment,she was afraid of losing that idea in her life.
lilith walked inside ,past jeff and crossed Alice Clinton who looked could burst in any minute now,only to be pulled back by the string of her backpack." Lilith Gabriel Clinton,where the hell are you going?" it was the growling voice of her mother.
"mom,I am going to my room,but I thought that's self explanatory."It was the surprised voice in her that replied.That was the first time in years ,she heard her middle name.She had even forgot about that name herself.No one bothered to find out , anyways.
" why is your dad here says that you have been upto no good? And why the hell was I not informed about your impending suspension from school for two weeks ,for outrageous behaviour ,till now?"Alice Clinton reminded her of the whistling pressure cooker ,with steam flowing out of her ears now.Her nose and ears red.This was the mother she remembered ,when she found out her daughter was abused by her previous husband's.But now the same woman was mad and fuming only to grab her daughter's throat.How the tables have turned.Fate is like an untrustworthy mistress,can change sides in the blink of an eye is a seriously true fact some mad fucker have written .
Lilith couldn't believe those words.How could this woman trust a word coming out of that fucking weasel's mouth ? And how dare she ,to question her to not have said anything till this moment.' woman,telephones were not invented yesterday.you were the one who was busy eating those legal papers without giving a fucking nut's care about your own daughter,for the last three months.And there you have the audacity to yell at me.. wow,no wonder,you were born to be a lawyer.' This was what came into Lilith's mind.
But keeping the bad girl in her chained ,Lilith replied." mom, firstly ,I don't know what jeff told you.But whatever it is ,it's no where near the truth.
second thing,the suspension is no more.It was due to a misunderstanding on the schools part.Now they have better clarity of the situation and they have invoked the suspension,plus the original convicts are suspended.
and third thing " Lilith pointed at jeff,who managed the best poker face he could have" this man is not my father."
Jefferson's expression changed to something like the dead rat hanging from the roof while it's raining.
But Alice Clinton was no more fuming,she was boiling ,kind of in a metal furnace." Lilith ,how could you be so ungrateful to jeff ?He was the one who looked after you for the last three months .He is your stepdad,still he cares for you better than yours did.And how dare you to disobey him and be a drug Junkee,and get into fights in school.Your teachers reported to jeff,about you being high and then turning up in your class.You should be ashamed ,Lilith.I am so very much disappointed in you."
It was like a snow hail hitting at your head and waking you up from a dream, in the basement, reminding you ,how you were the sleeping beauty , and all of it was nothing else other than a dream.Lilith couldn't even recognise her mother in this woman anymore.
She didn't wait for a second to believe that her daughter turned into a junkee brimming with psychosis.pathetic ,yes pathetic, it is.
" yes ,mother that's the point.He ,this man,your Jefferson ,took care of me for last three months.The question is,where were you? You are the one supposed to be here ,right? so ,where were you ?"Lilith didn't realise her tears were flowing .
" I was busy,but it still doesn't explain the fact that you are a drug addict."Alice Clinton sounded firm and stern like a jail warden ,
perhaps.
"yes ,mother.when are you not busy? when are you not ? You asked me why I didn't tell you anything .How am I supposed to tell you , by flying pegions halfway across the world ?or by morse code?you have not phoned even for a single time ,for the past three months.You entrusted the great responsibility of looking after Lilith ,with this hideous man.
okay,let me tell you ,how he ' looked after ' me.He would mostly be floating in meth or cheap beer.It was scary at first.So,I shifted my bedroom to basement,where I sleep in fear of this man.
And the last thing he said about me being the druggie , how ironic? Then last week I fainted at school of exhaustion and no sleep.and do you want to know ,what your ever good jeff did.He tried to rape me while I was medicated from the hospital ? And you say ,I have not said anything to you? Tell me ,how can I tell you anything ,if you didn't give a flying fuck about me for three months in a row."
" Lilith ,how dare you accuse jeff ,of something like this ? you are behaving nothing other than a spoiled rat.Obviously,the apple doesn't fall from the tree.Your dad was a shithole who fucked up my life and now you do it better.You claimed my first husband ,Alex,abused you.It was nothing other than small beatings here and there, to prevent you from being so spoiled.you reported my second husband being unfaithful.and now this..I can't believe it.How can you be so selfish? I work day and night to make a living for you and can't you even see me a lil bit happy ?Jeff have been my boyfriend for past year.I dated him for seven months and knew him as the back of my hand,before I brought him to live with us.You should be ashamed about how pathetic you are behaving ,girl." jeff tried to console Alice.His fake concern oozing out in rivers." jeff..I can't deal with her anymore.How can she be so selfish ? I work like a robot for her and this is what she gives me back."
" it's okay,honey.She is just passing through a phase .Teenage is a bitch to some people.she will realise sooner or later ,what is good for her." jeff was consoling her mother,while effectively hiding his cocky smirk.
Lilith couldn't believe her eyes.It was like a soap opera unfolding infront of her eyes.Her own mother siding with her abusers.Her own mother thinking that she was selfish .After all these things.She was alone when she rose each day ,her chest heaving heavy ,and her sweat running down in her bed after years of abuse.She faced her nightmares alone while Alice Clinton was too cowardly ,to face her daughter in her worst state.That could be forgiven .But now she regretted saving her from the abuser,Alex.The reason of all her nightmares.Thats unforgivable.And yes, selfishness.Lilith didn't want her mother to suffer heartbreak ,as her jackass husband was cheating on her.Yes,she is selfish.If there was something in her heart to break into pieces,Alice Clinton broke it away and crushed it and stomped on them with her fucking heels.
Lilith watched as her upset mother was taken to her room by jeff ,while she was left alone in thier living room,with tears leaking down her cheeks ,all alone.yes, payback is a bitch. But this time,it was Jefferson who said it.