....R-18.....
...Cass's POV.....
She looks at me and I'm trying to keep my face neutral while she tries to read my facial expression.
"I just wanted to check something." She clears her throat and gets up and heads to the shower.
I lay there for a few seconds.... 'Wanted to check something? What the hell did she want to check?'
'Cass, maybe she just wanted to see if there were any feelings?'
'Thietian SHUT THE FUCK UP' I was quick to let him know that this was not a conversation I wanted his two cents included in.
I go to the bathroom and ask her, "What exactly did you want to check though?" I cross my arms and lean against the wall and watch and she cleans her self.
She sighs heavily, "Cass, I'm sorry if that hurt you. I just needed to flush out any doubts from my mind and that was the only way I knew I could." She turns the water off and grabs her towel.
"Doubts? About what?" 'What the hell was she doubting that required her asking for Thietian to appear during us having sex? Really?'
She wrapped herself up in the towel and looked like she was close to tears.
"I did it because there have been times when it looks like you, but your reactions are different. I wanted to see if Thietian reacted the same way." She sticks her chin out defiantly even though it's quivering from her holding back the tears.
'Cass, take it easy on her. You might have done the same thing in her situation.'
'Thietian, stay the hell out of this.'
"There it was again. Your facial features change, even though your still Cass." She points at me.
"That's when we are having a conversation mentally, Elena." I tell her.
"Oh so when we are having sex, you and him have conversations? What is it just him talking or something? The whole way you make love to me changes sometimes, now I know. You can let each other take control of each others form and make people just think it's one or the other."
Tears roll down her cheeks.
'Shit.... we've been found out.' Echoed through our thoughts.
'Thietian the only time since she's said she only wanted a relationship with me, there has only been once where you did that. I didn't let you either.'
"Your silence only confirms it." She covers her face as she starts to cry.
"No Elena it doesn't. I was just thinking back. IT was all conversations, I admit, he's given me some pointers or ideas even but other than just now, it's always been me."
I lied through my teeth not knowing how to tell her it was one time, but if I told her how it happened....
She looks up at me startled, "You mean I just..." She trails off and takes her towel off and hops back in the shower and begins to clean her self some more.
I'm still upset but I follow her into the shower and take the wash cloth from her.
"Elena, stop you'll hurt yourself if you use too much soap. I don't want you to slip and fall."
She looks at me with swollen red eyes, "I have to clean myself. I can't believe I did that. I should have just trusted you like Sin said to."
'Sin, thank you for having my back' I think before taking her into my arms and holding her close.
"You're not dirty. I wish you had just said something first." Tears are rolling down my cheeks and I can feel hers on my chest as she squeezes me tight.
'You're awfully quiet.' I mumble to Thietian.
'She feels dirty because of me.'
'She feels dirty cause she feels like she cheated on me.'
'No, she feels dirty because it was me inside of her.'
Even though I can't see his face, I feel his pain. His hopes were high because they were able to talk face to face. Then earlier, he was on cloud nine thinking, maybe, just maybe.... If we couldn't find a way to separate, then at least we could both be loved by her.
The same way Fiadh had accepted it even when we couldn't morph yet to prove it, she believed and trusted us fully.
My heart clenched in agony over the loss of Fiadh and the way she loved us. Yes, I know Elena loves me but we still have our hurdles to overcome before we get to that same level.
I clean the soap off of Elena and take us out of the shower and dry us both off. Her crying has calmed and so I pick her up and take her back to the bed and lay her in between the sheets and climb in behind her to hold her close to me.
We're just looking at each other when her face scrunches up again in tears and I make her look at me.
"Hey, hey... Elena, you are not dirty, I still love you. So stop thinking all those nasty thoughts I know you are."
She tries to blink the tears away and takes a few breaths.
When her breathing is settled she asks me, "Why did you give me what I asked for?" She takes a few more breaths almost resigning herself for the worst.
I pause and think about it for a moment before I answer her.
"Because you asked. Also a part of me hopes that if we are stuck together and can't separate.... You could maybe learn to love us both?"
'Cass, she won't ever love me. I saw the look of utter disgust on her face earlier. She could barely look at me earlier anyways.'
'Thietian, stop rushing her.'
"You two are talking again?" Elena reads my face.
"Yeah. He's telling me he thinks you won't ever accept and love him." I inform her.
"Why does he think that?" Curiosity and confusion in her eyes she asks me this.
"Earlier when you know... You could hardly look at him and in the shower.. He saw the disgusted look on your face and said you had to clean yourself even though you had just taken a shower. He's hurting pretty bad."
Even me telling her this his emotions are coming through strongly that even I am unable to not start shedding tears.
"Cass, I'm sorry I hurt you. Is it alright if I talk to Thietian though?" She seems hesitant even though she already asked the question.
'Thietian? Will you talk to her?'
His voice is weak but he gets out, 'Yes.'
I nod to Elena and let Thietian morph.
Elena flinches slightly seeing the pain in Thietian's face.
"You wanted to talk to me?" His voice is hollow and empty sounding and he removes his hand from holding her.
She notices and looks down ashamed and dejected. "Yes. I'm sorry for hurting you Thietian. This whole time, I've been hurting you both."
Thietian looks away from her as he tries to avoid tears himself.
Elena reaches out with a shaky hand and gently makes Thietian face her.
"I'm sorry. Can I do something to make it up to you?" She asks.
Thietian sniffs but looks away again. "What could you do?" He asks.
"How about a date? You both can take turns spending it with me?" She blushes.
Thietian snaps his head to her surprised. "Really?"
Elena nods confirming it and Thietian hugs her close to him. "Thank you." He mumbles into her hair so she can't see the tears that are flowing freely now.
Thietian holds her a few more seconds and gives me back control of my body.
Now I'm holding her and I let her go gently to look into her eyes. She seems surprised to see it's me now but doesn't say anything about that.
"Thank you Elena." I tell her as I stroke her hair from her face.
My chest starts to flutter with emotions and a need begins to develop deep inside of me. I start getting hard again and I kiss her deeply.
"I need you." I tell Elena as our lips part. "We need you." I tell her because I can feel Thietian's desires too, even though he's remaining quiet.
I can tell she's processing the information for a second and then pulls me closer for a kiss before getting up to sit astride me.
Before she begins to ease me into her, she asks shyly.
"So how will this work between the two?" She begins to move her wetness against me making me roll my eyes back from her teasing.
"We can relinquish full control to each other or we can slip in between us two for short periods of time during it." I moan as she teases me more rubbing her self against me.
"I know how it would be for it to be one or the other, can you show me what you are talking about with the relinquishing short times?" She moans as she slides me into her slowly.
'Thietian. Are you up for it?'
'We'll try.'
As she begins to move, she staring at me intently and gasps as I morph into Thietian. She stares into his black eyes and still moves up and down.
'She's not rejecting you.'
'No she's not.'
She leans down and kisses Thietian on the head and pulls back to see me again. She kisses me and begins to move her self a little faster against my body.
Me and Thietian keep switching back and forth and soon Elena is crying out in release. We pull her down to kiss her as she climax's and then gently roll her onto her back to make love to her all night. The two of us switching back and forth as we worship her body giving it everything we've wanted to.
When daylight breaks through the windows we're still rolling around making sweet love to each other. We're completely exhausted and going slow when we hear something.
*knock-knock*
"We're home." Sin calls out to us through the door.
"Okay" I call out as Elena giggles.
We hear Sin walk away before I continue with a renewed vigor hearing Elena giggle like that. I kiss her as Thietian morphs back and takes lead to have her gasping and clutching to us weakly as she finds release again.
Her weak cries of passion take Thietian over the edge and afterwards he lays next to her exhausted as she strokes his face smiling. We morph back and I kiss her gently on the forehead.
"Thank you, Elena." I get out before we both pass out in each others arms.