Chapter 66: Farewell
I pace back and forth in this room. How would I even get out of here? It's a magic protection spell.
"I can help." Gabe appeared out of nowhere. .
Still unsure if he was really some sort of spirit or my imagination. I whispered, "How?"
"Did you check the window?" He offered.
No I hadn't why would I check if they were spelled. We where several feet off the ground. The chances of landing safely where slim to none.
I went over to the window. I stuck my hand out. There was no barrier. Did Clementine forget or did she think I wasn't crazy enough to climb down?
"You can shift." Gabe offered.
I shook my head, "That won't work for a number of reasons. Nyra seems very weak, I can't shift. I don't want to hurt her. Plus I think people will notice an owl in the middle of the day." My only option was to shimmy down the window or something.
"If you insist on not hurting your owl and climbing down like a mortal. Might I suggest a change in wardrobe." He gestured to my outfit.
I looked down and immediately blushed. I was still wearing the green jacket and nothing else. Suddenly feeling self-conscious, I threw a blanket over my legs.
"Okay, but you need to turn around." I said and waited for him to turn around. I began rummaging for clothing, but I couldn't find my suitcase. Just Kai's and Zephyr's. This was the boy's room. Of course. It would be too convenient if I were in the girl's room. I grabbed one of Zephyr's jeans and one of Kai's hoodies. Quickly I changed out of the green jacket into the clothes that where sizes way to big to fit.
Rolling Zephyr's pants several time before I saw my feet. Which reminded me I needed shoes. Maybe if I stopped by Jasmine's I could get some clothes. If she would even talk to me.
Pushing up the hoody's sleeve, I said, "Okay I'm decent."
"No you are more than decent." He whispered turning around. I rolled my eyes. My imagination needs to come up with better pick up lines.
We walked to the window as softly as possible. I looked out, no sign of the others. Gabe extended his hand and I gladly took it. I needed to do this. I needed answers or revenge. I can't sit so idly by and watch everyone take over me again. I needed to get control over my life.
As I got both felt out of the window, Gabe disappeared. Great, I had to do this alone. Thanks,
"Twyla?" I snapped up to find Kai looking at me,
"Listen, I can explain." I said, my head was the only thing visible as I held onto the windowsill. Maybe, I didn't think things through.
"Go ahead." He crossed his arms.
Crap, I hadn't thought this far ahead.
"Tell him the truth. He will understand." Nyra's faint voice echoed in my head. I hated how she was helping me despite her state. I wish I could do something to her.
"Wel1…I was sneaking out."
Kai burst out laughing, "I figured as much."
I scowled, "I wanted to go to find the Angels. Or something. I just can't sit still. I get you are trying to protect me, but I don't need that right now. I need to be involved." I held tightly to the windowsill. Please don't fall.
"I can't see you hurt." Kai said coming closer to the window.
"I know." I said. "But you are hurting me by confining me."
"But confining you is the only way to keep you safe." He crouched down so we where eye level.
"You left me alone with my thought. I hate thinking!" A burst of emotions swept through me.
"What?" He asked.
"If I think to long. I start to think about how I'm crazy. How I made up this person in my mind and no one can see him. There is a medical condition, it's called schizophrenia. I think I might have that. Or I start think about my parents. They where so cruel but they didn't deserve to die. I wanted to tell them so much but didn't. I was so ungrateful. Then I think-" I stopped.
"Think what?" He grabbed onto my arm. For a second, I forgot I was holding onto dear life. It was like it was just him and I. Like nothing else mattered except understanding each other.
"I think about you." I confessed, "I think about you all the time. It scares the crap out of me. I never really looked at a guy before. I was always so focused but for some reason you are under my skin and I hate it. But I don't hate you. I can't." I wanted to bang my head against the windowsill.
"I think about you too." He confessed. "You can't stop me this time." Kai smirked and leaned in. He was right, and I didn't even try. At first it felt like we where two strangers. Unfamiliar but it quickly escalated. I almost let go, just so I could hold onto him. As I wobbled on the ledge, Kai broke the kiss.
He had this soft smile, "That was…"
"Yeah." That kiss felt amazing, in so many different ways. I don't even know the right words to describe that.
"Let's get you inside." He began to pull at my arm.
I shook my head, "This doesn't change a thing." I couldn't look him in the eyes.
"About us or staying confined?" He asked. His eyes hardening. I knew this would hurt him but if I didn't say this, we might both get hurt worse. Not to mention that demon was still after me.
"Both." I whispered. I began moving away from the windowsill. I couldn't face him after saying something like that.
"Go. I will only give you a head start. I can't promise anything after I find you." I wasn't sure what he was referring to. The kiss or the fact I'm climbing down the side of a very smooth building. But either way, his head disappeared from the windowsill. I heard the curtains close.
"That was interesting." Gabe said frowning.
"Thanks for the help." I muttered.
"Anytime." He grinned before adding, "Jump."
"What?" I looked at him like he was crazy. Maybe I should I have gone back inside with Kai.
"Look down." He gestured to the heavily stuffed dumpster. On top of it all where a bag of what looked like moldy pillows.
"Don't die." I whispered and let go. I fell into the bag. A squishing sound underneath me, made me cringe. Gross.
I shuddered as I rolled out of the smelly garbage can. I almost slipped as I hesitantly touched one foot to the ground.
"Now what?" I asked when I was standing on solid land.
"I know where the Angel camp is. It's deserted now, but we can check for any traces of them." Gabe said.
"How do you know where it is? When I can't remember. What if you are leading me into a trap?" I looked at him hesitantly. Just because I choose to listen to him, doesn't mean I trust him.
"If you want, I can restore you memories. You will be able to remember on your own. I won't even tag along if you don't want me too." He sounded honest.
"Why didn't you do so before?" I asked.
"Before when?" he began counting on your fingers, "You flew to your parents. Watch them get killed. Got dragged back here and then decided to escape. I helped you in every way."
"You're right." I said with a sigh. "But that doesn't mean I trust you." I growled. I will never get over the fact, he made me think I was crazy. Or was I still crazy?
"That's fine. I'm sorry about that but I had my reasons." Gabe said coming closer.
"Would you care to tell me then?" I asked.
He shook his head, "I can't." Despite his words, it didn't sound like he couldn't. It just sounded like he wouldn't
Even despite all this, I wanted to trust him. I wanted to believe that I was not crazy. I wanted to believe that it was all okay. That he was actually wanted to help me.
Consumed in my wants, I allowed myself to say, "Okay, you can help me remember."