I grab my coconut scented glittery lotion, it enhances my natural skin color and makes it look more hydrated. I leather myself with a generous portion, pull on my underwear after and take the towel over my head off. I walk towards my mirror; I grab my detangling hairbrush and untangle my curls then apply lots of mouse for the curls to stay lose. I put on my thick gold medium hoop earrings and thin gold chain with a cross my grandmother had gifted me.
The chain was hidden in the last page of the photo album the Lawyer had brought with him. She wrote a letter for me, explaining why she couldn't give it to me sooner. She was afraid my parents would confiscate it or sale it, so she hid it. The cross settles comfortably between my breasts, I apply some black waterproof eyeliner around my eyes making my weird colored eyes pop and black waterproof mascara on my eyelashes. I smirk knowing my eyes are the things that always get me attention, both wanted and unwanted.
I have a love and hate relationship with the weird combination, it's always a good laugh though every time someone gasps looking at them. I outline my eyebrows lightly with my waterproof light brown eyebrow pencil, only giving them a little color and finish with dark red no smudge matte lipstick. I pull my bodycon jumpsuit on, I sit on my bed and put on my shoes tying them tightly around my calves without cutting circulation to my legs. I love that my phenix tattoo is in full display.
I grab my small black clutch purse with the same designs as my shoes, I put my driver's license, lipstick, credit cards, car keys and cellphone inside after disconnecting it from the stereo. I walk down the stairs towards the kitchen and make something simple for me to eat. I don't need that liquor to go straight to my head. I want to be able to enjoy my first night out, dancing and drinking the night away. Lexa's laugh catches me off guard, "We can't get drunk easily Analiah, we can drink the whole night away and you would be lucky if you get a little buzz by the end." She says shaking her head amused.
How was I supposed to know that? I'm new at this shifter crap! I growl at her annoyed and keep cooking. I wash the dishes I used to cook and check the time. Its ten, usually the clubs in PR start to get packed and hyped around this time. I grab my purse from the top of the kitchen table where I left it and make sure I have everything in it. I lock the door behind me and jump inside my mustang. I laugh, sing and dance to the music blasting through my radio.
The people smile and laugh at me when I arrive to the parking lot. I shrug without a care in the world, I'm not ashamed of my Latina roots and I love our music. I park and turn the car off. I sit there waiting and trying to sum up the courage to get out. Bad timing to get nervous, I have never been clubbing, this is my first rodeo and I'm going in solo. No one can ever imagine how much I yearn and wish to have friends right now. To be able to let lose with someone and have fun for once.
I have been very happy this last two years, getting to know Nahlexa and learning everything I can. "Relax, we can't go in there with our eyes glowing. If there are any shifters inside, they'll know what kind we are in a heartbeat. Plus, there are humans around and remember our species is supposed to be dead. Take a deep breath and pull on my energy like I taught you, surround yourself in it without pulling me to the front and own it. I told you once and I will tell you this again until its ingrained into your brain, we are one."
"I'm yours just as much as your mine. Everything I am is yours, you just have to accept it and own it." She says exasperated. I nod and close my eyes; I take a deep breath as she says and pull on her energy without pulling her to the front. I let go, I let go of my insecurities, of my doubts, hatred and anger. I feel as if everything that was holding me back from accepting her fully chipped away bit by bit. I embrace her and give her, her rightful place by my side as my equal.
She's a part of my heart, my soul, my mind and I love her. Her place is by my side not behind me or under my feet. She's the better part of me and the reason for me to be alive. She gave me a purpose and loved me from the minute she chose me. It's only fair I do the same, I feel her energy surround me as if mine from birth, it gave me the boost and confidence I needed. I open the door and lock the car after me. I smirk and wink flirtatiously at the guys looking at me while I walk.
I love this, I feel more sure of myself and in sync. The swing on my hips make me feel naturally sexy without over doing it, "Okay, now slowly let lose a little pheromone." She instructs once we're close to the bouncer. A shiver runs down my body once I accomplish it, igniting desire in the pit of my stomach, I feel my body heat up in reaction, my heart accelerates and mouth waters in anticipation. I breathe in deeply and naturally taking in all the scents around me including the bouncers. He smells savage, "Bear." Lexa says. "What?" I ask confused. "He's a bear shifter Analiah, not a good idea to flirt with them." She says amused and nervous.