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Chapter 4 - Dying And Living

The room was a bit heated up. A man was sitting on his bed with his head down, afraid of making an eye contact with his father. His father had warned him about touching someone's daughter but Jason crossed the line.

" YOU DID WHAT I TOLD YOU NOT TO DO !" barked the 54-year-old man.

" I have never taught you to disrespect a woman like that ! That makes you a stupid man ! I'm so disappointed at you ! From now on, no more allowance money for you, I'll freeze your credit card, and this car key, I take it. No more freedom for you, " the man tried to control his spoiled son.

" But dad, I-"  Jason tried to defend himself.

" No more means No more ! Period, " the man said and stormed out of the room. He slammed the door.

Jason is such a spoiled rich man. That is why he act this way. He spent most of his time with his father because his mom left the family for another man. His dad gave him everything because Jason was the only thing left for him. Jason, however, was too spoiled and became reckless as a person.

After his father slammed the door, he felt the burning fuel in his heart that made him wanted to do something terrible. He knew that this wouldn't happened if Rosie didn't told her father. He was blinded by anger.

He got up and sat in front of his laptop. He logged in to his fake account and uploaded the video of Rosie during that night. He grinned as he uploaded the video because he wanted to revenge on Rosie. A ridiculous way to revenge on someone.

***

" NOOO !!!!!! ARGHHH !!!" Rosie screeched in her bedroom.

The scream alerted Gloria from the next room. She ran to Rosie's room. She knocked the door a few times anxiously.

" Rosie ! Are you okay ?! Sis ?! Open the door !" Gloria shouted as she tried to open the door but failed.

She heard crashing, rumbling, loud noises from inside Rosie's room along with screaming and crying of Rosie. That made her even more worried.

" What happened Gloria ?!" their mother ran upstairs as she heard the crashing and screaming.

" I don't know ! " Gloria started to tear up.

The mother knocked the door and called for Rosie's name.

" Open this door Rosie.. Rosie ?" her mother tried to twist the doorknob.

Rosie threw everything on the floor. She pushed everything on her makeup station to the floor. She let out all of her frustration. The mirror was broken to pieces just like her heart but even worse crumbled to dust.

She saw the video of her in the internet. Her phones kept getting notifications from the group chat of her class. That crushed every single part of her heart. The intensity of the darkness in her world had achieved the darkest days. She curled herself at the corner of her room as she sobbed.

2 days later, Rosie was still locking herself in her room. She hadn't eat anything even though Gloria put her meals in front of her room. She didn't opened her door at all. She was broken. She lost her value. She had no reason to be happy.

" Rosie.. please have something to eat.. " Gloria said slowly with her trembling voice.

Gloria felt sorry for her sister. She knew it was incredibly hard for her sister to digest everything that had happened. She could even felt the hurtful words that people threw at her sister as if it was for her. They shared the same blood after all.

" GO AWAY ! " Rosie shrieked from inside of the room.

" Rosie ? Open this door.. " a man said calmly followed with some knocks on the door.

That made Rosie stopped sobbing. She recognised the voice. She sit up to listen closer to the voice.

" It's me, Nathan.. It's okay. It's just me.. " Nathan tried to calm Rosie down and let her open the door.

The doorknob was turned slowly and opened slightly. Rosie peeked through the small opened-section of the door. It was indeed Nathan. He greeted Rosie with a smile that made Rosie relieved. Nathan was holding a tray of food for her. Perhaps it was prepared by Gloria and her mother.

Rosie let Nathan in. The moment Nathan entered the room. He saw the mess. Broken pieces of the mirror. All of the stuff on the floor was a disaster. He put the tray on the cabinet beside Rosie's bed meanwhile Rosie sat on her bed as she was zoning out.

Nathan sighed and sat beside his crush. He examined Rosie. She was not the bright girl anymore. Her eyes were swollen because of the cries. Her hair was messy. She looked like she's lost her mind.

But to Nathan, she will always be the beautiful girl he fall in love with. He still loves the girl. She's still the bright girl for him. Rosie noticed Nathan stared at her. She teared up as she felt a brush of relieved as she saw Nathan's face. She pressed her face into Nathan's broad and firm chest.

Nathan squeezed her in his arms to comfort her. He knew about the video but had not watched it because he didn't want to get any more jealous. It hurt him as well. He felt terrible for not be there to protect Rosie when she needed him.

" It's okay.. Let it out.. I'm here for you.." Nathan whispered with his deep husky voice.

Rosie felt safe in Nathan's hug and Nathan's heart beats could be heard. After a few minutes of the hugging, Nathan got up and took the tray. He put the tray on the bed.

" Now, you must eat. Your sister told me you didn't come out of the room and didn't eat for 2 days. That's not okay," Nathan said the words while he held Rosie's hand.

Rosie shook her head. Nathan held her face and noticed her lips cracked because she didn't drank any liquids to keep herself hydrated. Dark circles under her swollen eyes. Must had been because lack of sleep.

" Rosie, you look terrible.. I don't want to see you like this. It just breaks my heart.. Please, eat something. At least, half of the rice will do," Nathan begged the girl.

Rosie nodded weakly. Nathan handed a spoon to Rosie and patted her head. Rosie took the spoon and started to eat the hot rice with freshly cooked chicken soup. A hot meal helps to give strength to the people in grief. Nathan drew a smile on his face as he saw Rosie started to eat.

" While you eat, let me clean up this mess," Nathan got up and went to clean the mess on the floor.

He started off with the makeup stuff and the stuff on the floor. Rosie could hardly swallowed the rice as she saw Nathan picked up her stuff. She knew that Nathan had feelings for her but she tried to take things slow.

Rosie always sensed the affection she got from Nathan but she tried to be sure that Nathan really like her or not. A man that would come by to give support to her will never go wrong with love.

" How did you came into the house ?" Rosie asked with her cracked voice. Crying too much made her lost her voice.

" Your sister called, " Nathan replied shortly.

" But my dad ?" Rosie was wondering if her dad would let Nathan come to their house.

" He apologized to me. He actually begged your sister to call me and asked me to come and talk to you. You should talk to you family too.. I'm just a friend of yours," Nathan explained.

Rosie slowly looked down to the plate of hot rice. She felt bad for pushing away her family. Nathan looked at her and continued his cleaning.

After her meals, Rosie helped out with the broken pieces of the mirror. They cleaned everything and put everything back to their own places. After a significant amount of time of cleaning, the room became neat and clean.

" I guess my job is done here. Thank you for having Nathan The Cleaner !" Nathan joked to spark happiness in Rosie's heart.

She smiled to the joke. She slowly took Nathan's hand.

" What should I do to make myself feel better about this incident ?" she asked the man.

" Hmm.. Maybe do something good ? You know, go out there and help people. Perhaps you can be an organ donor. Anything good you can do," Nathan randomly suggested a way to make her not focusing on the incident.

" Thank you," Rosie hugged the man.

***

Few days later, Rosie was getting better but still didn't want to go to campus because she was not ready to confront every single people at the campus. She knew that people tend to be judgemental even though the video has been long past the due.

She felt hungry and decided to sneak to the kitchen to grab something to eat. She slowly walked down the stair. She stopped her steps as she heard her dad and mom whom were in the living room, talking in a serious tone. She eavesdropped the conversation.

" Dear, are you sure you want to do this ?" the lady asked her husband.

" This is the only way we can cover this shame. We have to do it as soon as possible," the man said.

" But what would Rosie felt if she have to marry the man that raped her ?" the lady argued.

Rosie gasped. Her heart stopped a split second.

" She needs to face it. If we said they were married so the video won't be issued anymore. No more shame to our family," her father explained without realizing Rosie was listening to him.

Rosie's heart was torn apart. How could her father wanted to do that to her ? A shot of anger made her got up and showed her face to her parents.

" You want me to marry that asshole ?!" she shouted.

That got her parents off guard. Her mom got up and went to her slowly.

" Please, Rosie.. Listen to us.." her mom begged.

" No ! You think that is going to solve everything ?! I WAS FUCKING TORN BY THE INCIDENT AND YOU TWO WANT ME TO MARRY THAT STUPID GUY ?! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU TWO ! " Rosie shrieked with her trembling voice as her tears gushed down her cheeks.

" ROSIE ! YOU LISTEN HERE. WE WANTED TO CLEAR YOUR NAME AND THIS FAMILY'S NAME. THAT'S ALL. YOU'RE OPPOSING IT ? FINE , YOU WILL STILL HAVE TO MARRY TO THAT MAN BEFORE I DISOWN YOU !" the father hollered while he pointed his index finger to Rosie.

Rosie was speechless. She never thought that her father would do something like this just to cover the shame. She ran up the stairs.

She bumped into Gloria on her way to her room. Gloria saw her sister was again, in tears.

" Rosie.. what happened ?" Gloria asked as she was in her room but she heard the shouting that made she came out of her room.

Rosie pushed Gloria to the side as she was blocking her.

" I HATE ALL OF YOU !" Rosie screamed and slammed her bedroom door.

Rosie felt betrayed. She thought her father would fight for her but he threw her under the bus. She punched her pillows to release her frustrations. Wrath of anger screamed out from her heart. She went crazy because of her father.

She screamed so loud that eventually she lost her voice. She cried. She sobbed. Nothing can describe her broken heart. She felt like nothing can make her be normal as before. Disappointed. She had no faith left in her heart to continue to live this way.

Suddenly a notification popped on her phone. Rosie reached out to her phone and clicked on the notification. It was Nathan.

Nathan : Rosie ? Are you okay ?

Nathan : Your sister told me you had a fight with your father.

Nathan : Reply me soon.. I'm worried about you.

Meanwhile, Nathan was in his apartment waiting anxiously for Rosie's reply. He paced in his living room as he kept on thinking about Rosie. He wanted to make sure Rose was completely okay.

Then, he saw Rosie was typing. He stopped pacing and focused to the phone.

Rosie : I can't take this no more, Nathan.

Nathan : What do you mean ?

Rosie : Take care.

Nathan : Stop it. I'm coming over to your house.

Nathan grabbed his car keys and zoomed out of the apartment.

Rosie put aside her phone. She was breathing heavily as she was eyeing to her cabinet. Her tears went down her cheeks everytime she exhaled. Something she never thought that she would do. All those things happened to her, got her to this point.

She got up on her feet and walked to her cabinet. She pulled the drawer and saw a blade in the drawer. She took it and walked backwards slowly as she sobbed harder. She sat down beside her bed while looked at the blade.

Slowly, she pushed the sharp blade out of its plastic cover. She was hesitated. She took turn looked at her left wrist and back at the blade. She glanced at her door. In her mind, she was thinking about doing it but her heart said no.

All the incidents from her got raped, the humiliation, the video and her father asked her to marry the guy that made her lost her virginity flashed in her mind. She shook her head and went for it. She cut her wrist with the blade hardly a few times till she was no longer had any energy left. She screamed as she did that.

The hurt on her wrist wouldn't be enough compared to her heart. The blood sprayed out of her arteries  from her wrist. She slowly leaned herself to the floor. Time ticked by as she watched her whole life come to an end. Everything she wanted slowly dripped away. Her dreams, her love life, her family.

She gasped and trembled as the blood profusely came out of her. Her tears stopped dripping as the girl's heart pounding slower and slower.

Exactly 15 minutes later, Nathan rang the door bell at the gate. The bell rang loudly and alerted the family. Nathan shouted Rosie's and Gloria's name.

" GLORIA ! AUNTY ! UNCLE ! LET ME IN !" he hollered.

Rosie's mom came outside and opened the gate. She was wondering why did the young man looked so anxious.

" Aunty ! Rosie ! Where is she ?" he questioned the lady.

" Er.. in.. in her room, Why ?" the lady answered in a anxious tone.

" We need to get her now !" Nathan marched his way into the house but he was stopped by Rosie's father at the door.

" You can't get in. I gave you the chance to speak to her for the last time that day and you promised you won't meet her anymore," the man reminded the young man.

Nathan remembered the promise. Rosie's father didn't apologized to him but it was Nathan who apologized. Nathan lied to Rosie so that she wouldn't be mad at her father even more. Nathan sacrificed his pride and his happiness for Rosie.

" Uncle, please.. She needs help.. " Nathan begged the man.

" AARGHHH !!! MOM ! DAD ! "

Gloria screamed. She was terrified to see something that she didn't expect to see. The parents rushed to their daughter to find out what happened. Nathan followed the couple upstairs.

" What happened ?!" the father asked the young girl.

Gloria was trembling and panting. Her eyes were locked to the floor in front of Rosie's room. She slowly pointed the below part of the door. It was blood. The family was stunned including Nathan. Their eyes were shaking as they saw the blood flowing from inside of the room.

" ROSIE !" the mother shrieked.

With a spontaneous action, Nathan went to the door and tried to break the door. He tried to push the door but failed. He moved backwards to gain some momentum. He used every bits of his energy and charged the door. The door was opened.

There, a lady was lying on the floor with a pool of blood beside her that flowed from her wrist. Nathan froze of a second as he saw his crush was dying of losing so much blood. He quickly carried the girl he loved.

" We have to get her to the hospital now !" Nathan shouted desperately.

- At the hospital -

The emergency room was busy as usual. The doctors and nurses ran around the room to provide  their skills to treat the patients. A chaotic workplace.

" HIKKKKKKK !"

A car hit the brake in front of the emergency centre. Nathan came out of the car with the lifeless lady in his arm. He rushed to the paramedics that were on standby outside.

" She cut herself with a blade ! Please help her !" Nathan informed the paramedics while he put her on the stretcher.

" Alright we have to get her in the emergency room right away," one of the paramedics pushed the stretcher into the room.

Nathan stared at Rosie on the stretcher as she was brought into the emergency room. Rosie's family stood beside Nathan, the mom was hugging her daughter while both were in tears. Nathan turned his eyes to Rosie's father.

Rosie's father was holding to his tears. A slap of guilt appeared on his face as he saw the young man with his daughter's blood smothered all over his clothes. Nathan couldn't help but to cry.

He was scared of losing his love. Even if it was one-sided love, but the girl meant a lot to him. The family and Nathan sat at the bench, waiting for the news. The time were ticking as they waited for a doctor come out from the room.

Then, a doctor came out of the emergency room. The family swarmed the doctor including Nathan.

" How's my daughter ?" Rosie's father asked anxiously.

The doctor looked down. He was hesitated. The words were at the back to his mouth. He didn't want to witness another heartbroken family that lost their children but he had to. He put his hand on Rosie's father.

" I'm sorry. We did everything we can. She lost too much blood. My condolence, sir," the doctor said slowly.

" No !!" the family cried out.

Gloria squeezed her mother tighter to keep her standing as her mother lost her balance due to the dizziness she had from hearing the shocking news.  The father finally broke down to tears. He hugged his daughter and wife.

Nathan couldn't believed the words for a few seconds. He was in the state of shock. He backed off from the family and slowly walked away as his tears were rolling down like a river.

He entered the toilet to wash himself. He stood in front of the sink and looked at himself in the mirror. He turned the faucet on. He was trembling. He washed his hands slowly. The tears wouldn't stopped itself. It kept on rolling down.

He blamed himself for not coming to get Rosie during the date she had with the guy. He felt numb as he had flashback of when he spent his time with Rosie. The first time they met, the time they hang out together, the time they studied at the library and the last moments he had with Rosie in her room. His leg became weak and he was pulled to the ground as he sobbed.

" If only I went earlier, I could've save her.." he cried out.

- At the same time -

Sam was in his bed while talking to his best friend when a doctor stormed in the room.

" Sam, good news for you. You have a donor. We can proceed to the next procedure if you agree," the doctor said calmly with a smile.

Sam was lighten up as soon as he heard the news. He looked at Nick with his mouth opened. Nick jumped out of the couch as he screamed happily for his best friend.

" Sam !! Finally !! " Nick was so happy for Sam.

" I gotta call my mom !" he grabbed his phone and called his mom. Tears of joy came out from his eyes.

" So I assumed you agreed to proceed. I will get ready the procedure and will get to you later," the doctor excused himself as he smiled to their reactions.

- After hours of preparation for the surgery -

Sam was put under anesthesia. His vision went blurry and eventually blacked out. He was completely in his deep sleep as the skilled surgeon started his work. There were multiple surgeons in the room.

They were not only doing the surgery on Sam but also another body of a lady. Yes, it was Rosie. She lost her life and she was certified as an organ donor if she is deceased.

The surgeons carefully operated the process of removing Rosie's heart and that would be a new heart for Sam. Hours of time had passed, the surgeons continued they work tirelessly.

It requires a skillful hand to operate a human heart and plant it into a whole new body of a human. The technology of the time made it possible.