Cerian.
Reality:The state of being actual or real.
Reality:The entirety of all that is real. An individual observer's own subjective perception of that which is real.
Throughout the drive home,I kept stealing glances at Denver trying to evaluate him..he was being weirdly nice,there were no stress creases on his face,he wasn't complaining about my twitching eye and he kept running his palm on my laps.
Nothing weird there.
More weird is when he pulled over at our drive,he offered to get the door for me. That hasn't happened in two freaking years.
"You look tense," He stated,placing a hand at the small of my back.
"Sorry,"
That's another problem with me,I'm always saying sorry even when I don't have to. Denver chuckled at my response and lead me towards our door but didn't open, instead we halted and he turned to me and said "Follow me,"
"O-okay ,"
He opened the doors to our home and like a duckling waddling after mother duck ,I followed Yours Truly in not quite eager to see the surprise.
We've been down this road more times than once, we fight then he wins me back by giving me a surprise,last time it was a 1970 red mustang, the time before that was a silver chain with a quartz pendant and the time after the mustang was a painting of me. What would be the surprise this time? A yatch,a box of diamonds? A new Rolex?
I followed him up the flight of stairs to the first landing then a corridor leading to the game room..great!He probably bought the car simulator that I wanted. Instead of us walking straight to the game room, we walked past the room to the room no one ever uses. It was always like a storage room where we put all the stuff we didn't need.
"Okay,the surprise is right behind this door," He said reaching for the door handle.
"I wonder what's in the storage room," I tried not to be sarcastic,Denver was probably messing with me this whole time.
"Yeah,in the storage room," He clarified, "You ready?"
"Sure," I shrugged suddenly uninterested.
He twisted the handle and pushed the door open then waved for me to get in which I did not really expecting much. Normally,it takes weird maneuvers to get into the room,gentle measured steps as you try to avoid boxes piled up everywhere but today it was different, the room was completely different.
There were no boxes, the room was painted yellow with blue and green butterflies running across it ,there was a tiny office desk at the corner, a little white closet ,on the widow seat were hundreds of stuff toys neatly piled into a pyramid and blue,green and red bean bags in the middle. At the far front was a tiny queen bed with blue and green striped cotton sheets. It looked like a child's room.
"What is this?"
Denver who was still at the door, walked in the middle of the room,arms spread wide and twirled on his feet then turned to me with a wide smile, " I know I've been a bit of a dick," I crossed my arms over my chest and he chuckled, "Well much of a Dick,especially these last few months, so I thought about it and I remember you saying you wanted to start a family..."
He nervously scratched the back of his neck," I hate kids," For a second,my heart fell to my stomach,he brought me here to say that? " But since you love them maybe and your happiness sort of depends on it then..."
"We're having kids!" I exploded excitedly , "Are you fucking serious?"
"Serious enough to have this room done in half a day...Umm.. Surprise..."
Cue the tears..
He stepped closer and wrapped his hands around me,placing my head on his chest as he raked his slender fingers on my hair whilst whispering something in the lines of, "Sorry...I've been a jerk...I will always love you,"
After I was calm enough,I pulled away ,he took out his hanky and dabbed the few tears in my eyes, a soft smile playing on his lips,
"This means a lot to me," I said,my voice still shaky from crying.
"I know babe, it means a lot to me too but you have to promise one thing,"
"Yeah-"
"That you'll be patient with me and the adoption process, I still have to adjust to the fact that we'll be having a kid in this house and again adopting a kid isn't a walk in the park, it takes months,"
That's true,I remember how hard it was for Dean and Corny to finally get Crystal plus its not an easy process especially if you're a gay couple with big ass careers that it's hard to stay home.
"The room's a start,"I said.
"Come, I got another surprise ,it's in our room," He gently took my hand in his,my nerves immediately exploding due to the physical contact but not that he had to know.
There was a black box with a red flowery ribbon neatly placed at the center of our bed. I looked at the box then at Denver,eyebrow quirked up , "Open it," He instructed, "I'm sure you'll like it."
I picked the box,carefully pulled off the lid expecting something shiny and obscenely expensive but instead, inside the box was something sentimental, it was a blast from the past that held so much memories.
It was an old wooden necklace with an oval pendant with the words Yours truly Denver carved into it. He gave it to me on our first date that went horribly wrong because my father busted us. I've had the necklace ever since until two years ago when I lost it in Germany,I think (during tour) it still had the same burnt marks from after my dad tried to burn it but I saved it. It was my necklace.
"How- is this my necklace?" I still couldn't believe it. "It's been lost for years," I cried so much when I lost it that I became sick the next day. See how attached to the necklace.
"I had someone find it,the guy brought it to me a few days ago,"
"Thank you so much.."
"Here, lemme help," He took the necklace from my hand . I instinctively turned around,tilting my head up and he brought the necklace to my neck . I felt him fasten it and I felt something else too...soft feathery kisses on my neck that definitely turned my insides out igniting my body in flames.
"God you smell so good," He murmured between kisses,I just craned my head higher feeling myself drown in the pleasure.
His hands came up to my waist pulling me closer to him and that's what I felt it,the hardness between his legs poking at my back. My limbs felt weak with each kiss and thrust heaven knows how much I've wanted this and I was hopping to go all the way.
"Get on the bed," He ordered,pressing one last kiss on my neck before releasing me.
Obediently I crawled up on the bed and lay on the bed, propped up on my shoulders ,my eyes fixed on the now hazy eyes of my shirtless partner - wait,did I at one point in my life pass out and miss the part where he took of his shirt? I don't remember seeing him take it off.
Has he been working out? Gosh he's abs!
I felt dizzy just staring at the Greek god in front of me. He flicked his hair to the side and crawled up on the bed between my lips then leaned down and pressed his lips on mine. If I wasn't turned on from seeing him shirtless or his member poking on my back then I was turned on now.
The kiss that started out slowly and softly ,immediately escalated to rushed and rough,our tongues meeting in a delicate lust driven dance,hands roaming where they could as we grinded on each other.
He pulled away panting fast and hard,eyes blown like headlight,lips swollen from too much kissing,hair going in every which way, ( i'm sure i looked the same if not worse,) the break gave me time to catch my breath and slip off my shirt.
As soon as my shirt was discarded on the other side of the room, we both dived into it,kissing ,touching ,grinding while making little soft sounds and before long our pants had joined the shirts on the floor.
The rest of the night was magical,like we were thrown back in time to our wedding night where it was just us in the universe. We were closer than ever before, our fingers intertwining ,his body heat merging into mine, him thrusting in and out of me at a gentle pace that made me feel like I was touching the stars.
As I reached my climax,I wrapped my hand around him tightly ,eyes shit in blissful pleasure then let myself go,spurting white on both our torsos ,seconds later,he came deep inside me ,a string of curses following after as his body jerked and twitched.
"That was awesome," He panted,dropping on the empty space beside me then picked up a shirt and wiped himself off doing the same for me, "I love you more than you'll ever know" He kissed my forehead.
"I love you too," I said lazily as my eyes shut and just like that I was out but for the first time in forever,I felt happy.
I was going to have kids...
I just had sex with my husband.
Why shouldn't I be happy?
Err...that happened..