On their way to the Si residence, Si Ning felt numb, riding his horse he couldn't feel the breeze on his face, didn't feel like he was breathing properly, he couldn't see how they rode down the tarred road, couldn't see people who stopped just to see who were riding so early at dawn, he couldn't register a thing, he was aware he could see and feel everything yet he doesn't see it or feel it at the same time, he could feel the breeze hitting his face yet he couldn't feel it, he could feel his hands holding the reins of his horse yet he couldn't feel his hands nor feel it holding a thing, he felt his heart beating in his chest so loud he couldn't hear anything else and at that moment he couldn't feel his heart.